Two of everything from birth

My real mother has problems

I am not impressed with her, my real mother. She is a very aggressive person. She smokes and she is blowing the smoke in my direction, and now she's coming closer and I can see her eyes are red rimed and I am just appalled at this woman who is supposed to be my mother. Maybe it's because I am just angry at her for what she did to me. She should know the truth and I can't ask her now because of Paul. I can't get it over my heart or head or anything right now I feel like smashing something , so different to my usual plassid self that makes me afraid of my true feelings. I look at her and just stand there lifeless like a robot so that my eyes are moving and just looking at her. In my mind I am asking Why??Why?? Why did you reject me Mother....

So much pain is washing over my heart and soul and I can't move... She is coming closer to me and she walks around me and I freeze as my anger and resentment is starting to show in my face.

That is when she says, "Oh, yes you hate me I can see it in your eyes."

What hate ??? I don't hate her, she is my Mother how do I say how I feel towards her?? "I don't hate you Mother!"

I say it too fast and with so much emotion I go to her and hold out my arms and fold them around her and give her a big hug and a kiss on her cheek. She is so shocked as she pushes me away from her and she is smiling a question mark is in her eyes as she's now looking at me. She's so beautiful, my Mother, as she says"Wow are you feeling 'ok, boy you seem to be very emotional tonight.!"

Linda breaks the ice by hooking my harm in hers and giving me an encouraging squeeze as she says , " Yes my angel you are quite emotional tonight!"

My father is looking relaxed and happy as he says let's go to the eating room as I had a special banquet prepared for all of us and he says to Linda its a pity your sister could not be here with us.

He asks her if she is Laura and she giggles as she says no sir I am Linda. I see my father has a frown on his face when she says her name then he says" Oh well , you young people know what you want as I thought he liked Laura.". I turned to Linda and I look into her eyes when I say " I definitely love Linda, Dad." Wow I said love , and a joy so great surge's into my heart that says yes , yes it's true I do love Linda.

My father is now happy as he says , "That is great son you finally are admitting who you love at last now we can all have dinner and breath a sigh of relief to knowing who your real love is".

When we get to the "dinner" it's more like a state spread with more food than ten people can eat. We have the most pleasant evening with toasts for tomorrow and then my father says he's thinking of me running the "alien invasion " game he is planning for next month to spice things up as there will be competitions for the TV PROGRAM audience as well. He just wanted to have this supper with me"Paul" as he thinks that I am Paul and discuss everything so that things can run smoothly for our two year experiment that starts tomorrow morning. He is waiting for the answer of his question and he's lost me in the thought process as I ask him to please repeat the question.

He asked me, "Will you run the "Alien invasion" game? " I am overjoyed to do so and I tell him yes it's going to be great ,"Don't you think so?"