Remember to Forget

Chapter 34

XAVIER

"Xavier please, stop... Your going to hurt yourself.. Xavier..."

Ling was shouting at me from across the room.

After I saw Jia Xia and Fang Lei everything seems to have changed.

I couldn't kiss or have s*x with any woman.

I tried many time even when I was completely drunk and out of my mind I would just end up crying my heart out instead of actually doing the deed.

I was having the time of my life.

Drinking, , partying... Taking up any distraction I thought of.

I haven't slept in well... Days if not more.

When I close my eyes I see Jia Xia.

Ling come over helps me down and sits me down, i was hanging from the ropes on the climbing wall.

Like I said...

I have doing everything I can to stay sain.

And rock climbing was just one more thing that has failed.

Ling booked the whole area so that no one would be around to see me in this state.

"Xavier... Snap out of it... Your being reckless... What if something happened, what about fixing things with Jia Xia and your boys... Can. You.."

The mention of Jia Xia makes me angry.

I push Ling down onto her back on the floor were we was sitting.

"Ling... Lets do it here..."

She looks at me surprised.

I have tried having s*x with her more than once in the past two weeks but failed every time.

"Xavier... Your having a mental block thats all... I don't want to keep doing this...

She pushed me of her and got up.

She walked to her bag and threw keys at me.

" Here's the hotel room key, go sleep I have some business to take care off. ".

I was still trying to say something but she was already out the door.

I lay down and stair at the ceiling.

She might be right but I have already decided to give up.

I can't think of anything else.

Jia Xia don't want me, and I don't know how to fix anything.

My mind was blank.

I got up and grabbed my bag.

I walked to the reception and gave the manager the gym keys than walked across the road to my car.

I got into my car.

My phone suddenly rang.

Dr Hayden.

"Hey Hayden... How are you.."

"Xavier... Jia Xia has been admitted to H hospital... She isn't doing so well.. I..."

By the mere mention of her not being well,I stopped listening.

I disconnected the call and started my car.

I drove straight to the hospital.

At the hospital I ran straight to reception.

" Good evening sir... How.. "

" Jia Xia Ying... Which floor..."

She smiled than typing something on the computer and gave me the floor and room number.

I raced to the elevator.

Its taking to long.

I rush over to the stairs.

I was running uo the stairs.

When I finally got to the 6 floor, I pushed the door open and walked to room 609.

I was turning the corner when I suddenly stopped.

There was two small boys standing in the hallway.

My Ex father in law and mother in law sitting on the bench in front of the room.

Fang Lei pacing uo and down.

My eyes resting on the boys.

The looked like Jia Xia, brown hair, I could see they didn't look anything like Fang Lei, in fact when the one boy turn toward me I saw his face, he looked like a small copy of me.

Both boys had a lightly tanned skin, the boy who was turned toward me had the same shape as me, his face was longer than the other boy's and his nose was also same as mine, only his big round eyes was Jia Xia's.

I turned around my back against the wall.

They are mine.

I am sure of it.

There's no way I am not their father.

I took a deep breath.

I have to do this.

I can't avoid paying for my mistakes anymore.

Slowly I turned the conner and walked to the room.

Jia Xia's parents both got up upon seeing me.

"Uncle, aunt..."

I saw my mother in wasn't upset but my father in law was.

"You have no business being here"

Came Fang Lei voice.

I scoffed.

I turned to my in laws,and bowed in front of them.

"Please forgive me, I... I don't know what I can do to fix this but please give me a chance to at least be a father to my children..."

My father was about to take a step forward but my mother in law stopped him.

She placed her hands on my shoulder making me look at her.

" Xavier... We can't be the ones to forgive you, and in the end we can't stop you from being a father either but please think this through.. Its not as simple as you think.."

I looked at her.

What does she mean.

"Mother.. I.. Aunty, please... I just want a single chance, I truly only love Jia Xia, I couldn't stop loving hwr all these years... Please.."

She smiled and spoke again.

"Xavier... Jia Xia has a very week heart... She might not live much longer, her heart is failing... I... I..."

I watched as my father in law took her in his arms and they sat down.

When did this happen.

"I... Can I see her.. Please.."

Fang Lei wanted to stop me but my father in law spoke

"Xavier, say whatever you need to say to her.. This might be your last chance.."

I could not believe what was happening.

I waited to long.

I am going to loose her forever.

I looked at the boys standing behind Fang Lei.

They need her more than me, what if sje doesn't make it.

I walked into her room.

She was laying in the ned as if she was in a deep sleep.

I walked over and sat down.

I took her hand.

Tears I was holding back soon came falling down my cheeks.

"Jia Xia... Its me.. Its Xavier..."

Nothing.

"I know I am late, and I know you're very angry towards me, and I know you might never forgive me, but I want to tell you everything... I need you to know everything.."

I spoke soft and slow.

I told her just how much I love her and how I was so proud of her for raising our babies all by herself, how she was an amazing wife and mother and how I never once stopped loving her, I begged for hwr forgiveness and begged her to come back and fight for our boys, I kissed her hands as I spoke.

I than made her a promise.

If she kept fighting and came back to me and our boys I would make her the happiest woman in the world, I would do whatever she asks and never once leave her side.

I will be the best husband and father for tje rest of our lives.

I looked at herand saw nothing.

She looked like she was already dead.

My heart was clenched thinking about her being gone.

I placed a kiss on her lips rhan left the room.

I walked out and the moments I closed the door my boys were grabbing at my legs.

"Please don't leave... Mommy need you... Please.. We promise we will be good don't leave us again..."

They were both crying.

I couldn't believe what they were saying.

Why would I leave them, I just got them.

I sat down and hugged them both.

"I PROMISE.. No matter what happens.. I will never again leave you or your mommy.. That's my promise.."

They wrapped their arms around my neck.

I suddenly felt like rhe strongest man alive.

I picked them both up.

Than kissed them on their cheeks.

"Wow.. Look grandmother, daddy is so strong.. Look.."

I didn't see Fang Lei.

Maybe he left.

I sat down with my in laws.

They told me what had happened.

They said Jia Xia was suffering from degenerative Heart disease.

She started showing symptoms during our marriage but it was all simply pushed aside and treated as depression.

She said it was something doctors said she had since birth but because she had an easy childhood she never showed any symptoms.

The stress from our marriage was the trigger.

I asked why only now it got this bad.

My mother in law than told me about her coma after giving birth to the twins.

I missed so much, and she went through som much alone.

She continued and said she would need a heart transplant if she was to continue living, but her blood type didn't match any of the doners.

I just sat there.

I felt so helpless.

The boys fell asleep in my arms.

I looked at them.

"He is Zain and this little one is Hayaan.. He is your copy already..."

My mother in law said.

Zain and Hayaan.

I had two beautiful boys.

She gave me two boys.

She was the right woman after all.