Abandoned Promises (Filipino) (Hiatus)

Chapter 4

A U B R E Y

It's been four days since the incident happend at ngayong araw ang libing nina Papa. Parang kailan lang ang saya saya pa namin pero dahil lang sa insidenteng yon natapos ang maliligayang araw namin. I can still remember how they laugh while remembering the the dumbest things me and my sibling does when we were still little. Pinilit kong tumayo ako sa harap upang magbigay ng eulogy kahit pa sa loob loob ko ay sobrang sakit na. 

"Four days of suffering, agonizing and mourning for their deaths and still hanggang ngayon hindi parin kami makapaniwala sa mga nangyari. We could still remember their laughs at the dining area. Mama's shout whenever she tries to wake me up and Papa spoiling me for things that I want. But now, we need to accept the fact that it's all in our memories now" I tried to hide my sobs while saying those things and unfortunately, I can't.

"They are the best kind of parents in the world. Yung ultimo kahit maliit na bagay na galing sayo ikinasasaya na nila. Lucky for those who still have their parents until now. You should treasure your days with them because you'll never know when will God will take them away from you."

Even though I am afraid seeing some laying at a coffin, I forced myself to look at my parents who looks like they're just peacefully sleeping not temporarily--but forever. After my short eulogy all I did was cry like a baby while hugging my brother.

Hindi na nagbigay ng message si Preston dahil hindi niya talaga kayang magpaalam kina Mama dahil narin siya ang pinaka malapit sa dalawa. Pagkatapos ng libing ay pinasalamatan na namin lahat ng nakiramay bago umalis. Naiwan nalang kaming walo sa harap ng pinaglibingan nina papa. My girlfriends already left since hindi rin nila kayang makitang naasa ganung lagay sina papa.

"So what should we do now?" asked Roland whose now holding a beer.

"We should continue our life dahil alam nating hindi matutuwa sina tito kapag nagbulakbol tayo." usal ni Lionel na abala sa pag bubunot ng d**o.

"I'll be working my ass off from now on--" Lahat kami ay napatingin kay Preston dahil sa pagtataka.

"What do you mean?" ask Aaron.

"I'll be a working student to support our needs. Wala na sina Mama, wala nang susuporta sa ma pangangailangan natin kung hindi ako magtatrabo." usal niya.

"Then I will be a working student too. Hindi pwedeng ikaw lang ang gagalwa para satin Preston." angil ko sa kanya.

V A N C E

Bago pa tuluyang mag away sina Preston at Aubrey ay nagyaya na si Bejamin na umalis para kumain. We bid our goodbye to their parents before leaving and before the twins gets too emotional again. We ate at a Korean restaurant para maiba naman at gumaan na rin ang loob nung dalawa. I know malungkot parin sila, hindi naman kasi ganun kadaling kalimutan ang lahat ng nangyari. I know that behind those smiles they are showing us is the agony and pain of being left behind by their parents.

I looked at the twin and I know they are still in pain specially Preston. After eating dumiretso na din kami sa mall to unwind things. Gusto lang naming mapasaya kahit papano yung dalawa. We've done window shopping before we decided to watch a movie.

"Aubrey kung okay lang pwede mo bang samahan si Vance bumiling popcorn?" Preston asked his sister.

"Sure." maikling aniya.

I was walking with her and Im starting to feel uncomfortable with her. Siguro dahil hindi siya katulad ng unang encounter ko sa kanya na madaldal. "Hey."

"Hmm?"

"Are you okay?" what the seriosly?

"Well sino bang lolokohin ko pagsinabi kong oo diba?" she let out a small chuckle but sadness is visible on it.

"I'm sorry I should've ask."

"Its okay not your fault." she answer. 

After that small talk hindi na ulit ako siya nakausap. I such an idiot to ask her if she is okay well definitely she's not. Hays. We reached our destination at bumili ng apat na bucket ng popcorn we decided not to buy drinks dahil madami na kaming dala sigurado naman akong bibili sila mamaya nun.

Pumili kami ng isang Comedy movie and Aubrey sat beside me kaya siya ang kahita ko sa popcorn at tama nga ako hindi sila matatali na hindi bumili ng drinks. We watch silently but when the movie started to become serious dahil hindi napigilan ng bidang lalaki ang pagkamatay ng nanay niya that's when I started to hear small sobs. I look at her and saw tears coming out from her eyes.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa akin. Nagkusang gumalaw ang katawan ko at itinaas ang armrest ng silya at kinabig siya papalapit sa akin. I absent mindly wrapped my hands around her and let her cry on my chest until there is no more tears coming out from her eyes.

A U B R E Y

I found myself trembling while we enter our house. Pagkatapos naming manood ng movie napagpasyahan na rin naming umuwi dahil sa pagod. Once I open the door, memories came back immediately. Wala na si Mama na sasalubong samin at sasawayin kami dahil gabi na kami umuwi. I just still can't accept it until now. Everything will never be the same without them.

Pumasok na kami sa kanya kanya naming kwarto. I immediately drag myself into the bed and stare at the ceiling thinking what to do now that they are gone. I heard my phone rang and saw Luther calling hindi ko sana sasagutin pero ayoko namang maging rude kung sakali.

"Hello?"

"Hey I just want to ask kung okay ka lang?"

"Yes Im fine. Kaya ko pa naman haha." I faked a laugh.

"Okay. I just check kung okay ka lang. Gabi na matulog ka na."

"Thank you, Luther."

"Your welcome. Goodnight Aubrey."

"Goodnight." I said before ending our call.

Tumayo ako para mag half bathe pero bago pa man ako makapasok ng banyo ay narinig ko na naman ang phone kong nagring. I check it out and saw someone calling. 

"Hello?" I ask.

"Um, Aubrey?" tanong nito.

"Yes, sino ka?"

"Oh its me Vance. Im sorry for calling this late hindi lang ako mapakali dahil kanina." linya niya.

"Well it's okay. How did you get my number?" tanong ko at umupo sa gilig ng kama.

"I got it from Preston kinuha ko bago kayo umalis." paliwanag niya.

"So bakit ka pala napatawag?"

"Wala lang. I just want to check you out after seeing you cry like that makes me kinda worry."

"Im okay Vance there's no need for you to worry about me." I let out a chukle dahit halata mo talaga ang pag aalala niya.

There is a long silence after. Tiningnan ko kung namatay na ba ang tawag pero hindi pa naman so--

"Well um gabi na you should rest already I kow na sobrang nakakapagod ng araw na ito. Goodnight Aubrey". basag niya sa katahimikan.

"Goodnight and thank you for cheking me out Vance." I smile kahit pa hindi niya ako nakikita.

After our conversation I felt like smiling. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero nadama ko nalang bigla. Then I remebered what happen at the cinema. Vance hugged me and let me cry on his chest I feel embarassed about it but there is this feeling na para bang matagal ko nang naramdaman ang pakiramdam na 'yon. That I feel safe while my face is burried on his chest. 

The feeling of being safe while enfolded someone in one's arms.