Dear Crush

Crush 10

Dear Chen,

First time I saw you, you were wearing that white fitted shirt....

It was during a seminar in school and you asked my friend and I to register first before going in the room.

I admit that I first noticed your hotness-- oops, scratch that. I meant your arms.

Your very muscular arms.

And then I noticed how pale you looked and how fashionably clean you are

I liked that.

Simple yet so attractive. That's you.

Where have you been all this time?

I have never seen you around last year-- wait. Never mind.

I wouldn't have noticed you then because my eyes only saw Adrian. My ex.

I saw you again. About two weeks later...

It was unexpected. It was like fate heard my thoughts.

You see I saw your friend that day and I wished to myself that, maybe just once, I would see you again.

You were wearing a blue shirt.

I tried not to stare for too long at........... your biceps.

Sorry if you found it annoying that my friend and I kept passing by you.

Couldn't help it.... I just wanted to enjoy the view and the moment because I might not see you again.

I saw you again the next day. Same place.

This time you were wearing a gray long sleeve shirt with the sleeves folded up to your elbows.

Hot.

Okay let's not talk about how your biceps were bulging out because I think you already got the idea.

That day my heart stopped beating for a few minutes you know.

Why?

You came up to the girl seating two seats away from me.

You asked her if the seat was taken... she said yes.

Your voice in my ears made me smile to the fullest.

I still remember that day as if it just happened yesterday.

You have no idea how I wished I was that girl you talked to.

Now that I think about it... what would've happened if the seat was not taken?

Would you have sat there? One seat away from me?

Or would you have taken the seat and sat somewhere else?

Even if you sat far from me that day, I was extremely happy.

Knowing your presence was reachable made me happy.

I turned around in hopes to see you....

You were nowhere to be seen.

Then I said to myself, "It's okay. At least you got to see him for today"

But seems like fate was on my side again that day.

I saw that you were indeed still there but on the other side of the room.

You were seated facing a glass wall that can see the other side of the room.... I was on that side.

And from where you were seated, I know that you can see me.

Why?

Because that was where I sat when I saw you the second time (when you were wearing that blue shirt)

I was conscious the whole day that day.

I imagined you watching my every move.

I know, I've been watching too many movies.

But you can't blame a girl for having fantasies that she wishes to happen!

Did you....... look at me that day?

Did I catch your attention when I stood up at least?

I doubt.

Looking through that glass wall is hard. It wasn't transparent.... it was a dark glass.... you can still see through it but it's just hard to distinguish what you see from what reflects.

I mean I was basically staring at your back that second day I saw you.

It was easy to see you because you were wearing blue.

While I was telling my friend how my world basically stopped when you came up to that girl near me.. you walked by.

We had an eye contact.

My world stopped again.

I don't want to put any meaning behind it.

But when you were leaving that day, I made you look at me again.

Why did I make you look?

Or was it fate playing with us?

We made eye contact the second time.

I'm surprised I didn't have a heart attack that day.

Two days later.

It was the day of my exam.

I was at "our" spot from early morning until the time of my exam. That's my new favourite spot now by the way.

I had no hope that I would see you that day because first, it was Friday. And who knows whether you have a class that day or not. Second, it was early and I usually see you after lunch. Third.... I just simply didn't feel like I would see you that day

But I was wrong.

Fate was on my side again.

I decided to buy coffee.

That was the best decision I have made that day.

I saw you right before I was going to leave.

I was standing outside of the café holding two cups in my hand while you were just entering.

You were wearing white I think.... I forgot...

I was frozen where I was standing. I was dazed because there you were again popping out of nowhere right after I wish that I see you.

Did you see me?

There weren't a lot of people that day because it was early in the morning.

You really didn't see me?

It's okay. Who am I for you to pay attention to right?

Even if it was just seconds that I saw you, I was complete.

I meant my day was complete.

One week.

One week I didn't see you because of our school break.

I'm praying I see you on Wednesday when I come back.

Some motivation for my next exam.

See you soon Chen