The Alpha's Daughter (Book 1)

Chapter Three

"No." I stormed away from Oliver trying to fight the tears threatening to spill.

"B I'm sorry, just talk to me." I could hear the pain in his voice.

"No, it's not your fault it's fine. Just go. Leave me alone." I shut my bedroom door before he had time to respond as the scene played over again in my head.

"Hayley." I let her name leave my lips just as Olly snuck up behind me and put a kiss on my cheek. 

I turned around to face him only to see his eyes land on her. I saw it in his eyes. The same look Noah had when he realized Blair was his mate. The same look Amelia had when she saw Sebastian for the first time. Mate. 

My heart broke as I watched him watch her and his arms slowly dropped from around me. I looked back to see that she hadn't noticed him yet but it didn't matter. He found her and she's not me.

As soon as I was alone I let the hot streams pour from my eyes. I felt broken. We both knew it was going to happen one day but that didn't make the pain hurt less. It felt like a white hot branding iron in my throat replaying it over and over again.

Of course she had to be one of them, a normal wolf who didn't understand what it meant to be a healer. She didn't understand all of the trials we've had to endure and I couldn't even hate her for that because it's not her fault either. It's nobody's fault but the gods for doing this to me. 

I let the tears fall as i layed on my bed wishing it would all go away, letting sleep envelop me like a mask from the rest of the world.

I woke up to the sun shining through my window and for a second I was happy and okay but then last night's events popped in my mind and I felt my heart twinge. I won't let myself cry again. I am Blakely Rose Lupin, daughter of an alpha and stronger than any one in my way. I will not cry.

I picked myself up and walked to the bathroom to see my tear stained face. I washed the dried salt water off of my face before getting dressed and walking downstairs as if nothing happened.

"Blake." I heard his voice coming from the couch as I saw him sit up in the same clothes he wore yesterday. 

"Oliver." I responded stoically, heading into the kitchen to make breakfast.

"We need to talk about this." He followed me in there rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

"Eggs?" 

"B, talk to me." His voice came out in a pleading exhaustion.

"I'll take that as a no, what about bacon? I'll go ahead and make extra." I continued to ignore him.

"Dammit Blakely will you just talk to me?" He raises his voice to a volume that the whole house could hear.

"What Oliver? What do you want to talk about? You found her, that's it. Story over!" I turned around as I challenged his volume.

"That's not it! We need to talk about this."

"Okay. Do you want to be with her?" I kept the anger on my face but he could hear the pain in my voice. No wolf would choose to not be with their mate even if they haven't officially met them yet.

It's the connection, this tie to somebody that you can't break and you can't ignore and if you reject your mate you will feel the pain of it for the rest of your life. It's immediate love whether you've known the person your whole life or you've just met them. You either choose to be with your mate or you choose a life of agony.

"B." His voice was small and weak.

"Yes or no Oliver."

"Yes."

"Then there is nothing to talk about." I turned my back to him so he wouldn't see the tears that escaped. 

Without another word i walked out if the house and straight into the woods before shifting. The truth is, I wasn't angry or mad that he found his mate. I was hurt and jealous. I was hurt that the boy i love loves somebody else now and jealous that he got to feel that unconditional love with someone who wasnt me. I felt alone.

Before i knew it i had run straight to a waterfall, one i had never seen before but it was beautiful. For just a second I forgot why I was running.  

For just a second I was calm. 

Then, just like this morning, it ended. My moment of okay ended. I shifted back, fully naked, but I always had my backpack of extra clothes with me so I quickly got dressed and sat at the edge of the water with my feet dangling in listening to the rushing sound of the waterfall. I started to close my eyes and let the noise engulf me but I heard leaves crunching which broke my peace.

"Hello?" I called out. There was no response for a second.

"Blakely?" I watched Dylan wonder through the bushes to the beautiful sight. "What's wrong?"

I looked at him with a confused gaze before realizing I had been crying again. "Nothing. Please leave." I held a cold expression and tone aa i turned my head back to the water.

"Whatever, i'm not here to bother you. This is my swimming spot so i'll leave you alone but i'm not leaving." I could hear the frustration rising in his tone before I heard a splash of water to the right of me.

Luckily it was far enough away that I didn't get wet but it was still annoying. I rolled my eyes while getting up but before i could leave i heard him speak again.

"Look. I know I'm not your favorite person,``I scoffed, making him pause but he brushed it off and continued. "But sometimes it's nice to talk to someone when something is wrong especially to someone who knows nothing about you and isn't biased."

I thought about it for a second, I guess it couldn't hurt.

I retook my place with my feet in the water before taking a deep breath and began to speak.

"You saw the guy who came up behind me yesterday and kissed me cheek?" He nodded. "That is my boyfriend. I guess, was my boyfriend. He isn't my mate." He watched me speak, while he stayed in the water expressionless. "And he found her, his mate. She's a girl in your pack. Hayley. And he wants to be with her, of course why wouldn't he? But we've been together for over 2 years and i know that someone is meant for me but it doesn't make it hurt any less." 

He took in every word i was saying and while contemplating what to say i jumped in the water. I was only wearing shorts and a tank top so i didn't mind getting my clothes wet. The splash the emitted from my actions got water in Dylan's face but when I resurfaced he had already wiped it off. The water felt good on my skin, it's like it washed away my pain if only for a second.

"I'm sorry." Were the only words that left his mouth.

"That's why i didn't want to say anything." I spoke angrily. "I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. I refuse to be pitied."

"God you're dense." He looked exasperated.

"Excuse you?"

"Blake, I don't pity you. Nobody pities you, you are too strong for that and everyone knows it. But that doesn't change the fact that you don't deserve to hurt. You don't deserve to feel this pain because I've felt it before and I know it sucks. I am sorry you are going through this and i am sorry you haven't found the one for you yet but i don't pity you. I just can't for the life of me understand why you are so angry and tense all the time. You need to loosen up." He rubbed his face after speaking and I didnt know how to respond.

Within seconds I felt wetness on my face but this time i wasn't crying, Dylan had splashed me with water and my initial reaction was to get mad but something triggered in me and i just started laughing while i splashed him back starting a full on water war.

We stayed that way, throwing water at each other for a long time until we both realized the sun was setting.

"I really should be getting home." I spoke, pulling myself up out of the water.

He followed suit before saying, "It's nice to see you let loose, red."

It took me a second to compute why he was calling me red but I then remembered my auburn hair. Instead of shifting i decided to walk home so i could take my time while i watched Dylan transform into a gorgeous grey wolf.

It took me about an hour but the walk was stunning. You can't really take in and enjoy your surroundings when you're going 5 miles a minute. I stopped for a few minutes in a beautiful flower patch but I couldn't stay long since it was getting late.

"Hey, i haven't seen you all day." Noah spoke in a despondent tone of voice.

He knew.

"Yeah, I went for a run and found a waterfall so i spent the day swimming." I sat on the couch next to where my brother was sitting.

"Blair told me she heard you and Olly screaming this morning. What happened?" 

"He found his mate." The look on his face when i said those words told me he already knew he just needed confirmation.

"I'm so sorry, B. Do you want to talk about it? Is there anything i can do for you?" That's Noah. He always wanted to fix things and make it better, he had a bigger heart than anyone i had ever met. I used to have that.

"No, im okay." He gave me a knowing look. "I really am, i promise." And I wasn't lying. After the day i had i really did feel okay. I don't know how but even though we barely spoke today Dylan made me feel better. 

"If you say so i'll leave it but im always here, you know that."

Just then Ivory came in with Leo.

"Hey lovebirds." I said blowing kissy faces toward them

"Blake!  Ivorys face turned bright red. She was so easy to embarrass.

"Sit." Noah gave Leo a look and spoke with a deep voice. Learning to be alpha had its perks and one of them was the alpha voice so leo compiled without argument as ivory followed.

"So Leonardo." Noah started but stopped when Leo interjected.

"Um that's not my name, it's just Leo." He spoke meekly.

"Leonardo. What are your intentions with my sister?" He kept his alpha voice going and it was hard to stifle my laughter at both Leo and Ivorys mortified faces.

"Um i don't know." This boy was terrified.

"I have rules Leonardo. 1. There will be no premarital hugging. 2. The door stays open and if you close it I will know. Even if I am 100 miles away, I will know. 3. If you ever ever raise your voice to my sister, you will die." Leo let out a nervous laugh before looking even more scared when he started thinking Noah was being serious. "Now disappear."

"God why are you so weird?" Ivory yelled, pulling her new boyfriend in tow. As soon as they were out of ear shot we both died laughing.

"Oh my god did you see his face?" I wheezed before mimicking in the deepest voice I could muster up, "You will die."

"That's not my name, it's just Leo." He pretended to be scared.

"You kept calling him leonardo!" We were laughing so hard we both ended up on the floor. 

Our laughter died down as our mother walked into the living room, sitting on the couch next to us.

"Kids." She spoke.

"Mom." We both mimicked her tone.

"As you know your 21st birthday is next week. We want to invite the shadow pack out and have a barbeque for your birthday. How does that sound?" 

All I could think of was Hayley and Oliver at my birthday party together. I'm sure he'd have the respect to not bring her as a date to my birthday but they would both still be there and inevitably they would talk. I knew i couldn't hide from them forever but i was hoping i had more than a week.

I was so deep in thought I completely tuned out the entire conversation my mother and Noah were having.

"How does that sound Blake?" My mother quizzed.

"Im sorry, what?"

"We'll have the party at the beach with both of our packs." She repeated what her and my brother were talking about. 

"Okay sounds good." I was still anxious but I was sure there would be so many people with both of our packs there that I wouldn't even notice them.

"Good." Our mother said, getting up and leaving the room but not before yelling, "and stop harassing your sister's boyfriend."

"He's not my boyfriend!" We both fell over laughing at Ivorys declaration.

"He's definitely her boyfriend."