Mated To Three Alphas

06~ Unanswered Questions

I sat alone in my dimly lit room, the heavy curtains drawn shut, blocking out the harsh daylight. My heart ached, and my mind couldn't stop from replaying Adrien's hurtful words. It was more like a broken record to my heart.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I clutched the blanket, grabbing it like it was the only way to calm myself down. But I was wrong, the tears kept rolling down. Those words he left to me, if only words could kill, I would be a dead corpse by now.

The room felt like a mortuary; only my voice could be heard. I've always wanted mom to be happy, I wanted her to feel loved for once in her life, but... On the other hand, her presence matters to me. It was the only reason why Adrien and Kelvin never spoke to me.

But now that she is out of the state, her absence has done nothing but give those sons of a b***h the privilege and audacity to talk rudely at me! Because I can't control my wolf? They see me as a useless fellow who can't even take care of herself?

I knew this would cause a problem, I tried to tell mom but she thought I was only depressed. All her intentions were to see me happy, to watch me grow with people I could call my family. But well, what I am seeing is nothing close nor related to a family.

We all know how much I have tried my best for them to understand me, to trust me. I had always struggled to fit in with them. My height was another fact to be considered. I think it's one of the main reasons why Adrien hates me so much.

I was smaller, quieter, and lacked the aggressive assertiveness that seemed to come so naturally to the others. Adrien's words had confirmed my worst fears – that I was a weak link, a burden not only to the household, but also to the pack.

As I looked out through the window, I couldn't help but wonder what had triggered such hatred in Adrien. His words keep echoing in my head; "I just want you to go. I just want you out of this family. For good."

Another hot tear dropped on my cheek. "You can never win their trust, Clara and you know that. It's pointless to try." My subconscious echoed in my head.

I have Gerek with me, we've been cool since the first night we met. I mean, he's the only one who accepts me as a friend. Even if Adrien and Kelvin don't want me, he does. With him, I have no reason to feel lonely any more.

I sighed heavily, loosening my grip from the blanket. My thoughts were a tangled web, and I needed time to unravel them. Any one in my shoes would have let it slide away, moving on, feeling more like nothing ever happened.

I wish I was like that, moving on and acting normal. But when some one talks about me being incapable of controlling my wolf makes me feel like an outcast. A wolf, but more like a human. I can't even run so fast like the others, I can't do the supernatural things they do.

You shouldn't blame it on me, blame fate.

A soft knock on the door interrupted my thoughts, bringing me back to reality. "Clara, it's me, Gerek," his gentle voice called out.

I pressed myself further into the corner, refusing to acknowledge him. I didn't want to face any one, not even Gerek, even though he's the best thing to me, I don't want to have any one around me. At least not yet.

But he kept knocking. "Clara, please you've got to open the door. I know this hurts so badly, but locking yourself up won't change any thing."

I know. Nothing's gonna change the way Adrien and Kelvin think about me. I shook my head, I wanted this moment. I want to think things through and get hold of myself, maybe then, I'll need some one to talk to.

I need to find my lost courage, the part of me that speaks of boldness, not to feel belittled whenever Adrien tries to talk to me like a kid.

"I understand you, Gerek, and I really appreciate your concern for me. But..." I paused, sighing. "I just wanna be alone. I want to think. I... please just understand me, I need this moment more than any thing. I just wanna be left alone."

"Are you sure being alone will help? I'm just worried about you, Clara. I..."

"Gerek... Just for tonight, please. Just go."

"I'm coming back tomorrow morning to check up on you. Just don't do any thing crazy, okay? I'll come, I promise."

I found myself crying again. I didn't want to, but then I couldn't help it. Why would I ever hate Gerek? As much as I don't want to talk to him, I do want to talk to him.

~Gerek's Pov~

I leaned against the door, pondering over countless thoughts. I was more worried for her safety, hoping Adrien's words won't cause her to do any thing stupid. If tomorrow turns out to be bad news, I swear on the Moon goddess, I will never forgive Adrien for this.

I see no reason why he has to make her feel rejected, or would I say... outcasted. Ever since that night we all had dinner together, I found her welcoming. Some thing about her made me want her not only as a sister, but more of it.

Despite being the weak omega Adrien thinks, I believe there's more to her than just being a weak omega. From here I could hear her sobering cries, and it only ached my heart. I couldn't stop thinking of her safety, that's all that matters to me.

I doubt I'd ever get the chance to sleep, not until I watch her smile. For the meantime, nothing is alright as long as she still cries.

I went to the sitting room, Adrien and Kelvin sat there, discussing the kingdom matters. I ignored their presence, walking past them to the exit door. I wanted to get some fresh air, I didn't want to notice the.as it'd only cause me to get more angry than I already am.

But Kelvin's voice sounded which I couldn't ignore. I don't want them suspecting my countenance is all because of Clara's state. "Where are you going?" He asked.

"Nowhere." I answered, not sparing him a glance. "I just want to get some fresh air."

"Is it because of the girl?" He asked.

I held myself, trying to act cool. I turned to look at him, "Do I need to have a reason before I can get some fresh air? Or maybe, you can do the honor of producing one for me, that's if you don't mind."

The look on his face was unreadable, but you know what, I didn't mind. That wasn't my concern. I just need to get the f**k out of here, Adrien's presence alone was suffocating me.

And for so long I have held my grudges from him, he's been doing things to me but I try not to react. But I won't take it easy on him if he ever hurts Clara. I don't care how strong he is, I'm ready to prove to him that Clara's safety is my concern.

"If you don't have any thing else to talk about, then I should probably be on my way." I walked out even without minding if he had some thing else to say.

I stood outside, loving the way the breeze blew on my skin. It sent a refreshing feeling to my skin, and I imagined Clara standing beside me, I trust she'd love this same feeling I felt.

It felt like a medicine to my heart, easing the anger I felt inside of me. This would have played a great role to Clara if only she were here. Nevertheless, I do understand why she wants to be alone, Adrien has always been a pain in the ass and would always be until some one has to talk some senses into his skull.

"Why do I feel this way?" I questioned myself. "Why do I feel hurt for her sake?"

All those times Adrien pissed me off, I easily got over it. But after he had said those words to her... I got even angrier than she did. Since then, I've asked myself why... But I never got an answer to my question.

Now, I'm gonna ask again... Why?