Remember to Forget

Chapter 39

Jia Xia

I don't know why but since I arrived here, my mind keeps drifting to my days I spent with Xavier.

He was the last person I should be thinking about but somehow I just keep replying our time together.

Our first date was around two weeks after we first made love.

Xavier had taken the day of from the office and we decided to go to the beach.

I packed all his favorite things and left some space for the few extras I wanted to pack.

I was busy packing when his strong arm wrapped around my waist, resting his chin on my shoulder and his face in my neck.

"Aaa... I can't imagine anything better than holding my beautiful wife in my arm..."

He said before kissing my neck.

He was trailing kisses down my neck, around to my shoulders and by back...

I felt his desire growing against my back side.

He pressed himself hard against me.

" god, you smell so nice... Your skin is so sweet... How about we skip the beach... I don't think I can concentrate..."

I turned around to face him,his desire clearly visible in his gaze.

"Xavier, we will have enough time to... You know... Lets go to the beach... I haven't been there in so long..."

I said my face red.

Although we have had s*x a few times after that night I still felt shy thinking about all the explicit things we did...

He smiled.

" You know yoir so cute all flushed... I love watching you blush... "

Than he kissed my lips softly.

" Mmm... Okay baby... Lets go... But I want dessert when we get home..."

Again I blushed...

He has been calling me baby since well.... I don't even know.

But I loved it.

He picked up tje basket held my hand and we left for the beach.

We sat on the beach enjoying the sunshine.

He was sitting next to me than suddenly moved behind me placing his legs beside me and pulling me in between his legs, my back resting to his chest.

I was a bit startled but feeling his heart beat against my back, had this calming effect on me.

I relaxed.

"You know... I have never been to the beach on a date before"

I was surprised, to say the least.

I looked back at him, he kissed my cheek.

"Bella doesn't like the sand on her skin or her clothes, so we never came here... Always malls, movies, shopping dinners... Nothing as nice as this..."

I felt my stomach turning hearing that woman's name.

He was here with me and he was thinking about her.

I was about to get up, but he pulled me back.

" Don't get the wrong idea..."

He said.

" I am so lucky I found you, I am able to experience so many firsts with you... I honestly have so many things I want to do with you..."

I sighed.

"Bella was you first love, your first kiss, your first s****l partner... I.. Am...just a replacement... I"

He turned my face and kissed me...

"Jia Xia... Although she was all those firsts...

Your the first girl I slept with who wasn't touched by anyone else, your the first girl I can't wait to see when I wake up, the first girl who's scent drives me crazy, the first girl I can actually see myself having a family with... "

I know he is lieing

" I wanted to marry Bella, that's true but I never thought of having a family with her... I think deep down she was just like my addiction, something I was struggling to control... Something I didn't need but really wanted... But that has all changed since I met you... "

I just kept listening to him.

I wanted to feel happy about his words but I didn't want to misinterpreted them.

" The first time I saw your picture, my heart was beating extremely fast, my eyes was running all over the place.. My mimd stopped working for a second..."

He said while laughing loudly.

I suddenly felt like maybe he wasn't lieing.

"You know the day we first met, it was nearly impossible for me to not have my way with you the second I had a chance, the Lilly scent radiating from your body sent my heart and body into shutting down... My heart felt weak my body was hot... I couldn't believe someone I had just met had that effect on me... I don't know if you noticed but I was literally running away from you that day... "

I was now firmly in his grasp.

His arms wrapped around my body, his head in my neck.

" and... What else...? "

I asked, shyness taking me by surprise.

" And that's when I knew I had definitely fallen in love with you... I knew that if I was in love with Bella at all, my heart wouldn't have wavered..."

I feel joy creeping up in my heart and making my already red face even more red.

He kissed me again.

" When did you know you fell for me?"

His question came out of nowhere.

I wasn't ever sure when or why, I just knew I wanted to be his.

" Thats hard to say... Maybe I wasn't aware of my love for you until you gave me a choice... Maybe I knew than..."

He hugged me tightly.

" well... It really doesn't matter, as long as you only love me from now on, I will be more than happy... I just want us to be happy... Have a family and live a long life together... Okay... "

I was very happy.

He made me happy.

We unpacked the basket and started enjoying the food as we chatted about everything we didn't know about each other.

That day was perfect.

We ate, we laughed we enjoyed the ocean and we made love that night.

My heart was suddenly racing, I couldn't breath...

The monitor was beeping louder and louder.

The woman who I still don't know who she is, came running in.

"Jia Xia is having another attack... Call the doctor fast..!"

She yelled.

With in minutes the doctor was by my side, he ejected something in my vein and my heart rate came down.

"She needs to have the heart transplant soon... We can't wait anymore... If this goes on she will surely die before end of the week..."

Came the doctors voice.

"doctor, your the one in charge of finding the heart, why are you telling me this... You better understand one thing, you have 24 hours than I won't waist a single moment to expose everything about what you have done.. Do you understand.."

The woman's voice was fuelled with anger but I senced a hint of sadness.

Who is she...

Why is she doing all this for me...

I felt my body relax and slowly I drifted of to sleep.

I can't think of anything.

I need to forget...

Xavier's memories was beautiful but also deadly...

I need to forget so I can live...