FALLING APART

CHAPTER 5

Knowing Jezz,

"The world of dreams which seems to lie before us, until it comes true.

Blinded with love, and the mood is just a vast wilderness. The people around may not understand.

My blood is rushing to that one place again, but loving Zero is what is the best.

It is worth more than anything else.

I'll think about those times we had together, regardless of the good or bad happiness or suffering.

I'll sit on the balcony and look up at the sky, to make a promise so I won't forget him until my last breath."

a short poem.

The sentence in which Jezz writes in her notebook, while her mind is floating in the air, starts to recall the time, when they eat and laugh to each other. spending their available time together, and that is more valuable moment for Jezz.

Then she stopped her thoughts, when the professor came and immediately started the class.

One hour after the class;

“Jezz, I met a new transferee student here at school. She is on the second floor now, for the computer sciences course she took. Some students said she was a third year student. She is charmingly beautiful, she looks kind and a type of tender because of her smiles.

now, all I can say is she's my type."

Clara told Jezz suddenly. After their Biology Class, they are still in the classroom for the main time, packing their things before going out the same to their classmates. While their professor had already left after the black board was cleaned.

“Then, what is your plan? Do you want to flirt with her?"

Jezz asked Clara.

“I want to get to know her. Why don’t we try to be friends with her? Shouldn’t we?

Clara said, with a follow-up question. Because she believes that Jezz is a lesbian, so she envites Jezz doing what she wants to do. For her. She will look sober when Jezz is with her.

“Wait, how can you say that she was a kind person? Have you talked to her yet?"

Jezz asks Clara direct to the point because she can see that she is interested in the female student she’s referring to. Also, Jezz knows that Clara can fall easily to someone she likes.

“Actually, I accidentally bumped into her in the library a few days ago and I didn’t talk to her properly because she was in a hurry to come out. and she said, she was about to be late for her class that's why I don't have a chance to ask her name.”

Clara said, as she tried to convince Jezz.

"oh my gosh! first meet and I feel it by looking in her eyes. I know it is something wrong but, it is me and that's what I feel"

Clara added to say.

Jezz agreed to accompany Clara to look for the female student again she met before. that is what they do during their vacant time in school.

From the very first day, they failed to meet her because, according to the classmates, the girl that Clara was looking for was absent from her class. the same as the second day.

Then on the third day, Clara and Jezz tried again to find the girl. They went to some corner of the school to find the female student they were talking about. At first, in the last class room, she asked a few third year students from the second floor that she knew, but they didn’t know where the female student was hanging out after the class.

Last, they visited the computer sciences room department but the female student was not there.

“Clara, can we stop this madness right now? I’m tired and hungry too.”

Jezz asked Clara, while they walked slowly in the lobby and their heads rotated in every corner while their gaze was turning around.

There were so many students in the whole building, the same as they could see from the second floor’s lobby to the ground of the school.

“Okay, I give up this time, but promise me that you will still be with me tomorrow, OK?

Clara asks Jezz.

“Okay, can we go to the school canteen please?

Jezz replied.

So the two proceed to their school canteen.

While they were sitting at a table in a corner and eating, Clara no longer spoke about anything. Instead, she just ate seriously while her eyes were busy reading her social media account, on the cellphone she was holding on.

"Sometimes, you feel tired to be in love.

It is not about giving up, but its about you, that feel about "losing hope"

If there is hope, that love should be your encouragement."

"so that when the time comes, you are ready to accept the ending.

It's either you will win or getting lose."

a short sentence.

Jezz jotted down the sentence in her notebook which she realized on that day. Jezz always takes a note at every moment that pops into her mind.

Meanwhile, Jezz turned her gaze to the entrance of the canteen while sipping a bottle of soya milk drink. Then suddenly the face of the girl appeared. That girl is Issabelle, the girl she met once from the outside and in front of Kent’s house. Jezz was stunned by her while imagining the night of their first meet up, as she walked along. She looks the same before, cool and pretty as wearing her school uniform.

Clara noticed the moment when Jezz fell silent. She looked at it to where Jezz had sighted, then she saw the girl she was looking for. The girl is currently at the counter in the school canteen.

“Oh my gosh! that’s her I’m telling you, the third year female student that I wanted to be my friend.”

Clara said, when she finally saw the female student at the counter, paying for her snacks. But Jezz didn’t listen to her.

“Jezz, she’s the one that I told you earlier, the one with the white-headed band on her head."

After Clara spoke, Jezz realized that the third year female computer sciences student Clara was looking for and the girl's name was Issabelle, is one. Because she was the only one with a white-headed band among the female students who lined up at the counter to pay for their snacks. The girl immediately leaves the counter after she pays and they follow her through their gaze until she leaves the canteen.