Vulnerable
1800 Words
I just stared at Enzo.
I couldn’t believe all he had just told me. The only thing I had known was that his mom cheated on his dad and now they were both dead. I had no idea about all the murder that followed.
“Enzo…”
“Do you get it now?” Enzo whispered. “Why I don’t believe in love or trust anyone?”
I nodded. “I do. I’m…I’m so sorry. I couldn’t even imagine…Rafe is really your brother?”
“He is and he wants to hurt me. I understand why completely, but…he started it Celine. He murdered my father before I even got the chance to talk to him. I retaliated in the only way I knew how.”
I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. “You don’t have to explain it to me, Enzo. I understand why you did it. But what if you and Rafe could make up?”
“I think we’re a little past that, Celine. Too much has happened and now he wants to hurt you. I will never let him get to you. I have to protect you from him because this is all my fault.”
I was shocked to see tears in his eyes. I had never seen Enzo cry in all the time he had been my charge.
“Are you scared?”
“Of losing you, yes. I don’t know what I’d do without you,” Enzo reached for my other hand and pressed his forehead against mine. “I can’t let Rafe take another person from me. Especially you.”
“What’s so special about me?” I whispered.
“Everything.”
Enzo slowly let go of one of my hands and put his hand on my chin before lifting it. I felt strange and tingly. It felt like there was a magnet between Enzo and I, pulling us closer together.
He rubbed his nose against mine.
“What are you doing?” I breathed.
Enzo didn’t answer. Instead he kissed me. I was completely shocked, but couldn’t help but like how his lips felt on mine. I wrapped my arms around him tightly as his tongue slipped in my mouth. Enzo put his hands on my face and kissed me harder.
I felt like like my heart was going to burst! Out of all the kisses that I’d had, this one was the most powerful one. I think this was what Sela felt when she kissed Lev. But it couldn't be, right?
That was love. I had no idea what this was.
“Enzo, are you out here?” Mira called.
Enzo jerked away from me. “Please don’t tell her.”
“Okay.”
“Over here!” Enzo shouted.
I wiped my lips and hoped I didn’t look like I had just been kissed.
“Hey, what are you guys doing out here?” Mira questioned.
“Just talking,” I answered.
“About what?”
“Um…”
“Enzo finally told me what happened with Alpha Rafe.” I said quickly. “I finally understand what’s going on.”
“Oh, Enzo, honey. That must have been really hard for you to do.” Mira hurried over to him and kissed him.
“Yeah, um it was,” Enzo muttered, glancing over at me. “Really hard actually.”
“But you feel better now, right?”
“I do.”
“Good,” Mira kissed him again. “I’m so proud of you, babe.”
“I uh, I should go,” I muttered. “I’ll see you guys tomorrow?”
“We’ll talk then?” Enzo asked.
“Yes, of course we will. See you two later.”
I hurried back to the castle in complete and total confusion. Why had Enzo kissed me?! Did he have feelings for me or something? No. No way. He was just emotional because of what he had shared. He had finally opened up to me and that felt strange to him so he acted in strange ways.
That was it. Enzo didn’t have feelings for me, he couldn’t.
“There you are, beautiful,” Grey smiled as he approached me. “Where have you been?”
“Enzo told me about Rafe.”
“Oh…how is he?”
“I know it was a little hard for him to admit all that happened, so I guess we’ll see tomorrow. I could have never guessed all of that.”
“It was a really bad time for him,” Grey muttered. “I watched my lively, excited friend turn into a bitter, resentful man. I tried to help him, but there was nothing I could do. I couldn’t bring his parents back. I couldn’t give him that sense of security he always had back.”
“It’s sweet that you wanted to.” I smiled. “You’re a good guy, Grey.”
“Thanks,” He kissed me softly. “Do you want to go to bed?”
I glanced over my shoulder and saw Mira and Enzo making out. “Yes, I would love that.”
***
I was obsessed with making love to Lev.
It was always so beautiful and passionate. His breath was heavy and his hands eager, his mouth magical.
I had learned to start taking more control with him. I was on top of him moving my hips furiously.
“Oh, Sela”! Lev squirmed beneath me. “You’re perfect.”
I tossed my head back as pleasure surged through my body. I lived for the moments I could be alone with Lev like this. We only got a few short hours in the middle of the night together, but it was so worth it.
I leaned down and kissed Lev. “I love you,” I murmured.
Our fingers intertwined.
“Faster my love,” Lev urged.
I listened, rolling my hips as fast as I could. Lev got louder as he thrusted up into me. By now I knew how close he was. We had done this countless times and I knew him too well.
Lev rolled over on top of me and readjusted before he continued his relentless thrusting. His grunts and groans filled my ears and overloaded my senses.
“I love you so much,” Lev whimpered.
He cried out as he finished.
We smiled at each other through our heavy breathing.
“I’ve never been in love like this, Sela,” Lev whispered as he kissed my neck. “You are everything to me.”
“I feel the same about you, Lev.” I whispered. “I don’t know what I would do without you.”
“Marry me, Sela?”
“What?”
“I want you to marry me. We make each other happy.” Lev smiled. “Don’t you want to be with me forever?”
I nodded. “I do.”
“So you’ll marry me?”
“Of course I will.”
We kissed again.
I rubbed my nose against his. “I’ll tell my parents tomorrow.”
***
I woke up to feeling lips on my neck.
“Grey?”
“Who else would it be?” He whispered. “ You were making those noises again…it was sexy.”
“Sela and Lev are engaged now.” I informed him.
“We should celebrate for them.”
Grey turned me around and kissed me hard.
“How are you?” Grey murmured.
“I’m okay, how are you?”
“Amazing. I woke up to the most beautiful woman in the world.”
“You are much too sweet to me, Grey.” I smiled. “I don’t deserve it.”
“Sure you do.”
No, I didn’t because I let Enzo kiss me and didn’t tell him to stop. I should have pushed him away, but instead I let it happen. Why was that?
“Celine? You okay? You seem distracted.”
“I think I’m still processing what Enzo told me. It’s just so sad.”
“It’s brutal, but you get used to it. We should get ready for breakfast.”
Grey and I exited our room the same time that Enzo and Mira did.
“Good morning,” Mira smiled.
“Good morning.” I forced a smile. “Hi Enzo.”
“Hi Celine. Um…I really need to talk to you after breakfast if that’s okay?”
“Um, sure.”
We awkwardly walked down the breakfast table.
“I’m sending our tracers out today,” Pierce stated. “It might take a few days, but they’ve never disappointed me yet.”
“Thank you so much Pierce, we appreciate it.”
“Anything to save the world. Celine, how is Sela?”
“She’s great. She just got engaged, so odds are she will stay exactly where she is.”
“Good, that’s very important for tracking.” Pierce nodded. “Thank you for your information, Celine.”
“Of course.”
It was a pretty silent breakfast. I did my best not to look at Enzo at all. I didn’t know what to say to him.
Enzo approached me after breakfast and grabbed my arm.
“Enzo, don’t rip my arm off!” I protested.
“Sorry, sorry. Um…look about last night-”
“I really appreciate you opening to me finally, Enzo. I know that was hard for you.”
“That’s um…that’s not what I want to discuss,” Enzo said. “The…kiss, Celine. That’s what I want to talk about.”
“I see. Look, I know you were just feeling vulnerable and that’s why you did that. And that’s okay. I don’t see why we have to make a big deal about it.” I said.
“So you didn’t…feel anything when we kissed?”
I couldn’t tell him how I actually felt a spark with him. It was silly and probably not real. No point in stirring the pot for no reason.
“It was just a kiss Enzo. No need to blow up everything over it. You’re with Mira and I’m trying things out with Grey. Right?”
“Sure, yeah, but…you did kiss me back, you know?” Enzo asked.
“It was a shock. We were both in weird states and that’s all it was.” I said firmly. “So let’s not make it a thing. You’re going to fall in love with Mira and then I’ll get my wings and everything will be perfect.”
“But-”
“Great talk. I should go find Grey.”
I turned and hurried away.
I didn’t want to talk to Enzo about us kissing.
Or the fact that I think I really liked it.
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