Chapter 33
954 Words
Jia Xia
The next few weeks went by so fast.
After I agreed to start dating Fang Lei our relationship suddenly just took off.
We went to the beach with the boys and for movies and camping, he literally took them every were with us and my boys loved him the minute they met him.
Tonight was going to be different.
It was only me and him.
We are going to dinner and then a late night movie.
My mom was taking the boys with her to the mall to go and play some games at the arcades so I was free.
I chose a pink top and white skirt amd pulled my hair bck.
I was busy putting some makeup on when suddenly the door opened.
Zain came in.
"Mommy you look so beautiful, im sure daddy will be surprised.."
I was surprised.
He just called Fang Lei daddy.
I took him in my arms.
"Zain who told you he is your father.. We.."
"Hayaan said he was our daddy, mommy he aslo said that he left us because he was working far away thats why he only came now.. Is Hayaan lying mommy?"
He looked up at me.
I want to tell him the truth bit he looked so happy when he spoke about Fang Lei being his father.
Maybe i can wait and see how things go before tell them both the truth.
" no he isn't... "
He got of my lap kissed my cheek and ran out.
What will happen if they find out the real truth.
I finished and went down.
Fang Lei was waiting for me im the living room.
His eyes lt up when I walked in.
Zain was right.
He walk to me and kissed my cheek.
"you look lovely.."
He whisper in my ear.
I felt his hand caressing my lower back.
His touch was different tonight.
I smiled and we rhan proceeded to leave.
The drive to the restaurant was quite.
Fang Lei would look at me once or twice and he would have this smile hanging on his lips.
What was on his mind.
We stopped at the restaurant and went inside.
He ordered all my favorite foods.
We spoke and ate, I having a good time.
After dinner we went to the movies.
We were sitting watching the movie when fang lei put his arm around my shoulder.
I looked up at him.
He was looking down at me, his eyes on my lips.
This was the first time anyone other than Xavier was so closed to me and looking at me like this.
He leaned in closing the distance between us.
I held my breath.
His lips touched mine.
His kiss was soft and warm.
He started moving his lips on mine, this was different from Xavier kiss.
I kiss him back slowly.
He was honestly a good kisser.
His tongue brushes against my lips and than past them.
His tongue soon sweeping every part of my mouth.
Soon his kiss was becoming more passionate.
I was feeling the heat burn in every movement.
He pulled away.
"Do you think we can..."
I knew what he was saying.
"Maybe I should..."
I kissed him softly on his lips.
"Fang Lei... Lets get out of here..."
He looks surprised.
I got up and pulled him behind me.
We got to his car, before we got in he turned me around and pressed me against the car.
He kissed me.
Pushing me hard again the door.
I could feel his desire pressing against my thigh.
I suddenly felt sick.
I pushed him away and than proceeded to vomit.
He patted my back
"Jia Xia... Are you okay..."
I remember the last time I vomited when I thought about Xavier with Bella.
Why was this coming up now of all times.
I took out a tissue from my bag and wiped my mouth.
"Yeah... Im fine.. Maybe just my stomach upset with eating so much earlier..."
I said wishing that's the truth.
The thing is.
After my experience with Xavier not only did I vomit everytime I was kissing someone els or even thinking about being intimate with anyone else but I would become extremely sick for days after wards...
My mind was a horrible thing
Fang Lei understood.
He helped me into the car and he took me home.
As we arrived I was about to apologize but he stopped me.
"Jia Xia... Its normal to react like that, you have been traumatized by Xavier and I know it's going to be a long road but I really hope you will give me the opportunity to continue with you..."
I smiled and felt relieved he knew the truth.
I didn't want him think i wasn't attracted to him, because I really was but my mind wasn't right yet.
He kissed my cheek and said goodbye than drove away.
I walked into the house.
Everything was so quiet.
I walked upstairs and entered my room.
I laughed at myself.
Xavier has literally damaged me so much that I might never ever be able to be intimate with anyone else.
This was the biggest scare he could have left on me.
I took of my shoes and the top I was wearing off and threw them on the floor.
In my underwear only I walked to my bed.
I got into bed, and soon drifted into a deep sleep.
I had no energy left.
My body was already going into sick mode.
Things like this reminds me that I still only loved Xavier.
My heart and body everything belongs to him.
Its times like this I wished I didn't ever start to love him at all...
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