Begging for rejection

Chapter 14 - The Whole Truth

Alexandria POV

I’m back in the damn hospital bed again, I hate hospitals with passion all it brings is bad memories.

I groan as I try to get out of bed “hey, easy there you had a concussion” Dylan says as he tries to stop me.

“It’s okay I’ll heal fast; I just need to get out of here… where is my bag?”I push Dylan aside and start searching for my bag but I feel a little dizzy and I lean to the wall to brace myself.

“Where do you think you are going?” I hear Dean’s voice coming from the doorway.

“to talk to your dipshit brother and leave” I see my bag, I take a deep breath and push myself of the wall and go grab it.

I notice Sophia standing in the corner with her arms crossed and trying as hard as she can not to look at me, I guess she is upset… they must all be upset, even angry that their Luna is a f*****g hunter but they can’t do anything about it because I’m still- like it or not- their alpha’s mate and I actually like these people, they have been nothing but nice to me, I take another deep breath.

“I’m sorry” I say looking at the three of them.

“I understand what a shock this is to you guys and believe me it was for me too, but this was not my choice and it’s not my doing… I tried to stay as far away from Derek as I could, I asked him to reject me almost every time I see him, I might have not said the whole truth but I never led him on… I mean you saw what happened when I actually said the truth, right?”.

“Yes, but that’s not who he really is, you have to understand that, Derek would never lay a hand on a woman… we lost a friend, more like a brother, he was killed by hunters and his death had severe repercussions on our lives” Dean coming to his brother’s defense of course.

“I figured that much Dean, it’s not like he even needed a reason other than me simply being a hunter, but now you all understand why this can’t happen and why I need to leave” I say almost pleading with my eyes for their support.

“It’s not our place to say, as soon as the doctors discharge you from the hospital you should talk to him” Dean says.

“Then that would be now, I don’t need to wait for the doctors, I already feel fine” just as I finish the sentence I feel another wave of dizziness.

“Okay maybe tomorrow” I say as I start to head back to the bed with the help of Dylan.

Derek POV

It’s the morning after the attack and the whole pack is gathered after breakfast is finished so I can give them a brief about yesterday’s attack.

“so that’s all we know for now, but rest assured our warriors are the strongest and our borders are now safer than ever, we doubled the patrols, installed more sensors and cameras, no one is getting in or out without us noticing, anyone have any questions?”, I see Natalia raising her hand and I fear what she is going to ask.

“Yes, Natalia?”.

“Who is the human?” of course she would be the one asking that question.

“She is a human that was attacked by rogues and we managed to save her the last time we were in town, we found out she already have knowledge of our kind and we offered her to stay with us for a while till she feels safe again to go back to her life” I see Natalia trying to say something but before she could I finish up the meeting and send everybody on their way… I hope they are convinced with what I said… it’s kind of the truth anyway, right?

It’s the afternoon and I’m sitting in my office looking over the new patrol schedules when I get a mind-link from Dylan telling me that Alexandria is been released from hospital and wants to talk to me right away, I tell him to come straight to my office, let’s get this over with.

I call for my wolf; I’ve cut him off since he attacked her.

“It’s about time, human”

“Shut the f**k up and be grateful that I’m even talking to you… as you know she is coming here now so you better not show your face and control yourself”

“I know, I never meant to hurt mate, I just got so angry when I remembered James”

“Don’t call her that, She can’t be our mate anymore ”

it breaks my heart as I say it and I can feel Rex’s pain as well as he remains silent.

I hear a knock on the door and I know exactly who it is... it’s freaking everybody.

I tell them to come in, Dean sits on couch as always, Dylan and Sophia sits on the two chairs in front of my desk while Alexandria just stands in the middle of the room ready to leave any second.

“You know she is perfectly safe talking to me by herself… yesterday was an unfortunate incident that will never happen again” I say looking straight into Alexandria’s eyes.

“I said the same to Dylan but he insisted and I guess Dean is just here for the show” she says shrugging and I can see Dean nodding.

How the hell does he find amusement in the worst of times is beyond me.

“So everything was clear yesterday, you’re an alpha, I’m a hunter, we can’t be mates and you obviously agree as you tried to choke me to death” she says almost humorously.

“so can we get the whole rejection thing over with now please?” please did she say please ? That’s a first.

“Yes of course but not before you tell us who sent you that message that caused your panic attack. You might see us as animals to hunt but my conscious won’t allow me to let you leave before I know you are safe and that’s exactly what you would try to do as soon as I reject you”.

she narrows her eyes at Dylan, she knows he saw the message and that he told me.

“First of all 'let me leave?' What on earth makes you think I can’t just walk away from here? I’m fully healed and I’m a f*****g hunter, I’m only here as a curtsy to you because I know if I left before the rejection, you’ll be the one to suffer from the bond and you might actually end up coming after me and I don’t need that s**t. Second, I don’t need your help, I’m perfectly fine taking care of myself on my own as I’ve been doing for years” she says angrily.

“On your own for years? What a great husband you have?” I say chuckling which gets her angrier.

“He is a great husband and a better man than you can ever be” she yells pointing a finger at me and now I’m the angry one.

“You think that man is better than me? He left you on your own for year, that’s your words not mine” I yell back at her.

“shut the f**k up, you don’t know what you are talking about” She cuts me off.

We are both in a yelling match now.

“Don’t I?” I move from behind my desk and walk towards her as I yell my next words,

“He left you alone on the run from some evil man, you were nearly killed twice that we know of and he doesn’t show up and let you be under another man’s protection” I can see angry tears brimming in her eyes but I don’t stop,

“You think he is better than me?, what f*****g excuse can a decent man have to let his wife suffer like that” I finish snarling my last words getting right in her face.

“He is dead” She yells back as her tears fall freely down her cheeks and I freeze right where I stand.

“You think you hate hunters because they took your friend from you?” she asks indignantly.

“they took my whole life away” she screams at me.

“What do you mean?” is all I could say… this is getting more complicated than I thought it could be.

She turns away from me and walks to the window staring outside.

“They killed him… and my unborn daughter” she says putting a hand over her flat stomach.

she turns her head to look at me with tearful eyes “along with the rest of his pack… he was a werewolf too… my first mate”.

Shock doesn’t even start to describe my feeling; her husband was a werewolf too? And her own people killed him and her baby, I can’t even start to fathom what that felt like or what she has been through.

“I guess they wanted to teach me a lesson, make an example out of me” she continues with a stoic face looking outside the window again while drying her tears with the back of her hands.

This just keeps getting worse, I have no words to say, nothing I can do or say can ease that pain, losing a mate and a child, to think I’ve been adding to it by being jealous of a dead man.

oh the disrespectful things I said about him and the things I accused her of… I feel like the biggest asshole in the world.

All I feel is anger and sadness.

Angry at myself and at the assholes that made her suffer and sad that she had to go through that.

I try to come closer to her but she stops me raising her palm up.

“I don’t need your pity, I only need one thing” I hear a buzzing sound, she pulls her phone out and clenched her jaw in frustration, it must be another message.

“You can stay here as long as you want even after the rejection, you’ll be safe here” I say as calm as I can.

She pauses for a minute “Nowhere is safe… but yes I might need to stay for few more days, thanks for the offer” she says not meeting my eyes as she grabs her bag and head out of my office.