Remember to Forget

Chapter 32

XAVIER

My father called me and said the detective /acquaintance he handed all Jia Xia's information to had needed to meet with us.

We met him at my father's house.

He took out a small brown envelope.

Than he proceeded to tell us he wasn't able to find anything other than where she was and what she was doing after she left A city, he found a few medical records dating from the birth of her children, no marriage records or anything else.

Nothing, like she was literally living in a different world.

Finally he opened the document and handed to me.

He continued...

She had been living in Z city...

I was shocked, I spent so many days their staying with Ling and she was actually right there under my nose...

I thought about the woman I saw that day in the market, I wasn't delusional it was her...

He said their was a record of birth for the twins but no fathers details had been entered, and to my surprise date of birth was a week before my so called wedding with Bella.

He said all the early records of hers from her time in A city were destroyed during a fire accident a few years back.

He couldn't even find any doctors who could remember treating her during the time she lived in A city or Shanghai.

He said she returned to her family home when she came back.

Thats a relief.

I thought back to what dr Hayden said about her having an affair during our marriage, but that made no sense because Sam told me everything she had done while he was with her and he never mentioned her having anything to do with any man.

Yes Sam.

He must know where she was treated for the miscarriage.

I called him.

"Sam... I need to ask you something..."

Silence.

"Xavier, Sam is out he forgot his phone at home, can I tell him to call you back...?"

Bella spoke.

I didn't want to speak with her.

"Xavier..."

Came her voice again.

I was about to hang up.

"Bella i need to know were Jia Xia was being treated when she had the miscarriage..."

She was silent.

"she was seeing a female doctor at H Hospital.. You remember the one.."

I cut the call before she could continue.

I was feeling my blood boil.

She knew Jia Xia had a miscarriage.

Was it not for the fact that I wanted to fix everything I had done she would be the first person I would kill, even if I had to go to jail.

After cooling of I told the detective the new information.

He wrote it down and than my father saw him out.

I kept thinking about what could the possible explain all the information.

A pregnancy last 9-10 months at most, and from what I have heard twins usually are born early...

If she got pregnant after she left she would be around 6 months not 9 or 10 when I was supposed to marry Bellas and if she wasn't she was either having an affair or...

They were mine...

The thought that she would leave knowing she was pregnant with my children made me very angry.

Maybe she found out afterwards.

But than whay push for divorce.

What ever her reasons were...

I couldn't blame her.

She knew about Bella being pregnant so maybe she thought I wouldn't want our children.

I suddenly feel like my heart was being ripped out of my chest.

I made her think such horrible things.

She actually believes I wanted to be with Bella.

I can't handle all the truths coming to light.

Everything I put her through.

I wasn't worthy of her.

Maybe i should just give up.

Let her be happy.

She deserves to be happy

My mind drifted to the two children she has.

My heart was swelling at the thought that they might be mine.

But how would I explain to them why I wasn't there with them all these years.

How do I tell them what I had done to their mother.

My heart was saying something while my mind was saying something else.

My father came to me.

"Xavier... If those children are yours... I will make sure we bring them home.."

"dad if they are mine... And I'm being straight with you, please understand me... i won't ever take them from her... I don't deserve her or them... Can you understand?"

My father sighted.

"Xavier, you made a lot of mistakes but I don't think you deserve to not know your children... I think we just wait... If we find anything proving they are yours we can work from there... Now eat and sleep.. Don't drive like this..."

I knew my father ment well but I needed to go home.

It was the only place I could cry freely.

I was driving home when I suddenly saw the sign board

" Shanghai 5miles"

What?

I couldn't believe I was detracted thinking about Jia Xia I actually drove towards her.

I couldn't go see her.

I saw a coffee shop.

I pulled over and went inside.

The moment I walked in I saw Jia Xia.

I stopped in my tracks.

She was happily talking with some guy.

I recognized him immediately.

Xiao Fang Lei

He is the son of Farnace logistics.

The company I was working with on a contract.

I watched them talking, she was smiling the way she use to smile when she was with me.

Was this the man everyone was talking about.

But that was impossible.

Yes he is from a very influential family but he just recently returned from abroad.

I was more and more sure her children was non other than mine.

I continued walking in and my feet carried me towards her.

I wasn't in control.

"Jia Xia"

Her name was all I could say.

I never once called her anything other than her name.

Fang Lei wasn't to happy.

"Mr Lee, please mind your manners.. Don't talk so casually to my fiance... Please"

I was about to say something but when he took her hand and called her his love, and even spoke about the children waiting for them, my heart shattered.

Maybe it was all true.

She was having an affair.

She didn't leave because of Bella.

She left out of guilt.

I watched as she walked out.

She looked back at me.

I couldn't see anything anymore.

There was nothing in her eyes or her expression.

How could I have been so foolish.

I watched as she embarrassed Fang Lei and him her.

Than they left in separate cars.

I was going crazy.

What was going on!

I left and drove straight to Ling.

I called her to tell her I was coming over.

When i rwached I parked my car and walked up to her door, she opened the minute I rang the bell.

"Xavier are you okay..."

I took her in my arms and held her.

All I wanted and needed was someone who wanted me.

We stood there for a while than she walked me into the house.

"Xavier what's going on..."

She asked.

I wasn't ready to tell her.

"Do you want me?"

I asked.

"Xavier.. Of course but..."

I didn't let her finish.

I grabbed her and pulled her against me.

I kissed her hard.

She was startled but than kissed me back.

She knew my personality so well.

I picked her up and carried her to her room

.

For the first time I wasn't in a hurry.

She was the only women I wanted be with right now.

Thats what I thought.

I kissed her softly, but everytime I looked at her I could only see Jia Xia.

What was wrong with me.

I kept kissing her, my hands trailing her body.

I was trying hard not to think about Jia Xia but I just couldn't.

I pulled away and laid next to her.

"Xavier, what is going on... Your not your self.. Please your scaring me.."

I just laid there.

"Jia Xia gave birth to my children 6 years ago... I think they are mine anyway... I... I don't know... But.. I wish they are... Maybe.. She can forgive me for their sake.. Maybe.."

I was now crying.

Limg pulled me toward her and I laid my head on her chest.

" Shhhh... It okay... I am here for you,

Xavier... We will work through this together... "

I just laid there.

My heart was really worse than it had ever been.

I couldn't understand how I could love someone so mush that I felt like I was about to die just thinking she was with someone else.

I drifted of to sleep.

Tears still running from my eyes.