Ghost

CHAPTER 13

I saw her. She's kissing Anton and it's not a lusty kinda kiss. It's passionate and chaste at the same time. Naramdaman kong nanigas ang binti ko sa kinatatayuan ko. This is not happening. My heart got broken for nothing. She can't break his heart. She just can't.

"No." I softly said to myself. Ako ang nasasaktan para kay Benedict. His beloved girlfriend is cheating witg him. This is beyond frustrating. Hindi ko alam kung sasabihin ko ba o puprotektahan na lang siya.

They kissed in the hidden side of the campus auditorium. Sinundan ko kasi si Annie dahil may kakaiba sa paglalakad niya kanina. She's acting really weird at hindi niya normal ang mukhang kinakabahan. She cheated ln the best man to ever love in the world. My heart is breaking for him. Tanga na kung tanga, pero ganun talaga. I have this strong unconditional love for him.

I bitterly smiled while crying. Grabe, kawawa naman si Benedict. I tried to make minimal movements para hindi nila ako makita. She's happy to see Benedict but why is she cheating on him?

"You are the sweetest girl I tasted, Annie Jane. I don't know if I'll get enough." Anton said while caressibg Annie's face. Kinakabahan ako baka makakita ako ng di dapat makita. Hindi ako ready sa mala R-18 na eksena kaso hindi naman akong pwedeng umalis kasi nga makikita ako.

"You make me feel alive, Anton Lee. You drive me insane." Then another peck coming from Anton landed on Annie's neck. Jusmiyo talaga ngang matindi na ang ginagawa nila. They kiss... a little bit bit different from earlier. They are starting to get the place steamy and it's crazy.

I sat behind the huge curtains and closed my eyes. I can hear all Annie's moans. They are having s*x for crying out loud! Hindi na virgin si Annie! Tama bang nandito ako? Corrupted na ang utak ko lalo. I can't be here knowing this sight will destroy Benedict. Matagal niyang tinrabaho anv panliligae kay Annie pero ganito lang? Tangina di ko na nga tinalo ang best friend ko kasi akala ko banal si Annie, iyon pala banal-banalan ang gaga.

I saw Annie's eyes. They are driven with passion not lust. She loves Anton, pero bakit nga ba sinagot niya si Benedict? What is the fvcking reason?! Why is she... Ayoko nang magtanong sa isip ko. Mababaliw lang ako. I got broken and now he'll feel the pain I felt.

"Anton, it's embarrassing but... Oh my... I feel burning everytime you touch my skin. I feel weird. I feel... Complete." Annie spoke as Anton make his move on top of her caressing each part that makes her burn even more. Annie is goinf insane with the uncontrollable passion and she's holding onto his hair savagely.

"But I feel so happy with you, Annie. Kahit na nasa... anino mo lang ako, masaya na ako. Kahit hindi ako ang first priority mo, basta second ako, okay na sa akin. I would never deman more from you. I'm willing to receive leftovers of your attention. Kahit nga wala na eh, basta tingnan mo lang ako sa mata." I felt a pang of pain for him, we're just the same. Pareho kaming humihingi ng kakarampot na atensyon sa minamahal namin. I saw myself in Anton.

Pain demands to be felt. Ayokong maranasan ni Benedict ang nangyayari sa akin.

Anton is not the type of guy na loko-loko. He's actually very responsible. Nakikita kong mahal ni Annie si Anton and same as him, pero bakit nga ba hindi na lang sila magsama? If they love each other, go lang ng go!

They fixed themselves and eventually left. I collapsed on the floor, lying in there and stared at the ceiling. Nakakastress naman kasi. Bakit ba kailangan ko pang makita ang nga ganung bagay?! Fvck this mess. Bakit ba kasi ang daming nasasaktang tao? Magpakatotoo na lang kasi si Annie. Wala namang masama kung si Anton naman talaga ang mahal niya.

Nagpunta ako ng next class ko, still dazed. Hindi yata ako makakarinig ng kahit anong lessons habang naiisip ko ang kataksilan ni Annie. She destroyed the image I had with her on my mind. Akala ko pwede na siyang i-beatify, iyon pala mas masarap ibitin patiwarik. Pasensya na lord kung masama lumalabas sa bibig ko.

"Cass? Okay ka lang?" Jodie asked while fixing her things. Alam niyang may mali. I normally ask her to go out simula nang hindi na kami magpansinan ni Diana. She's very energetic at masaya kasama. Active rin siya sa mga group studies pero minsan ewan lang talaga, just like at this moment.

"Ewan." Sagot ko sa kanya.

"Tara, bar tayo!" Yaya naman niya. Ganyan siya palagi, kapag may kaibigan siyang nakabusangot ang face, she'll offer drinks on her tab as always. Mayaman kasi kasi ang loka.

"Jodiebelles, ayoko. I don't drink." Sagot ko naman.

"Eh! May VIP passes ako, sayang naman. Sosyal ang beauty mo at sosyal ka so malaking check ang pagpunta mo. Tara na, kasama natin si kuya Earl." Napakunot naman ako ng noo.

"Earl? Earl Suarez? Oh fvck! Yung male best friend ni Benedict nga! Kapatid mo pala? Ngayon ko lang narealize. Nakakaloka." Sabay tawa ko habang nagtatali ng buhok. Natawa siya kasi akala niya gets ko na dati pa. Kaya naman pala pareho silang kulot at matatangkad. Nakakatawang ngayon ko lang nagets.

"Yep! Bantay naman tayo ni kuya Earl kasi bawal si Blake lumabas, so hindi siya ang kasama natin today. Tara na kasi, safe tayo kasi nga may kasama tayong guy. Kuya Earl won't let anything ahppen to us." Siguro nga para malimutan ko sa isipan ko ang nangyari kaninang umaga.

"Call, pero walang masyadong inuman ha!" I said and she finally smiled.

"Oo naman! Disappointed sila bakla kasi mas gwapo daw ai kuya Blake kay kuya Earl kaya naman di daw masyado makakapagenjoy. Kuya Earl is kinda frigid kaya medyo badtrip sila. Pero okay lang naman kasi at least mag chaperone kesa wala." Natawa ako at pinulot ang nahulog kong libro.

"Sus! Ang arte naman nila bakla. Sabihin mo, lalandiin lang nila si kuya Blake mo kasi nga mabait yun, unlike kuya Earl na medyo masungit. Pareho nga talaga sila ni kuya Benedict." Natatawa ko pang sabi.

Nagpunta kami sa isang sikat na bar dito sa south. The bar is called 'Hellion' at pakiramdam ko dedemonyohin lang kami ng bar na iyan. All the rich kids hang in there at paiksian ng suot. I saw one of the girls almost exposing her n*****s and that made me burst into a laughter. Nakakaloka naman kasi sila.

"Doon tayo!" I heard Jodie and she led us to a VIP lounge. Girlfriend daw ni kuya Blake ang nagbigay ng passes. Mas safe daw dito kasi nga malayo sa nga nagpalakawild sa. All you can do is to stare at the balcony and have fun. I smiled at Jodie at nakita kong maganda ang porma niya ngayon. She's wearing and off white form-fitting long-sleeved dress with bare back and nude stilletos.

I wore a navy blue a-line skirt with white spaghetti straps and brown leather jacket along with my Valentino rock stud flat shoes. I let down my long black hair and applied pink lipstick. I feel beautiful tonight.

"Kuya Earl, ikaw pala." He sat beside me while Jodie is chatting with our gay friends about 's*x' at hindi naman ako makakarelate. I never had a boyfriend and this is not a disability para ikahiya ko. Alam ko minsan nakakahiya pero so what? Mayaman naman kami and that is all that matters to me. My future is what I care about the most.

"Alam ba ni Benedict na kasama ka? Malamang hindi eh nag-away lang kayo nung papuntang Palawan. Hindi kayo nagkibuan. Para nga kayong LQ."

"LQ niya mukha niya. Para kasing tanga, may nanliligaw na nga, inaway niya pa. Malapit na kaya akong magnineteen! Kaasar talaga pag naiisip ko. Nakakaloko kasi."

"Come on, mabait naman si Benedict at parang kuya mo na siya. He's just trying to protect you."

"Protect me? Bakit si Lord Voldemort ba ang manliligaw ko at siya si Harry Potter? Ang gago niya! Tigilan niya ako sa ginagawa niyang kaepalan at nababanas ako! Magsama na lang sila ni Annie at wag na niya akong pestehin. Hindi ko naman siya kuya." Nag-init ang pisngi ko sa inis at dahil na rin sa alak.

"He's just concerned at teka nga, nakaapat tequilla shot ka na tapos may cocktail ka pa ngayon? Di kaya magalit kambal mo?" Tanong pa ni Kuya Earl habang umiinom ng rum and coke. Gwapo pala siya. His hair is curly brown at sobrang puti niya. He looks like a Guess model.

"Nope! Besides, stressed ako so pabayaan mo na lang ako. Nandyan ka naman to watch over me eh. Hindi mo naman kami pababayaan, right?" I smiled at him in a sexy manner and I felt his hand on my right thigh. Nakikipaglandian ako sa kuya ni Jodie at sa best friend ni Benedict.

"Bakit ka naman stressed?" Then his hand went higher and I felt it on my waist.

"Basta."

"Selos ka kay Annie?" He whispered on my ear and I giggled. Nakakakiliti ang pagbulong niya. Lasing na lasing na yata ako. He licked my left ear lobe and I squirmed.

"Body shot!" I shouted at Jodie at agad naman siyang tumayo. I kissed kuya Earl on the cheek at naputol ang landian segment naming dalawa. Ayokong mawala ang virginity ko. Nakakaramdam na ako ng excitement kanina and I felt aroused. Gwapo pala niya sa malapitan kasi.

The night ended with my insides aching for Jodie's elder brother. Lasing lang siguro ako.

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"I finally caught you alone, Cassandra. Masyado kang mailap." That cold voice entered the room where I'm changing my soiled clothes. He can see the bareness of my back, exposing my arrow tattoo. I felt him getting closer and I immediately put my shirt on. Hinarap ko siya at nakita ko na naman ang perfect lips niya. He became leaner and more gorgeous in the past years. He improved.

I stared back at him with my eyes looking very tired.

"And what? I'm tired, Benedict. I monitored eight children with dengue today and I gave shots to more than thirty people so please, wag ka munang manggulo. Can't you see that I don't want anything to do with you? Ayoko nang may koneksyon sayo. I want you gone in my life." Then he just stood there with his hands on his pockets. He just looked at me with unexplainable emotion. 

"No, bakit naman ako mawawala kung kelan nagiging masaya ang mga nangyayari. Everything is getting exciting. I love the thrill, Cassandra. You make me feel excited and hard. You enter my mind every morning and then I suddenly got my thing saluting for you, baby." I felt ny cheeks burn from his statement.

"Bastos! Wag kang lalapit! Sisigaw talaga ako!"

"Sumigaw ka, eh nasa likuran kaya ng elementary school itong pinili mong CR. Lahat sila nasa harapan kasi may dumating na isang batch ng mga matatandang magpapatingin ng BP." He said while giggling. Wala namang nakakatawa. Siraulo talaga.

"A*shole! Umalis ka! Bastos mo!" Hinampas-hampas ko siya pero hindi kinaya. Kasi nga nahuli din niya ang nga kamay ko. This man is really strong, para siyang si Incredible hulk pero perfect ang katawan at hindi OA ang muscles.

"You and your dirty mouth with be punished, Cassandra. Ayoko nang nagmumura ka. I hate your mouth filthy with cussing; I want it dirty when we have a rough s*x. I want you cussing when I fvck you hard; really hard." Nanlaki ang mata ko sa sinasabi niya and I pushed him more pero wala na akong nagawa.

"Fvck somebody else!" I screamed.

"I can't." Then he moved closer and slammed his lips onto mine. His hands went to my neck and he pinned me on the wall. I pushed him hard but I rendered myself senseless to his kisses and I felt his hands moving to my chest from my neck until I heard my brassiere unclasp. He bit my lips I heard him gently locking bathroom.

He's chewing my lips like a delicious meal and I felt myself getting a little bit excited by the thought. He began removing his shirt at tinanggal din niya ang kapapalit kong damit. My bare front is now on his full access and I felt my cheeks burn with embarrassment. He caressed my face and his tongue went snaking on my neck.

His hot breath is against my neck. I felt myself burning with my awakened desires. He's licking every bit of me and this time, I moaned. I moaned like I never had s*x before. I moaned like I'm a s*x-starved woman in his forties. Damn, his tongue is gettinh better by time until I felt his hands down there and I got drowned in the black holes ecstasy I never imagined my whole life.

"Bene... dict. What... are you... doing?" I saw him smirk as his fingers start playing the woman in me. Every stroke, every movement are all toe-curling and I am getting high. I felt like I'm in drugs and I've never used drugs my whole life. His mouth went to my left breast and then he stopped touching me. I saw him pulling out his maleness and slowly entered me. I felt the pain and pleasure at the same time.

He moved in slow rhythm until his pace went faster. Bumibilis ang lahat at naramdaman ko na lang na nakakapit ako sa kanyang batok. His hands moved my arms on top of my head while my left leg is wrapped ln his torso.

"Damn." I heard him say. I felt his breathing went rugged and I feel like my lungs are going to burst. My breathing is getting uneven and I felt my heart beating fast and my blood is pumping faster than usual. Kitang-kita ko ang maliit na poster na nagsasabing 'Wash your hands to kill the germs' para sa mga bata at ang step-by-step ng paghuhugas ng kamay. Jusme, eskwelahan nga pala 'to.

His magic fingers are touching me while his maleness invades me. Kakaibang pakiramdam ang nararamdaman ko ngayon at pakiramdam ko nalulunod ako sa kawalan. My mind went blank and all I could think about is the pleased he provides me. Nakakawala sa katinuan ang ginagawa ni Benedict. He is waking up the sleeping demons inside of me.

"Fvck!" I screamed as I felt myself releasing the awakened pleasure inside of me.