daylight darkens

I hate to say this but I hope it happens And that you can still claim that it’s all a choice As you go your first day just waiting to hear their voice And you hold your breath as you pick up the phone And then have to respond that no he still isn’t home And right then you break a little inside Because all you care about is that he’s alive It doesn’t matter that he stole your car or your daughters Christmas You’d forgive anything just to never have to feel like part of you is missing Youd do anything to never have to feel whatever the Hell this is As you hold on to hope that the next call will be him saying mommy I’m alright But you’re also praying that if he’s going let Him go in his sleep tonight Because your not sure either of you has any more will to fight You’re only way of waking him is the promise of the mornings light But then the problem comes when the sunlight isn’t home And you wish more than anything that he doesn’t die alone you want to be there but you don’t want to see it When they tell you that he’s gone You still slap his lifeless body because you just don’t believe it He is just sleeping but looks stuffed inside his clothes His lips are tinted blue and the colors reached his nose Laying there just like you left him before he died of an intentional overdose It wasn’t an accident or a crime He hated his life When he died it was suicide because you weren't reason enough to stay alive and you left him Now you have the things that have haunted you in your dreams They harvest his organs and you can't drown out your own screams That escaped from your lungs the moment that he let go He isn't gonna pick up the phone He's never coming home it's all because of you Your son just overdosed