my unfolding life

the next day

STEFFI

i wake up slowly from the sun shining through the window i stretch out again get out of bed and stroll down to the kitchen last night was nice and i was on time .daisy was very happy about that she always stay awake and wait for me. not that I'm always to late or something .I don't want to do that to daisy she is already so busy with work and us and everything else she has to arrange. so I keep to all agreements so that daisy does not have extra things to worry about. when I arrive in the kitchen, daisy is already at the counter with coffee, she smiles at me and says so you can probably use coffee too, I nod to her. I also have a real headache, maybe i have to look for a medicine for my headache. while looking in the closet for a medicine. daisy puts down the coffee on the counter. i sit down take my pill and a long sip of coffee afterwards .that should work I think. daisy and I sit there for little while.

when daisy stands up and puts her cup in the sink while she walks towards me she says I have to go to the office again they called that my colleague is sick and I have to fill in. your sister is still sleeping you watch her in the meantime ? she puts a kiss on my cheek and I say yes of course I'll take her to the park later. now that daisy is out the door it is very quiet around me. in my mind i think of yesterday that crazy meeting with brian at the cemetery those bright blue eyes keep chasing me. i think of brian by the fire and then when he suddenly stood behind us i think of how penetrating he looked at me. I slept very restless last night. from the garden party on a had a strange feeling like I'm being watched like if someone is looking at me all the time, even in my sleep. which of course is not possible, it will be due to the crazy day I had yesterday and my short amount of sleep.

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BRIAN

I step into the shower in my mind I repeat yesterday and last night. yes i really like a sick stalker chasing her. I watched her dance at the garden party with her friend. how she smiled and how much fun she had. and even though I knew I had to go I just couldn't. I was fascinated by this girl although I really don't know why. I've never had this before, all people were the same. in all my years i have seen a lot of people but none have been as fascinating as steffi. I followed her from the garden party to her house. for a moment I thought okay now it is time to leave but before I knew it I was on the roof. when I saw a roofwindow open, of course I had to take a look inside. once through the window I was in an attic room I heard something and quickly looked around there she was lying in her bed deep asleep okay this is her room that's nice . then came the doubt what I was doing here really can't. I have to go away I know but I can't. I sat in a corner in a chair and watched her all night and listened to the rhythm of her heart and her rhythmic breathing I couldn't get enough. the smell in the room was intoxicating it smelled like steffi it had a scent of lilies mixed with vanilla. I was really hypnotized.

as it slowly got lighter I knew I really had to leave before she woke up.and now i'm standing here in the shower i feel guilty i followed her without her knowing and sat admiring her all night.

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STEFFI

I've been sitting here on the couch for an hour watching Lucci bounce back and forth from the swing to the slide that girl has really too much energy. all of a sudden I get the feeling that someone is looking at me when I look around for the source of my feelings I see him sitting in the distance on a picnic table through his sunglasses and the distance I do not know if he is really looking at me but he is looking in my direction.

that's creepy i try to look in all directions except his. in the meantime I look in the direction where I last saw lucci disappear but I don't see her anymore, where is she now anyway. I get up quickly to have a good look and then I hear her voice steffi I have received a lollipop can I have it .I turn after the sound and see her coming hopping with a big smile, she holds a large lolly in front of her in one hand in the other she holds the hand of someone and it only takes 1 second for it to came through to me .ITS HIM BRIAN.

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BRIAN

okay okay i really know it is stupid i will visit her again now i am sitting here in a park staring stupidly at her. would I go to her no that is stupid. she looks at me and quickly away of course she thinks I'm a scary stalker. Actually, I am. I look around again then I see her sister standing at the mobile candy store and hear her say to the saleswoman hi madam can I buy that big lolly for 50 cents the saleswoman smiles sweetly at the and says sorry little lady that lolly costs really a bit more . I get up and walk over to them I try to smile at the little girl as kindly as possible before I say to the saleslady go for the biggest lolly you have. after I have paid for the lolly I give it to the little girl she smiles at me I feel her joy and cheerfulness she takes my hand and says come, I must first ask Steffi if I can have the lolly. she drags me along and before we arrive at steffi she calls steffi i have received a lollipop can a have it. steffi turns in our direction I see her looking at the lolly then at her sister her eyes follows my arm until she looks up at me. her eyes widen for a moment. what is that good for i try to stay polite and smile at her hi steffi i bought a lolly for your sister is that okay? she looks at me questioningly and then says how sweet thank you she turns her head to her sister and says eat it up but don't run with your lolly okay?