Begging for rejection

Chapter 17 - Last Chance

Derek POV

“You are making a huge mistake Derek” Dean says.

“Did you even tell her or you just decided to go full asshole” now it’s Dylan.

“Why should I tell her anything? It’s none of her business” I answer Dylan.

“It’s exactly her business, she is your mate so when you are bringing your ex girlfriend to stay over at your house you have to tell her” Dylan explains to me slowly like he Is explaining homework to a five year old boy, Dean is right, he is a d**k.

“She is not my mate… or at least won’t be in few days, we didn’t even talk since our last conversation four days ago, so yeah, it’s none of her god damn business Dylan, plus what do you guys have against Izzy?” .

“You are kidding right? Tell me you are kidding… don’t you remember why you broke up with her in the first place?” Dean tries to remind me.

“so she is a little possessive, but she was a good leader and handled some of the Luna duties very well when we were together, plus she is from a strong lineage, she is a good fit” I explain my reason for choosing her.

“Excuse me; did you say a “LITTLE” possessive?” Dylan says emphasizing the word little then continues “she almost bit Sophia’s head off when she laughed on one of your jokes”.

“And she almost killed Natalia for staring at you a little too long” Dean says.

“And let’s not forget when she almost broke that office door when you missed two of her calls because you were in a meeting” Dylan adds.

“Or the time she- ” dean tries to add even more to that damn list so I had to stop them.

“Enough” I say slamming my hand on the desk.

“the key word here gentlemen is “Almost”, she didn’t really do any damage” I try to defend her.

“So you are giving her a second chance so she can actually do? The only reason she failed the last time is because there was always someone around to stop her, that b***h is crazy, what about Dalilah?” dean says and I roll my eyes.

“She found her mate, that’s why we broke up in the first place you i***t” I remind him.

“I know you only had two serious relationships in your life and that it’s not easy for you to connect with people, but choose anyone, anyone but her” Dean tries to reason with me.

“At least she loves me with all her heart Dean, even if it was a little too much”.

“So that’s what it’s about? You want to be loved?” Dylan says and I don’t answer him, maybe it’s the real reason I chose Izzy… and what’s wrong with that? I’ve been rejected by the people who were supposed to love me unconditionally, my father and my mate, even my mother never really stood up for me... I was brought out of my thoughts by Dylan.

“What if she found out about Alexandria? Can you imagine what she will do?” Dylan says.

“She won’t, I’m rejecting her, there will be no reason for Izzy to pay any attention to her” I say as emotionless as I can but Rex is whimpering by the mere mention of rejecting our mate.

“You are not going to reconsider?” Dylan asks almost defeated.

“Why should I Dylan? … You know if even for once she saw me as anything but a misfortune, if she just gave me the littlest thread of hope that one day we could be together… I would have gone to war for her, especially after what she is been through…but all she has done practically every time she sees me is beg me to reject her, she will never get over her first mate or love another... and in the end she is right, a hunter can never be a Luna, I have to get over her and start to act like the alpha that I am and put my pack first” I feel my heart break as I finish saying the truth that I knew all along, that everybody already know but for some reason try to ignore.

“I will not argue with you brother, you are right, it’s just… finding a mate is a great gift and I don’t think the moon goddess does anything in idle, just give it another thought before you do anything permanent” Dean reasons.

I sigh in frustration, maybe I should give it one last try, it’s still two days till Izzy arrives.

Alexandria POV

For the past four days Derek and I did our best to avoid each other, sometimes when I’m in the dining hall or walking around with Sophia , I feel his gaze on me but when I turn around he is not there or he seems busy talking to someone as if he doesn’t notice me there.

My heart race every time I get a glance of him and I fight the urge to just walk up to him and … talk? Yes, talk, that’s all I wanna do nothing else… fine, maybe do something a little more, I mean he is a goddamn hunk; I can watch him all day and never get bored.

I was brought out of my day dreaming with the sound of a food tray being slammed across the table from me, what now?

I was trying to have my lunch in peace in the dining hall and praying that there would be no drama with any of the pack members.

I notice how some look at me and I hear them whispering , and of course I didn’t miss the dirty glares Natalia and her friends give me or their innocent attempts to shove me or trip me when they walk pass me, all I’ve successfully avoided which in turn pissed them off more.

Natalia however seems to not get herself involved, satisfied with her friends stupidity or she is scared of Sophia’s threat, for a strong warrior as they say she is, she really is a coward and they all are acting like the mean girls in a high school movie, we are not a bunch of teenagers here for crying out loud and they are testing my patience.

“So human, how long are you going to stay here?” the brunette friend of Natalia asks, I think her name is Sandy.

“Why do you wanna know?” I ask with most innocent smile I can master.

“Just curious, if you are here to stay, maybe we can be friends” Sandy says and I raise an eyebrow at her statement, so that’s your new tactic? How stupid does she thinks I am? Or how stupid she really is to think anyone would fall for that?

“I’d love to be friends with you, specially Natalia, she seems to be nice but unfortunately I’m not going to stay here long” I say with the fakest sad smile ever and her fake expression of friendly turns to anger, I guess she caught my subtle mockery.

She opens her mouth to say something but shuts her mouth and stiffen, looking behind me, only then I feel his presence and Goosebumps spread all over my skin.

“ I see you are making friends , Alexandria” Derek says, I turn to him with a goofy grin but try to hide it as fast as I can, 'get a grip Alexandria' I scold myself.

“ No, just frenemies” I say dry chuckling giving them a side glance.

Sandy and her other friend, that I just notice stand up, pick their trays and bow their heads and say “Excuse us alpha” and practically run the other way.

“Walk with me?” Derek asks.

“It depends, are you going to try to choke me or kiss me this time?” I ask raising an eyebrow.

“It depends on how the conversation will go I guess” he says laughing and I laugh with him, I like his laugh.

Derek POV

I reconsider Dean’s words and decide I should give it one last chance; I owe it to myself more than anything else.

I finish my meeting with Dean and Dylan about the pack’s security and the ongoing threats, the borders are secure with all the upgrades and the increased patrols.

We got nothing more from the subs other than they were sent an envelope with our pack’s coordinates and when to attack, even suggesting to use rogues as a divergence and, the amateur blood thirsty they are, they saw it as an opportunity.

The same method alpha Michael used. Anonymously use gullible unaware people to get to me, as soon as the council comes back with a response, I’ll be free to retaliate as I see fit.

I leave my office and try to catch Alexandria’s scent and it leads me to the dining hall, it is still lunch time, she must be in there.

I walk inside and see her with sandy and Carla, Natalia’s friends, that can’t be good, but as expected, Alexandria can handle herself.

I brace myself, it’s the last chance for us, maybe there is still hope, and here goes nothing ...“Walk with me?”