Choose Me, My Mate

3. Afraid

Night has come. A collection of shining stars illuminates the dark sky. They are always faithful to accompany the moon that appears every night. Tonight the stars made themselves visible to Viltarin's green eyes, who were sitting on the balcony contemplating something. His brows knitted together, indicating that he was in deep thought. Don't bother him if he's in that state if you don't want to be strangled or thrown by a chair. He needs calm so that his intelligent brain can think smoothly.

The man's fingers intertwined, and he sat with his back straight; he looked like a robot. For an hour, he was in that position. He did not intend to greet the Moon Goddess, who might be on the moon seeing him, and also not planning to look up at the sky where there is a collection of stars that make up the constellation Orion.

Vilatrin was arguing with his mind. He was too engrossed, and he ignored his wolf, who invited him to talk.

This afternoon. He and his wolf could not mistake the scent of the jasmine flower. During the 35 years, he had lived in this world, it was the first time he had smelled a fragrance that could increase his heart rate. His wolf, Ryu, also smelled the scent.

He couldn't possibly forget that one of the characteristics of a werewolf had found its mate.

He's not sorry because his mate is an omega or comes from another pack. Kalliste comes from the Blackstone Pack, which is their mortal enemy. Viltarin realized Kalliste was just an ordinary citizen who didn't understand anything. The problems that occurred between the Bluestone Pack and the Blackstone Pack it was all purely because of him and Kenric, who were trying to seize the empty land containing gold and oil. So this has nothing to do with the people.

However, Viltarin found it difficult to accept Kalliste. Although the food was almost to his taste.

'Oh, come on, Viltarin. Listen to what I have to say.' Ryu shouted. He was very upset. 'You're so annoying! Gosh.' Ryu took a deep breath. 'You know? How often have I complained to the Moon Goddess for being in the body of a human-like you who often ignores me?'

Ryu's voice echoing in his head made Viltarin dizzy. After an hour and ten minutes, he sat down, and he finally moved his limbs, he massaged the bridge of his nose. His wolf is very noisy. He had to answer Ryu's words before his head exploded quickly because his wolf won't stop talking until he got an answer. 'Why?'

Ryu snorted. Anger built up in his heart, and he let it out slowly. He had to be patient with Viltarin's annoying attitude. 'Why don't you talk to her?'

'What for?'

Ryu dropped his jaw, even a bee could get into his mouth. He's in deep shock. 'What for? Are you crazy or lost your memory?' Ryu raised his voice in intonation. She's our mate, Rin! Talk to her. Say that you two are mates! She must have smelled your scent too.' Ryu is angry. It felt like he wanted to get out of Viltarin's body right now. 'Like any other werewolf meeting their mate.'

Viltarin changed his back position to be more relaxed and no longer tense. He let go of his intertwined fingers. Then raised his head and directed his eyes to the moon, which looked very beautiful. 'I believe the Moon Goddess is probably looking at me and is concerned about my slightly muddled appearance.'

Ryu rolls his eyes. If only he could claw or bite Viltarin's body. Ryu tried to contain the anger that was building up in his chest. 'Rin, I'm talking to you! Why are you ignoring me?'

'I'm listening to you, Ryu.' Viltarin took a deep breath as he rubbed his face. Her green eyes didn't move from seeing the moon. 'But you know me more than anyone. You can see all my memories, you can feel what I feel, and you can know what's on my mind. It's not easy for me to do. I need time to prepare everything, especially my heart. She is working here. She's here, Ryu. She's not going anywhere. She'll always be with us, Ryu. You don't have to worry.'

Ryu sighed. He knew Viltarin more than anyone. They know each other. Why had he forgotten the thing Viltarin feared the most? He was too happy that they had found their mate. He agreed with Viltarin's words about Kalliste being here and always with them. 'But that's not enough, Rin.' Ryu shook his head. But he also had fear in his heart. 'We have to mark her immediately. I don't want to lose it.' Ryu tilted his head back, taken aback by what came out of his mouth. He hoped that his words would not hurt Viltarin anymore. He blinked his eyes before saying. 'I trust Moon Goddess is never wrong.'

Viltarin understands. Ryu was also worried about him. So far, Ryu has never forced him to find their mate. Ryu was patient and waited for him to be ready. But to this day, Viltarin never felt ready. His heart was broken every time he tried to search for his mate. Those memories always haunt him.

'I'm sorry, Ryu.' Viltarin squeezed in the shirt area on his chest. His chest felt tight, and it was making it hard to catch his breath. It was many years ago, but he was still in this state. Still in pain and broken.

'Rin,' Ryu called out to Viltarin, his worried tone. He also felt like he was being squeezed because Viltarin had difficulty breathing normally. Is he outrageous? Shouldn't he haven't forced Viltarin? 'Rin. Follow me. Inhale and exhale. Come on, follow me.' Ryu guides.

Viltarin followed Ryu's instructions, who understood him very well. After several inhalations and exhalations, he closed his eyes with his head lowered. Dispel all the bad memories and thoughts that invaded his head. This fear had almost faded away, but when he met Kalliste, who applied for a job as an omega here, all the fear and anxiety returned to torment him.

'Sorry, Ryu.'

'It's okay.' Ryu's shoulders slumped. Maybe he'd better give Viltarin some more time until the poor guy is all set. Without needing them to search, their mate came to them. The Moon Goddess understood Viltarin more than him. Ryu pondered. He realized one thing that indicated that the Moon Goddess truly understood and loved Viltarin, who was one of his creatures. 'Rin, do you want to let go of all those pains and memories? I know it's not easy to forget those painful memories.'

Viltarin scratched his forehead. Then he stood up after sitting for over an hour. He put his hand on the iron barrier. His green eyes roamed the night sky dotted with the moon and stars, and there were also two white birds. 'Of course, I want to. I want to forget all these memories and pain. So that I can be like Alpha and the other werewolves and other immortals who can be with their partners without feeling anything but happiness and love.'

Ryu nodded in understanding. 'The Moon Goddess is very kind to you. She knows why you haven't been looking for your mate, and with her affection, she brought our mate to us. The Moon Goddess wants you to feel happy when you are with our mate. Kalliste, our mate, is the medicine you've been looking for. The medicine that will release you from all that pain. She will also erase those painful memories with happiness.'

Viltarin gasped. He was speechless hearing what Ryu said that might be true. The Moon Goddess was never wrong, and the Moon Goddess was very kind to him. 'But ….' His heart was still filled with doubts and bad thoughts roaming around.

'I see. But I can't do anything.' Poor Viltarin.