Begging for rejection

Chapter 26 - A Goodbye Kiss

Derek POV

I find the way to Alexandria’s room and knock on the door.

There is no answer.

I knock again and still no answer.

Maybe she is not there? But her scent is very strong, which means she is inside.

I can’t really hear anything because the rooms are all soundproof... I’ll wait a minute and knock again.

If she doesn’t answer, I’ll just let myself in, she might be hurt … I have to make sure she is okay, yeah, that’s a good enough reason, right?

I knock after a minute and no answer again.

Maybe she is mad and doesn’t want to talk? or she is actually asleep. It’s pretty late now, that’s the more realistic scenario than “the she got hurt" one… but if that’s the case, it’s the more reason I have to talk to her.

I knock one more time then turn the knob to open the door and it's unlocked, then I stop. What if she is changing her clothes or in the shower or something?

“Even better”

“Shut up you pervert”

I open the door slowly and I see her sleeping on her bed, she looks so peaceful, almost angelic when she is not cursing me or beating the s**t out of someone, her mouth is slightly parted and she has few strands of her hair covering her bruised cheek.

I enter the room and close the door behind me, I walk quietly to her bed and crouch beside it, I reach my hand and remove her hair out of her beautiful face, and suddenly she grabs my fingers and twist them so hard, I swear if I wasn’t an alpha they would be broken, all the while her eyes are closed.

“Alexandria it’s me, let go” I say and she tighten her grip.

“I know it’s you, you pervert, why are you sneaking into my room at night while I’m asleep?” she says, finally opening her eyes.

“Can you let go of my hand please, I just came from the hospital and I don’t want to go there again that soon” I almost beg, she narrows her eyes at me and let go.

“So? Why are you sneaking in?” she asks, sitting on the bed with her legs crossed and resting her back against the head post , but what caught my eyes is that she is hugging a hoodie, that’s weird.

“I just wanted to explain the whole Izzy situation and talk about … you know… our kiss” I say with a glint of excitement in my voice and she blushes for a second before she frowns her eyebrows.

“That was a mistake obviously, and you don’t owe me any explanation about your situation with your girlfriend” she says coldly.

“Don’t do that, Alexandria, don’t you dare shut down again” I say as I stand up, getting irritated.

We are not going back to square one, we can’t do that, not after we kissed and felt what that’s like.

“I know inviting Izzy here was a mistake, but that was before I knew you felt something for me too. That was after we agreed on the rejection” I continue, but my eyes keep drifting to that damn hoodie, I mean she is already wearing one, it’s all she wears, why hug another?

“Listen Derek, I’m not shutting down or whatever, but the rejection already happened. I have no place here anymore. Izzy would make a good Luna, a suitable one... Yes, we kissed, and it was… it was what it was, but we can’t pursue this feeling anymore. Maybe it’s just a residue from the bond and it will go away eventually. Let’s call it a goodbye kiss” she says as calm and as serious as she can get.

I sit in-front of her on the bed , I reach my hands to cup her face and she doesn’t resist.

“A goodbye kiss? Sweet Alexandria, that was the first kiss of many to come” I say getting closer to her lips, our noses are practically touching as I continue “And I won’t have it any other way” our lips brush against each other, I can almost taste her and we are about to kiss again, but she pushes me away.

“We can’t” she says, clutching the Damn hoodie she is holding.

“Whose hoodie is this” I ask, already knowing the answer

“You already know Derek, it’s Luke’s” she says in a low voice, why is she so f*****g calm? Like she got everything figured out.

“And why are you sleeping with it when we just kissed Alexandria, I’m your mate now” I say as jealousy takes hold of me and my eyes is a shade darker.

“That’s rich coming from you” she says uncrossing her legs and standing on her knees as she continues

“ You are jealous of my late husband who is dead when your girlfriend is alive and well and was just in your arms? At least I’m hugging a garment, not the actual person… and you are not my f*****g mate, not anymore anyway” she says and gets off the bed and goes to the closet.

Every damn time I try to fix things it seems like I ruin it even more.

She emerges back from the closet without the hoodie, good.

“You are still here? Won’t your girlfriend get worried or something” she says with one hand on her hip.

“Okay this is getting f*****g old, she is not my girlfriend and to be honest inviting her was kinda your fault” I say standing up from the bed.

“Excuse me? And how is that?” she says putting her other hand on her hip as well.

“You said that there is no us, that there is no hope… you called me a f*****g kind stranger, how would I know that few days later this will happen between us?” I say raising my voice a little, that whole Izzy s**t is getting on my nerve and she is NOT MY f*****g GIRLFRIEND.

She drops her hands with a sigh and walks past me to the window and just stares outside. I don’t like this, She usually says something bad after this move.

“You are right, we shouldn’t have kissed, I shouldn’t have led you on, you are not my mate to tell you who you can and can’t invite to your own house” she turns to look at me as she continue,

“You are not mine and I’m not yours, these are just the facts” she finishes with a sad smile, and I’ve had it with this f*****g broken record.

“Listen Alexandria, or don’t because I’ll keep repeating this till you get it through this stubborn head of yours” I say while taking slow steps towards her and she actually backs away till her back hits the wall, but I don’t care, I’m not playing this game anymore.

I lean forward, trapping her between myself and the wall; I put one hand on her waist and the other one on the wall beside her head.

I look her straight in the eyes as I say softly and calmly,

“Mate bond or not, you are mine because I’m already yours and only yours” I say and I can see her lips parting a little ready for me to kiss her.

I go for her lips but at the last second, I give her a kiss on the cheek instead, then push myself off of her.

“Good night Alexandria” I say as I head for the door, but as soon as I touch the doorknob I hear her say “f**k IT”.

I turn in confusion to see what she is talking about and she comes flying towards me, I catch her and she locks her legs around my torso, I hold her hips, there is no space between us and it never should be, our lips collide in a passionate hungry kiss.

She bites my lower lip and I open my mouth for her tongue to enter, our tongues fight for dominance and I let her have it, she can do whatever she wants and take whatever she wants as long as we are together.

We kiss until we are both breathless, what a pleasant end to a long night.

We catch our breath, then I ask her “What was that?”.

She gets down on her feet and adjusts her cloth and says “That’s a goodbye kiss”.

Then she opens the door, pushes me out and slams the door in my face.

“WHAT THE f**k” I shout in frustration and I’m sure I’ve woken up half the pack house.

I hear suppressed laughter behind me and I find my two trusted assholes.

“What are you both giggling about like a couple of teenage girls?” I say as I stomp away angrily towards my room and they both follow.

We enter my room and I finally ask as Dylan shuts the door.

“Why the f**k are you both following me?” I say with a grim face.

“Why so blue Derek? Or is it blue balls maybe?” Dean says and starts laughing along with Dylan at his horrible joke.

“I can give you both blue balls if you want” I say clenching my fist and they stop immediately.

“No, thank you. we are actually here on a serious matter” Dylan says.

“What is it?” I ask losing my patience because Alexandria is driving me insane.

“Alpha Nathan called with important information” Dean is the one to answer.

“This late? It must be urgent…What is it about?” I ask.

“I already told you about the incident in the office with father, and that he spread the word that you were attacked” Dean says.

“Yes, it’s actually expected of him” I answer, swallowing the pain, that my own father is trying to kill me.

I know that he never liked me and that he resents me for taking his title.

I thought he would try to overthrow me or weaken my position and take back the pack, but to actually want me dead… it’s just not an easy thing to accept.

“well, apparently there are few of those who doesn’t like us very much, who think it’s a good opportunity to take you down once and for all, since you are in a coma like father has put it, they think the pack is weak now without its alpha and if they joined forces they can take us down, they are actually starting to form alliances and they’ve threatened Nathan if he doesn't join them he will be next” Dean concludes.

“Is that so… bunch of cowards and I bet it’s father’s idea as well” I growl as I feel Rex crawling beneath my skin wanting to come out and rip the head of anyone who dares to challenge us, this night doesn't seem to f*****g end.

I take a deep breath trying to calm myself down and come up with a plan, and then I figured it out.

“Get every single name of that alliance. alphas, betas and gammas ” I order Dylan.

“Consider it done” Dylan says.

“So what’s the attack plan?” Dean asks.

“We are going to invite them to the ball” I say, smirking.

Dean and Dylan look at each other surprised at first, then they catch on smirking as well.

It’s on … father.