Rejected and Abused

Chapter 18

Nikki's POV

My body feels so stiff and heavy the fact i have 2 five year old boys clinging to my body for dear life doesn't help the situation "boys i know i scared you and i can only imagine how hard these past few days have been for you but can you please let me up for some air plus i really need to go use the restroom" i say to the boys giving them a final hug Kevin lets go of my waist and crawls closer to my face and places his tiny hands on either side of my face tears are still flowing down his cheeks his eyes blood shot red "sissy please never ever leave us again even though your body was still here you left us and we were here alone if you would have not woken up me and Marcus would not have no person to love us and take care of us and cook for us our favorite food we can't live without you we don't want no one else just you" Kevin says to me as Marcus still has a tight grip on my waist his face buried in my side shaking his head agreeing with everything his brother said i look towards Mary and Kaden who are standing quietly by the door both leaning on the wall they are silent just hugging each other looking at me with goofy smiles my bladder is going to explode soon if i don't get to the bathroom and quick so i look at Angel the guard who was apparently assigned to watch over my brothers and myself hoping he would be willing to help me but he is looking out of the hospital window not paying any attention to what is going on in the room 'come on darlin' tell the boys what they need to hear if we keep holding it we are going to end up with a bladder infection or something i am not saying i didn't miss them but i really have to pee' Ava says in her signature grouchy voice i roll my eyes at her comment i can't rush this with the boys and i can't just tell them what they want to hear cause tomorrow is never promised how do i tell that to a couple of five year old boys the moon goddess didn't tell us how to deal with this situation in her little speech about our amazing future "boys please let me get up so i can use the restroom once i am done doing what i have to do i promise we will sit down and we will talk but if you guys don't get off of me in 2 seconds i am going to pee on myself and you because your squeezing me so tight!" as soon as i mentioned pee both Marcus and Kevin jumped off of my bed and ran to Kaden and Mary who were laughing their heads off Mary shakes her head and makes her way over to my side as i stretch my aching body feeling several bones pop and snap i guess that is what happens when your in a comma for 5 days i try to stand on my own too quickly my legs give out on me but before my butt hits the floor Mary is right there to catch me she quickly grabs my arm and helps me get my footing "alright wonder woman lets take it one step at a time you only woke up 2 hours ago" Mary says to me while she puts my arm over her shoulder and helps me to the bathroom once i am able to walk on my own i slowly pull away from her "hey luv bug would you mind getting me some clothes i am smelling a little ripe and would love to take a shower" i whisper to her we both know i don't smell bad i am pretty sure i've been getting sponge baths daily but all i really want is to sit in the shower let the hot water run over my body and have a good cry with everything that happened my emotions need a good purging the sooner i do this the sooner i can get back to my old self and accept Jason's rejection and move on with my life i know the moon goddess said i would soon meet my 2nd chance but in all honestly i am not ready for that all i want to do is focus on myself and the twins i have not yet decided if i will leave red moon with the boys but i do need to get stronger that part is not up for debate once Mary leaves i do my business and wash my hands my bladder no longer hurts and i can kind of think clearly while i am drying my hands Mary walks in without knocking "i herd you washing your hands so i knew you were done here are some clothes, your shampoo, body wash, a wash rag and your towel take all the time you need but once you get out you and i need to have a talk some serious s**t has gone down and you need to be prepared for when you walk out if this room i convinced Kevin and Marcus to go with Kaden and Angel to the diner for burgers, fries, and ice cream sundaes i also instructed the guys to take their sweet time eating and to make a pit stop at the arcade before returning the boys needed to get out of this room and as your new alpha but most of all your best friend i have a duty to let you know what has been going on i know its only been 5 days but i think you of all people know 5 days can be a life time when it comes to this packs drama" Mary says while placing my things onto the bathroom she seems calmer and stronger than she was 5 days ago and way more mature as well i nod my head and walk past her the boys are putting on their sweaters and shoes while Kaden and Angel are standing there like bodyguards i know they boys will be more than safe with them once the boys see me they run over to me hugging me they tell me they will back later and not to go anywhere while they are gone we say our good byes and the 4 of them leave once the door closes behind them i go and lock the door sitting on my bed looking at Mary patting the seat next to me "i thought you wanted to shower this can wait till your done Nik its no rush at all" she says to me while looking at me i keep my eyes locked on hers "Mary i plan to have a 'emotional purge' in that shower what is the point in doing that if once i get out your just going to tell me more bad news might as well get everything out right here right now so i can purge that s**t too" with that said she nods her head and sits beside me she takes a deep breath and grabs my hand giving it and gentle squeeze i watch as my best friend's eyes water i can see the pain she feels the guilt that is eating at her soul i don't know what has been happening but i am going to make it my mission to make things right i mean come on if i can't make her smile again do i even have the right to call myself her best friend..........