• miles is miles and miles away •
I wake up from the nightmare.
My heart is beating fast and I'm sweating. It's horrific to think of Erik getting another woman pregnant! I want to carry his first child. I want to carry all his children. That Becky woman can't get pregnant for my man! No! No! No!
I stay at the corner of the bed in a foetal position, trying to compose myself. Trying not to cry. Trying not to remember that I lost my first child with Erik. Trying not to think about him starting a family with Becky. The thought of it shatters my heart into pieces. I couldn't bear it. No, I couldn't be able to bear it.
The first person I call is Alex.
"Maybe that's the universe finally telling you to move on!" Alex says. "I mean, what more signs do you need?"
"I'm not letting him go, Alex.
