Remember to Forget

Chapter 20

XAVIER

I have tried making my marriage work.

This have been good so far.

But The last year was the hardest.

I don't know how much longer I can take care of Bella.

She jas found numerous ways to cause trouble between me and Jia Xia.

She seems to always land herself in trouble the moment Jia Xia needs me.

I was finally planning a trip with Jia Xia and this time I was going through with it.

Ibwas busy looking at some documents when my phone rang.

Bella.

I looked at it and finally answered.

"Bella, can I call you back... I am..."

"Xavier, my parents are in town thus weekend, please you have to come with me to explain to them what happened 2 years ago.. I can't face them alone.. Please..."

I couldn't believe it.

Her family never once came uo simce she moved back and now the weekend I had something planned for me and Jia Xia they suddenly appeared.

Deep down I knew this was all Bella's tricks.

She must have someone feeding her information on my plans because she always knows when to get my attention.

I hate this.

The guilt of hurting my unborn child was still weighing on my heart and because of that I always did whatever Bella needed.

"Bella, please can't it wait... Please..."

She started crying.

I had gotten so use to jer crying.

Whenever I said no she would cry.

But this time wasn't going to be the same as always.

I cut the call.

I can't let Jia Xia down again.

Bella didn't call again.

But an hour later my father called.

" Xavier, you need to come home, Jia Xia knows we knew about Bella, she is really upset."

I grabbed my coat and ran out.

I wasn't wanting for sam to come.

I jumped in my car and raced home.

I was just about to enter when Jia Xia came storming out.

"Jia Xia..."

She pushed past me and walked down the driveway.

I wanted to go after her but my father in law stopped me.

"Xavier, we trusted you, we gave you time, and this is how you repay us... Honestly... I don't think I can help you anymore... If she decides to leave, don't stop her.. Do you understand me..."

He said and got in his car my mother in law followed but said nothing.

I went inside.

My father sat at the table.

I sat down my hands on my face.

" Xavier, how much longer will you play this game?"

I looked at my father in disbelief.

He was thinking I was playing with Jia Xia.

"Can you please tell me what you think it is I am playing... Do you have any idea how hard this has been for me... You only see things from your perspective, but can you for just once try and support me..."

I knew deep down my father was on my side but I was just so angry at myself.

He said nothing and left.

I sat there waiting for Jia Xia to come home but when she didn't I went to bed.

I had barely gotten in bed when I heard her come in.

She went into the shower and than after a few minutes came to bed.

I turned to her.

Holding her was like holding onto a burning rope.

I knew at any moment the fire would burn through the rope and I would be left with nothing.

I tried to apologize, but I knew this apology was the same as numerous times before.

I couldn't blame her.

She suddenly got up and walked out of our room.

I heard her old room door close and than lock.

I remember that she always did this, but I always had the upper hand and made her come back to bed.

I got up and went to her room.

I knocked but she just ignored me.

I told her I couldn't sleep without her.

I asked her to come back to bed.

But she ignored me.

Suddenly I got anxiety.

I was going to lose her.

I got angry and said somethings I didn't mean but she still ignored me.

I hated myself at that moment.

I grabbed my phone and keys and left.

I need a drink.

I drove to the nearest bar.

I sat down and started drinking heavily.

One after the other i kept drinking.

Soon I was unable to stand.

I saw someone approaching me.

I took a closer look and it was Bella.

She knew just when to show up.

In my drunken state I grabbed her arm and started yelling at her.

"You did this..., you broke my heart and than killed my child and now... Now you broke my marriage... Bella Ann... I hate you..."

She suddenly kissed me.

The alcohol took effect and I couldn't stop myself.

We left in my car and drove to her apartment.

Omce we got inside things got out of hand.

I torn her clothes and pushed her up against the wall.

I didn't want her but this wasn't me it was drunk Xavier.

This wasn't the first time either.

Everytime I would get drunk, i would end up in Bella's bed.

I woke up my head throbbed.

I felt something heavy laying on my chest.

I recognized the red hair.

It was Bella.

O god damit just f*****g kill me already.

I pushed her off me than got up.

"Baby come back to bed..."

Came her voice.

What the hell was wrong with her.

I got dressed and walked to the kitchen.

"Xavier wait... I need you to take me to the doctor, I... I haven't had my period in like two months... Please.."

I turned around and felt all the air leave my lungs.

God no....

This wasn't happening.

I knew exactly what she wanted to say.

she was pregnant...

This would really be the end.

I can't remember how many times I had s*x with Bella in the last two years but I am sure this was the first time in well... A while...

"Bella dont f**k with me..."

She smiled than came towards me.

"Xavier... We can finally have the baby we lost..."

I didn't want a baby with her.

I wanted Jia Xia to have my children.

Suddenly I thought about something.

In two years Jia Xia never fell pregnant.

Was something wrong with her?

Was she ill?

Than Bella went to shower.

I looked at the time it was already noon.

No use in going to the office now.

After she showered i took a quick shower than we left for the doctors office.

As we sat waiting for her turn, i heard one of the nurses call Mrs Lee...

I looked around thinking it must be Jia Xia.

But than she said Mrs Bella Ann lee...

What the hell.

She said she was my wife.

"Relax, i couldn't say I was your girlfriend now could I... You coming...?"

I didn't want to go inside so instead I walked out and sat down waiting for Bella.

I was praying she wasn't pregnant.

I couldn't think of how I would explain this to Jia Xia.

Not to long after she came out her face all smiles.

I knew what she was going to say.

I took her to the side of the office.

She than told me she was pregnant.

I asked her is she was sure.

She said she is and we could finally get married... She didn't want our baby to be father less.

Her word cut my heart deep.

I wanted to hear these words from Jia Xia,not her!

"Bella, I can't believe you, you have played so many different tricks to break up my marriage, now this..."

She started crying and sobbing.

"Xavier please..."

She tried to hold my hand.

I knew I had to end this now.

"Bella if you're really pregnant, I will take care of this child but not until I have a DNA test proving its mine, do you understand me..."

I said and pulled my hand from hers.

I walked oit of tje doctors offices.

I was in deep s**t.

What am I supposed to do now.

I suddenly needed to see my wife.

I headed to the office.

She was my father's PA.

I walked into the elevator and pressed 10.

When the door opened i walk to Jia Xia's desk.

She wasn't there.

Maybe in dad's office.

I knocked and walked in.

My dad wasn't there either.

Maybe they had gone for a meeting.

I looked at the time.

It was well pass lunch.

So maybe they were having lunch at home.

I asked the other ladies were dad or Jia Xia was.

She said dad left for a meeting and that Jia Xia left before lunch but hasn't returned.

Maybe she wasn't feeling well and went home.

I headed down and got into my car and drove home.

Her car wasn't there.

I suddenly remember seeing her car at the office parking lot.

I called sam.

He said she left in a taxi before lunch but didn't return.

I looked at the time 3 pm.

I got out and walked into the house.

Mrs Noona was busy folding the washing.

When she saw me she turned pale.

"Noona, where is Jia Xia... Is she at home.?"

She didn't answer.

I walked upstairs and opened our room door.

I had the shock of my life.

Bella's Pantie was on my pillow.

I knew this was hers because I bought them for her a while back when she was in the hospital.

God damit how did these get her.

I grabbed it and went to Noona.

"Whats this?"

"And what's it doing on my pillow?"

She started crying.

"I'm so sorry Xavier, I didn't tell you sooner, everytime you'd come back from miss Bella's I would find her panties in ur bag or your jacket but I would throw them away before Jia Xia found them... But today she caught me when I was doing the laundry... I tried to explain but... "

I couldn't believe this.

Bella has been playing dirty all along.

I started wondering if everything that happened was planned by her.

Missing my 1 year anniversary.

Missing Jia Xai's graduation.

Missing her birthday...

I finally understood why she was so angry last night.

She must have known what Bella was doing all along and watching me make a fool out of myself everytime running when ever Bella called.

I couldn't imagine how much pain she must have felt.

I called her phone but it was off.

I called her father but she wasn't there.

I called Ha bin her school friend but he said he hasn't spoken to her in months.

I started panicking.

What if she did something stupid.

I ran out of the house and jumped in my car.

I drove all over A city looking for her.

Than I drove to Shanghai and did the same.

Still nothing.

Finally at 6 am the next morning I drove to the police station.

I filled a missing person report, but they said she had to be missing for 48 hours or more before I could open the file.

I was scared out of my mind.

I drove to all the hospitals and searched for her in all the places I thought she could be.

Clubs, restaurants, hotels, malls, theaters... You name it.

I searched it.

But I couldn't find her.

I went back home.

Maybe she was already home.

Yes...

I was so sure she would be home.

When I finally got home I ran inside but not a single soul was there.

What have I done....