Triple trouble

Chapter eighteen - I can't tell you

Jay's POV:

Kally talked with her ex-boyfriend. I don't know how I feel about this. I'm not mad at her, but I wish she had told me. The good news is that he didn't do anything to her. That might be because there were people around. I'm not sure if she will stop. He might start stalking her or find a way to talk with her. I don't think she will go to him, no matter what he does. The girl has made up her mind. I'm happy about her. She deserves to be around people who will respect her and like her for the person she is. I don't think I'm one of them. I like her, but what happened is still like a fresh memory. I'm not sure if I can move on. Months have passed, but I still think about it. Kally can help me, but I can't talk to her about it. I don't want to go back there. That should stay in the past. Blane keeps telling me about this. He is not wrong, but it will take me some time. Let's say that it was a painful one. I still regret what I did. I hope that Kally won't have the same problem.

Our babysitter came an hour ago. She is in the kitchen with my brothers. I'm sure they are keeping her occupied. I was in my room. I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone. I woke up in a weird mood. It's not like I could sleep well. I fell asleep around 3 am. Maybe that is because I saw Stacy yesterday. If I could, I would've killed her. Sadly, it's not allowed. I'm too young to go to jail. I started throwing a ball in the air. My thoughts won't leave me alone.

- Knock, knock. Are you ok? - Kally asked

- What? Come in.

- I asked if you were ok. Your head is somewhere else.

- I'm sorry. Can I help you?

- No. I only came to check on you. Do you plan to spend the whole day in your room?

- Maybe. Why?

- We can go out.

- What?

- I won't tell your parents anything.

- Thanks, but I'm not in the mood for that. Maybe another day.

- Do you think I can wait another day?

- Then go out with my brothers.

- Alright. Spill the tea. What is going on? Did I do something?

- No, it has nothing to do with you.

- Then?

- Look, I don't want to talk about this.

- I believe your brothers won't tell me.

- No. I didn't tell them anything.

- Can I do something to make you feel better?

- Thanks, but I'll be fine.

She only wants to help me, but I can't tell her about this. I don't feel ready. I went out of my room for lunch. It turned out that my mom never made her cook for us. That was Kally's choice. I won't lie. She is spoiling us. Somehow, she convinced me to go out with her and my brothers. We won't stay out for long. Our parents will come home after work. She wanted us to go to a grocery store. Toby wanted to make an ice cream sundae. I wish I could've stayed at home.

- Why didn't you leave me at home?

- I'm not leaving you alone. Pick anything you want. I'm paying.

- What? I thought our parents gave you money. - Toby said

- I'm supposed to watch you inside, not to shop. It's on me.

- Are you sure about this?

- As long as you don't spend over a hundred dollars, I'm ok.

- Don't worry. I only need a few things.

- I have to check for something. I'll be back. - Blane said

- Don't you want anything from here? - Kally asked me

- No.

- What is going on? I'm getting worried.

- I can't tell you. I'm sorry.

- Does it hurt?

- Yes.

- Can cookies make you feel better?

- No, but thanks.

- You will never tell me, will you?

- It's not that. Can you give me some time? Please.

- You have all the time in the world.

- Thanks. You better go before they buy the whole store.

- Are you coming?

- Sure.

We spent a whole hour in the store. Later, we went for a short walk. Well, we took the long way home. There is no need to rush. Our parents won't come back soon. Remind me not to speak too fast. The moment we walked in, I noticed their shoes. Crap! What are they doing here so early? There is a chance they haven't seen us being out, but I doubt it. Mom must have noticed our absence. I'm not worried about myself, but for Kally. She is supposed to be the responsible one. No matter what happens, she has our backs.

- You are home early. What a surprise. - Kally said

- Yes. Where have you been? No one was at home.

- Oh, about that. I wanted to make some cookies. As you said, the boys are unpredictable. I couldn't leave them here alone.

- Kally, you are a terrible actress.

- I know.

- Well?

- Can we talk for a minute? Alone.

- Yes, sure. Follow me.

- I'll be back.

- I won't say anything. - our dad said and left

- Do you think she will get in trouble? - Blane asked

- I hope not. We have to keep her. - I said

- Didn't you want to get rid of her?

- She has talked with him.

- What? When?

- It doesn't matter.

- Did something happen? Where is he now?

- No one knows. He wanted to get back with her.

- I'm sure she said no. - Toby said

- Correct. She won't do this.

- Is it only that? I think you are hiding something. Maybe it's your mood. - Blane said

- I'll be in my room. - I said and left

The question will be unanswered. It's something that will pass. I won't take care of it. Kally came before she went home. I want to know if she got fired. I don't believe my mom will do it, but I can expect everything from her.

- Well?

- What?

- Are you fired?

- Why would I get fired?

- You broke the rules.

- That is not true. I'm here to watch you and your brothers. I did this.

- Good luck with her.

- We managed to negotiate.

- You tamed the devil? Good job. I'm impressed.

- Jay, she is not the devil. She got hurt from what you told her.

- I didn't lie.

- Why don't you talk with her again?

- If I tell her what I think, I'll be thrown out of the house.

- I don't believe that.

- But you should.

We chatted for a while before she went home. I might talk with my mom, but that won't happen soon. I don't know how to be gentle, and I'm sure she will get mad at me. At dinner, everyone was quiet. Mostly, I mean my mom and me. I know why. You can tell she is still mad at me. I don't care. There is no regret from my side. I meant every single word I told her.

- What is going on here? You two haven't talked for the past few days. - our dad said

- I have nothing to say.

- I'm sure you do. - our mom said

- Trust me. It's better for you if you don't know.

- If you have something to say, do it right now.

- Are you sure you want to hear this?

- Mom, what is your beef with Jay? - Toby asked

- Ask your brother. I guess he already has an opinion about me.

- What is that supposed to mean? I don't get it.

- Dear brother, you don't want to know. - I said

- But I do. - Blane said

- Can we drop it? That has nothing to do with any of you.

- Can't you two sort it out? - our dad asked

- It's too late for that.

- That is what you think. - our mom said

- I know it. You can't go back in time and fix what you did.

Nothing else was said. There was no need for that. When I finished my food, I went to my room. I want to rest and have some time for myself. I can go out, but I'll probably have to talk with my mom. I can't do that right now. It was oddly quiet. Everyone was in their rooms. That's what I thought. Well, bad luck.

- Can we talk? - my mom asked

- No.

- Please.

- No.

- Thanks.

- I said no!

- I want you to tell me everything. If you do it, I won't bother you anymore.

- Why should I trust you?

- You have my word on this one.

- Why do you care?

- Because I want to know why you are mad at me.

- You don't get it, do you?

- What do you mean?

- I was always the different one in your eyes. We can get in trouble, but you will get mad at me. Only at me. Growing up, you barely showed any interest in me. Any! All these crafts I did in elementary school were for you. I didn't want your attention. I wanted you to appreciate that I did something. It never happened. Even if someone else did something, the one blamed was me. You have never checked on me. You only do it if I have said something to you.

- I care.

- How? You don't show it much. Being cold with me won't help you.

- It's not that.

- Then what? Tell me.

She didn't say anything. I don't know why I'm wasting my energy. It's not working. No matter what I tell her, she won't change. I'll always be the bad guy. Now she is thinking about what excuse to make.

- I'm listening.

- Let's be honest. You have the most potential to achieve something good in your life.

- So? That is not an excuse to treat me like that.

- I wanted you to use your brain for good, not to get in trouble.

- But you never asked me why I did it. You only know how to complain about me.

- That is not true.

- Are you sure? Jay is the easiest one to blame for everything.

- I want you to achieve something.

- But maybe I don't want to. Please, stop telling me what to do every single minute. I'm not a kid. I won't do whatever you want.

- It's not what I mean.

- It looks exactly like this. No matter what I do, it will never be enough for you.

- I did it for you.

- For what? To ruin my life. You did a great job. Now I hate you for that.

- Jay.

- I don't want to hear anything. What you did was enough.

- Can we bring back the good relations?

- What? They never existed. We never had good relations, and you know it.

- Please.

- No! Leave my room. I don't want to talk with you. Cry, complain, I don't care. I want you out of here.

At least she listened to me. Maybe I was too harsh, but she deserves it. I don't want to talk with my mom ever again. If I had another place to stay, I would've moved out months ago. Sadly, this can't happen. I have nowhere else to go. I'm stuck with her. The good news for me is that no one else bothered me. I texted Kally, but she didn't respond. I received her answer after an hour. I'm glad she has some time for me. Of course, I didn't tell her anything. The less she knows, the better. I don't want her to lecture me. She might be right, but I don't care. I hope that my mom won't bother me anymore.