Dear Crush

Crush 12

Dear Keith,

First few weeks after school started I thought you dropped out.

No trace of you whatsoever and I was very curious as to why I don't see you anymore.

When I was fixed with the idea that you dropped out of school.... fate decides to play with me again.

I saw you.

It may sound clichè but my world stopped for a few seconds.

I was surprised but of course I didn't show it.

You looked so... different.

You lost a lot of weight..... that's why it took a while for me to recognize you.

I'm not sure what I feel for you...

I can't say I have moved on from liking you

And I can't say that I did like you.

All I know is that you make me anxious and excited whenever I see you.

You don't give me butterflies but you make me smile.

You don't make my heart skip a beat but I'm always on the look out for you.

I want to see you all the time.

You make me more and more curious every time I see you.

You are a puzzle to me because I'm used to knowing a lot of details about the guys I like.

And you?

All I know is your name, what high school you went to and where you were before you came to this country.

I am the type of person that is not at peace if I have questions unanswered.

I also know for sure that I want to get to know you.

I want to be friends with you.

I think that's the only way for me to get answers to my pending questions.

But If we are not meant to be friends then I guess you'll be an uncompleted puzzle in my memory.

Friday.

I saw you in the morning in the science wing.

As I was walking in the hallway looking for two free spots, a guy in a blue shirt wasn't the only one that caught my attention but also the two free spots in front of him.

I right away stopped walking as soon as my brain processed who the guy in the blue shirt was.

I turned my heels and walked back to where the two free tables were.

I glanced at you trying to hide my smile.

But I failed at hiding it so I pretended to be texting someone.

It was unexpected because the science wing is the last place I would expect to see you at.

Actually scratch that-- I don't see you all the time so I don't know where you spend your free time.

Is it in the library? Humanities wing? Bladen wing? Meeting place?

When I sat down you stood up from your seat, which was right in front of me, and sat down again.

A few minutes later you stood up again and left.

You came back after how many minutes and stood in front of the door to my left. I guessed it was where you did your biology lab.

You stood there facing me.

I couldn't look up because my self-consciousness went from 0 to 100 real quick.

But I could see you from my peripheral vision.

I didn't want to assume but hey, a girl can't help it so here I go-- I felt that you were stealing glances at my direction.

There you go I said it.

Oh well, guess I will never know if you actually did or not.

But I do hope I'll soon be clear about whether I have a crush on you or you're just one of my curiousity.

Hope I'll see you soon