Selfish
1544 Words
“No! Celine cannot come with us anymore!” Enzo exclaimed.
“Enzo, that doesn’t make any sense!” I protested.
“Yes it does. Rafe is after you, so you can’t be available for him to take. Pierce, where can we leave her where she’ll be safe?”
“Alpha Enzo, I have to agree with Celine here. She has to continue on with the journey.”
“She’s in danger, absolutely not!”
“Enzo, how else will Sela get her powers back?” I asked.
He seemed stumped. “Well…fuck! I don’t want you out there where he can get to you.”
“I think Celine can handle herself pretty well, Alpha Enzo.” Pierce pointed out. “Her powers keep her safe.”
“And they always will.” I said. “They work best when I’m in danger, so if they come for me, I can protect myself.”
“I’m supposed to protect you Celine.” Enzo whispered.
“Take a day off.”
Pierce looked between us. I think he knew something was going on between us. He kind of already had an inkling.
“I know you care deeply about Celine, Alpha Enzo, but we cannot save the world without her. If Sela doesn’t have her full powers, we won’t be able to defeat The Depraved Fiend.”
“Not to mention we don't even know who it is.” I sighed. “That’s going to be the real problem.”
“As long as we can assist, I think everything will be okay.” Pierce smiled.
“Hey Celine?” Irene asked. “Paz is awake. He wants to talk to you.”
I followed her into the room. “His voice is still kind of weak,” She warned me.
“Celine.” Paz said hoarsely. A smile was on his pale face.
He did look paler than usual and very tired, but I knew he was going to be okay.
“Hey, Paz.” I smiled back. “You look good.”
“You’re a good liar.”
“One of my many talents.”
“Including saving my life, I guess. Celine, I don’t know how I can ever return the favor to you. I thought I was done for. That I would never see my beautiful Irene again.”
“Like I told Irene, you don’t have to return the favor, Paz. It really was my honor. You have always been so nice to me and I didn’t want you to die. Besides, you’re in love. That is one of the greatest feelings in this entire world and if I could keep that in tact, I am more than happy.”
“You really are an angel,” Irene shook her head. “We are forever indebted to you.”
“Your friendship is enough, I assure you.” I smiled.
“Then you have our friendship for life and the next one.” Paz whispered. “Thank you so much.”
“Don’t mention it.”
Irene walked me back out. “So who is he?”
“Who is who?” I asked.
“The guy you’re in love with. Before you just always said you wished you had love and now you seem to know what it’s like.”
“Oh um…can’t really say.” I admitted.
“You shouldn’t be scared to love whoever you want to. Even if other people are sad about it and won’t understand, it’s about you two, not anyone else.” Irene said seriously.
It was strange, but it felt like she too knew about me and Enzo. She didn’t seem upset though. Mira was her friend.
“I didn’t mean to fall in love with him.”
“That’s the beauty of love. It’s totally unexpected and it’s no one’s fault.”
***
“Celine, could I talk to you privately?” Grey asked.
“Of course.”
“I just wanted to check on you, are you okay after all of that?”
“Yes, I’m good. A little shaken, but I’m so glad I was able to save Paz.”
“That was absolutely incredible. You were amazing.” Grey smiled.
“Thank you, Grey.”
“I miss you, Celine.”
“I’m right here.”
“I mean like sleeping in the same bed and spending all that time together. I hate that I messed it all up by taking it too far.”
“Grey, don’t. It’s not your fault, I promise. It was me. I just had to figure some things out.” I said.
“Well have you figured them out yet? I just want one more chance to do this right. I like you so much Celine and I don’t know if I’ll ever feel this way about another person, you know?”
“I understand that I just…” I felt so horrible as I looked into his eyes. He liked me so much and of course I had feelings for him, but my feelings for Enzo were much more powerful.
“I don’t know what to say.” I admitted.
“Say that you want to try this again and that we’d be really good together. Because it’s true.”
I was caught off guard when Grey kissed me. I gently pushed him away.
“Grey-”
“What’s going on?” Enzo’s voice asked.
“Celine and I were talking.” Grey replied.
“Didn’t look like much talking.”
“Enzo, can you give us a moment?” I questioned.
“No, I don’t think so.”
Grey’s jaw clenched. “No disrespect, Alpha Enzo, this is between me and Celine.”
“Last I heard there was no you and Celine. She ended things with you.” Enzo stated. “So that should be the end of it right?”
“Celine, I’ll talk to you later.” Grey stalked away.
I had never seen him so upset and annoyed.
“What the f**k was that Celine?” Enzo demanded.
“I didn't do anything!”
“I thought you told him it was over!”
“I did, but he still likes me. What do you want me to do?”
“Don’t talk to him alone and give him opportunities to kiss you.” Enzo said stubbornly. “How long are we supposed to keep our relationship a secret anyways?”
“I don’t know yet, but it’s still much too soon.” I sighed. “I don’t want to hurt anyone.”
“It’s okay to be selfish sometimes, Celine. We deserve to be happy, babe.”
“I know. Just give it a few days, okay?”
“Sure.” Enzo muttered.
“Did you talk to Mira?” He nodded. “What did she say?”
“She called me a selfish asshole that used her for sex.”
“Oh heavens. I’m gonna go talk to her and try to make her feel better.”
“That’s not your job, Celine. People break up, it happens.”
“But this feels like it was my fault.” I groaned. “I stole her boyfriend.”
“It was never going to work out with us, Celine. She’s not my soulmate, you are.” Enzo smiled.
“She’s still my friend. I want to comfort her.”
“You are so incredible. I love you so much.”
“I love you too.” I gave him a quick kiss and went off to find Mira.
She was sitting on a log out front by herself.
“Hey,” I sat next to her. “How are you?”
“You didn’t try hard enough, Celine.”
“What do you mean?”
“I talked to Enzo and he still doesn’t want me back.” She whispered.
“I’m sorry, Mira, but I did try. If he doesn't want to be with you, you have to accept that.” I said.
“You were supposed to help me. You said you would and now you’re just done. What kind of friend are you?”
“Mira, I am your friend. I’m here to comfort you!”
“Took you long enough!” She snapped.
“I’m sorry, I was busy saving Paz’s life and recovering from exhaustion!”
“Yeah, all I’ve heard about all day is you saving Paz’s life! You’re such a f*****g saint!”
“Actually I’m an angel!” I shot back. “I don’t know what is wrong with you Mira.”
“You gave me hope! You said I could have Enzo and that we could be in love and now look at me! He left me! I should have never listened to you and your stupid optimism!” Mira shouted.
"I'm sorry my mystic powers didn't work to know if you two would actually be compatible!"
"You were our biggest problem, Celine! You are so f*****g oblivious, it drives me crazy! You're just off in your own world with your sparkles and happiness and your weird phrases! You are clueless about love!" She stomped off.
I was starting to feel like a bad friend.
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