The Last One

Drugs

    Is not that I don't want to tell him but I'm afraid of his reaction. I've been the Luna of the Moon Chasers since I got here and yet I wasn't ready for this. I'm not ready to let go. I'll have to leave him to be Luna of the Night Howlers. 

    "Lilah Walker, why in the world would you block the mindlink?", said dad taking me by surprise. 

    "I... erm", I couldn't even form a proper word at the moment so I started looking everywhere. 

    "We were killing rogues", answered Connor who surprisingly was behind me.

    "You told me you were done killing them before she blocked her mindlink", said dad with his accusing tone.

    "Yeah... well there was this rogue that appeared after Connor left", I try to cover this stupid lie. I can't believe we are doing this. 

    "Another?", dad raised brow makes me feel a bit nervous but I try to remember the fight between me and the rogue so he doesn't feel it through the bond. 

    "Yeah. Axel got injured because of me but he's ok now", I try to say in a convincing way.

    "So that's why you smell like him?", asks dad.

    "Yeap", I say with a straight line in my lips that wasn't convincing at all.

    "I see", he says while he rubs his chin. It can't be helped, I look so not convincing. "And you, Connor? Why do you smell like wolfsbane and alcohol?", dad asked to a Connor that didn't start running out of here and just got paralyzed. 

    "Someone dropped their beverage on Connor's shirt", I suddenly say but dad looks at me like if I'm ill or something. 

    "Are you two on drugs?"

    “What?! No!”, we said in unison.

    “If we were on drugs, Lilah would never share her drugs with me”, defended Connor.

    “That’s… kind of true”, I said later after thinking about it.

    “Good to know!”, dad looked at us in a menacing way.

    “I’m not on drugs!”, I finally said. 

    "Well you two never agree so it is only natural to think you are on drugs", he defended.

    That's kind of true. We are always arguing about something and dad is always there to intervene. Guess we are not fighting but we are doing this for our own benefit.

    "Well I guess we can't always be fighting", said Connor scratching his neck. 

    "Take a bath you two. You should be sleeping", he said and left to his office. 

    We were on silence 'till Connor turned to me. 

    "You know, it was fun not arguing and work together in a simple lie. I mean we only work as a team when we are fighting rogues but when it comes to our usual selves we are arguing even about climate change", he said giving me a small smile. 

    "Yeah. But next time I won't cover the wolfsbane. Even I can smell that is not coming from your shirt", I said with a mocking smile.

    "We both know that you have higher senses and now I pitty Axel just a bit", made a tiny space between his fingers to let me know how much he pitty him. 

    "Wow! Why is that so?", I asked with my ands in my hips.

    "He can't lie to you. Not even once. You will know right away if he's lying", he shrugged.

    "Lycan senses", says Gary behind us.

    We turn and see him laying in the door frame. 

    "I guess I pitty him as well but he deserves it", he shrugged.

    "Why are talking about me like I'm the devil itself?", I said a bit upset. 

    "Because you are!", both of them said. But soon Gary's expression changed. Someone was behind Connor and me. By the smell I could tell it was Kyle but when I turned around he was looking at me worried. I was trying to figure out why he was looking at me like that but he soon hugged me and carresed my hair. Surprised and confused, I let him do it since he's not harming me.

    "I'm sorry Lilah", he said as he broke our embrace.

    I shook my head in response. Why was he sorry about?

    "And you two shouldn't pitty him but her. Whatever he does she will feel it in the worst way possible", he scolded both of them. 

    I didn't even though about Axel cheating on me because I couldn't feel the mate bond but since I'm still part lycan I will feel it. Wolves can't feel it but lycans can feel it in their bones. There are stories of lycans trying to rip their skin because of the feeling and even though they suffer, they can't kill their mate. Not even knowing that the Moon Goddess can give us another opportunity unlike wolves. Lycans can't just kill their mate even if they feel like they are dying. 

    I'm trying to convince myself about Axel. He will change, right? I'm not just other girl in the list, right? Then why would he act like that? So he can get my trust and keep me away from my pack or just because he wants me to suffer? I will never know until I can feel the mate bond and know his true feelings about me. 

    "Get a bath and stop thinking. I can feel your anxiety", I heard dad's voice through our bond. 

    I gave them a forced smile. Gary and Connor looked like they regretted what they said but is not their fault. Sometimes it feels like I'm just a normal wolf but I'm not. I have never been normal in all my life. I'm the last Alpha of the lycans if they still exist which I doubt. 

    "I'll go and take a bath. It's been a long day", I said with a forced smile.

    "Lilah...", Connor called me but it was like he didn't know what else to say.

    "It's ok, Connor. Is not your fault. Have a good night, guys", I said and went to my bedroom.  

    Looking for my pijamas I felt like crying. If Axel was only playing with me then I was condemned to live a lie. The last Alpha Lycan was supposed to live as a Luna of a wolfpack. There was no way Axel could ever know about me being a lycan if he though of me as a game. A knock got me out of my thoughts. 

    "Get in", I said sitting on the bed.

    Connor got in and closed the door behind him. 

    "You're right", I said staring at the floor. "He can't be trusted. Not yet", I said and Connor sat by my side. 

    "Listen, I know is hard to think that he might do something like that but think about Gary. He's an asshole but he's trying his best to convince his mate that he is no longer a womanizer. Give him a chance", he said.

    "But what if he doesn't change? What if I can't tell him who I really am? What about my pups? They will also live a lie just like me. I can't let something like that happen", I replied with a huff. Connor in an instant grabbed my face with both hands and looked at me straight to the eye. 

    "That's never gonna happen. Trust me. The Walker's made an oath to the Thunder's family that's why dad was waiting for you since the first day. That's why I've been training, to protect your pups even from you. Give him a chance and if he's a d**k then you can stay in this pack. You don't have to decide, ok?", he said wiping a tear that I didn't notice it was there. I nodded franatically in response. 

    "Yes", I finally said sobbing. Connor hugged me until I calmed down. 

    "Get a bath and some rest. You look terrible", mocked Connor. A smile was creeping in te corner of my lips.

    "Alright", I replied.