A Lie So Beautiful

15. Gray

Jace point of view.

When I decide to finally leave the washroom and come back, I saw Mia near the food stall and she was busy in eating cakes. And looking at her wandering eyes looking at all the different flavours of cakes, Iam sure she is thinking of having a second slice.

She have a satisfied smile every time she takes a new bite, the happiness eating can give her, nothing else can give. She loves eating very much.

She was too involve in eating she didn't even notice me. So I tap at her shoulder and put on a fake smile on my face.

Jace:(smile): Hey!

What kind of a depressing hey is this? I should have hide it better but then again she caught me every time something is wrong , even when I put on the biggest smile ever. So what's the point in even trying?

Mia: What the? Did you meet a ghost in the washroom?

Ghost? Iam sure I didn't meet one, did I?

Jace(confuse) : No! Why?

Mia: You were fine when you leave just now but now, its seems like you meet depression on the way or something.(worried) Is something wrong?

I told you, she will catch me. Tch, now Iam even making her worried, how worthless. The least I could do is not make her worry but even that I couldn't do right.

Jace: You really are observant.

Mia: Only with you. So, what's the matter?

What she said is actually true, she can read me like an open book and with Chris and Justin she knows too much about them that they could hardly hide anything. But with others, she is the type who can never answer whether you wear glasses or not. She never observe or is hardly interested to observe anything most of the time.

But I can't share anyway, so all I can do is just divert the topic I guess.

Jace: Can we go and get some air outside for a bit.

Mia(smile): Of course.

While we were going out she put on a cute pout and look back at the cake once again.

Jace: You were planning to eat one more slice werent you?

When I say that she desperately nod her head multiple times.

Mia: How do you know?

Jace: Everyone will know, looking at your face. Let's eat one more than.

Mia: Nahh, I love the cake but I have to get my priority straight. If I left you alone in such a bad mood for a cake, what kind of girlfriend will I be.

With that said she shudder to herself and make a frown and quickly speed walk away.

Jace: Wait! Mia.

By then she was long gone so I had to run behind her. And I got to her near the exist to the backdoor.

Jace: Why the hurry?

Mia: The cake was too tempting for my comfort, I was not confident in myself.

That make me chuckle in amusement,

And like that we go out at the back garden which was beautiful. It was a stunning sight of many many flowers but only in yellow color. Some small decorative tress were there and a little foot path and nothing else but flowers. It was not very huge but it was not small either. And In those small trees, there were swings attached. Both of us settle down in one of the swing. It was two seater so lucky for us I guess.

As we seat down, I brought out the creamy cupcakes I had grab before.

Jace: Here.

Her face light up looking at the cake.

Mia: Aww you are best, how do you know I was going to get this flavour next.

Jace: Magic.

And she look at me with the look that say ' I don't believe you but I won't argue since I got the food' which make me chuckle to myself. Actually I knew she was aiming for that cause I saw her looking at it before.

Mia(moaning): Mmmmm, this is so good. Want a bite?

And she forward the little fork she is using to eat the cake. Like I would ever be able to eat that tiny cake she is treating as a treasure away from her.

Jace: Nah! You eat, looking is enough for me.

Mia: More for me then.

And she did a little shrug and focus into eating again. After which a small silent moment follow.

Mia: You are not gonna share again are you?

And here I thought she have forgotten about it. What was I expecting anyway, its Mia; she would never ever forget anything if that concern my happiness or sadness, making me more sad.

Jace: Sorry, I have been keeping a lot of things from you lately.

When I said that she look at me and give me a reassuring smile and there I know, that she would put me first again.

Mia: That's okay, I don't mind. But Jace most of the time sharing makes a lot of things easier. So, if something happen that you can't handle it anymore, then you can't hesitate to come to me okay. If you hesitate even then, then I would really be hurt okay?

I was speechless for a while. How can she alway be so understanding all the time. When I thought she would be angry, she always prove me wrong. Her care is so warm that I don't wanna step away from it even for a second.

Jace: Okay! I promise.

And then she gave me a bright smile again as if saying everything will be all right.

The surity she have on her smile make me wanna believe her ever more.

Jace: Thank you.

Mia: Hmm?

Jace: For always being so understanding. And always reminding me that you are always by my side.

I was really hoping it won't be this way but I selfishly want to have this as well.

Mia: Well, Didn't you say that you were the lucky one to have me before. I can't just get the title for nothing can I?

And she made one of her 'Iam proud of myself look'. But after a while her smiling expression disappear suddenly alarming me. But she suddenly open her arms making me confuse.

Mia: Want a hug?

I just nod my head.

As soon as she hug me, for a minute I thought everything was over and all is fine. Her warmth and security covers me up like a warm blanket. I didn't realise how much I needed this hug before she offer. And I can't be more thankfull she did.

I keep on hugging her in the middle of the garden for a long time. Hoping to bury my hopelessness, even if its just for a short while. It was as if I was greedily taking away her warmth, as if I have not done enough.

Mia: Should I tell you a story?

Jace: Uhmm.

Just for a few more minute, I wanna hug her. As she narrate her little decoy of a story she continue to pat my back still hugging me tightly.

Mia: When I was younger and would get upset about something dad used to narrate stories to me from time to time. And once not long after my parents passed I become very very silent about everything. But even when I think of it now, I don't really know why? Caused by then I don't really remember anything about them, so I don't really know what I was sad about. Maybe its the confusion of knowing nothing or maybe in my heart I really miss them. Or maybe it was the fear of getting close to someone and being left alone again with nothing. But nonetheless I was just sad everyday and was getting too quite for anyone's comfort.

As she said that I pull back a little from her and look at her a bit concern, but she just gave me a small smile indicating that she okay.

Mia: At that time Dad come and without saying anything else, he narrate that the reason why the sun shines so brightly is because she tried her best in doing what she do and even succeed, thus she shines brightly everyday but sadly no one could look up to her and said ahh how beautiful you are when she shines at its brightest and thus make her feel so lonely and could not enjoy her happiness to its fullest.

When she said that I curiously look at her not having any clue where she is going with this. Seeing that I was listening though, she continued.

Mia: But on the other hand the moon can't seems to shine on its own and is very weak but when the moon come out and people see it, we wow at her beauty every time. And dad says its because even though the moon is not as capable as the sun, she chose to depend on the stars and even the sun for its own good. She chose to share its beauty to them and take theirs as well making the night sky a wonder nothing else can ever create.

Oh! This is where she was going.

Mia: Say what do you think I learn from that story?

Jace: That if you share with your dad, you might be less stronger but you would shine more in happiness. And that is more admirable.

She look at me with a satisfied grin, meaning I got it right.

Mia: Nice. Now say, what do you think I want you to learn from here.

I knew this was coming. She must have been really ,curious as to what Iam not sharing with her.

Jace: Sharing it with you will probably make you happier..

This time she look at me with a much bigger grin, but then confusion. Looking at her makes me feel more sorry cause only I knew how hard it is for me to dissapoint her.

Mia: Yes! No, its gonna make you feel happier and more handsome if we go by dad's word, not me.

Jace: Iam still gonna be sorry then.

Mia: Well I tried.

And she shrug it off again, as if it does not affect her at all. Cause I know better, if she was not seriously affected she would never ever pry even a little.

Jace: As a compensation, should I tell you a story as well?

Mia: You are gonna prove sharing is not the best aren't you?

That makes me laugh, the childish thoughts she think about is beyond me.

Jace: Hey! Come on, Iam not that petty.

Mia: Doubtful, but if that's not it, please go on.

Jace: Well, there once was a boy who was very lucky and was surrounded by many people that loves him and that he loves, very much. But, as lucky as he was, he was made to make a decision to prioritise someone among all the person he love as his most beloved and his heart did chose someone.

Mia: Well isn't that suppose to be a good or a normal thing. We can't love everyone equally right?

I just smile at her cause I just narrate the normal part as I would never be able to told her the abnormal part.

Jace: Maybe, but with him things were different.

Mia(curious) : How?

Jace: He had to choose between two people and decide whom to love. Cause no matter how much he thinks about it, the two people he love most and him cannot be all together. He had to choose one so that at least one of them could be happy.

Mia: So did he choose or?

Jace: He did decided to choose the one he love the most but no matter how much he contemplate, that choice don't seem to be the correct one to him but he don't even have it in him to turn back his decision. On one side is the person he can give his life without a second thought, but on the other side is the person who will give up her life for him without any question if she have to. Whom will you choose if you were him?

Mia: Its obvious, I'll chose the person I love with no question ask.

Of course, its Mia. I should be proud to be the person she love. Its truely an honour.

Jace: Even though the person who you will left is probably the person who loves you the most in the world?

Mia: Umm. No matter how much that person loves me if I dont love him, to give up my love for him will be too much a waste wont it? Or if its you will you not do the same?

The irony, I should have never ask this question. How pathetic of me.

Jace: I would. But I can't help but feel so bad for the other person. She would probably cry a lot, and be sad about it for a very long time, how sad.

And it would probably kill me to see that someone, like that. I really wish I that time will never ever come.

Mia: That is true, but I would choose my love's happiness over anyone else. Maybe they love me the most or maybe not, but I know for a fact that no one can compare in anything concerning the person I love. So, I think I'll choose the guilt and safeguard the happiness of the one I love.

And yet, the person she loves is me.

Jace: Hmmm. I guess that make sense too.

As I was looking at her, I was hoping that the pain I felt won't be seen in my eyes. Cause that will just worry her more. At that time Justin suddenly came.

Justin: What are you guys doing here.

When Justin come and says that Mia jump up in shock and fell down from the swing hitting her wrist in the side of the swing.

Mia: Ouch!!

Jace : You okay? Where does it hurt?

And I quickly take her hand in mine and also looking for other injuries.

Mia: My hand.

And as I inspect her hand which hit the swing, I can see it swelling up quickly. So I look up at Justin, who is standing still like a statue probably in shock.

Jace: Hello Mr. Doctor.

That quickly put him out of his second hand shock.

Justin: Oh oh! Let me see.

And I just glare at him, why does he have to come up to us like that. That sly bastard.

Justin: Please, stop staring at me like that Jace. Making me nervous won't help her at all.

He don't even look back at me to see that Iam staring, I guess he can feel my stare by now. Experience do speak.

Jace: You though really.

Justin : It seems to be a sprain in the wrist, let's go to the hospital just to be sure though.

Justin: And Seriously Jace, stop staring with that scary glare.

Well if I don't scare him now, when will I?

But with that we walk out with Mia ouching all the way. It must have hurt, it has become all red and swollen by now.

And yes Mia is also glaring at Justin.

And like that we reach the hospital. While in there, Justin says he is confident enough in dressing her up, so we drop the idea of going to an orthopaedist. While dressing her up it must have pain her more because her glare got more intense, making me to glare more intensely as well.

Mia(angry pout): This is all because of you.

Justin: Okay! Iam sorry, now will you stop saying that. Jace is killing me with his gaze over here. Its scary.

And he look at Mia with a supposed pout which make Mia to look at me which in turn make me smile sweetly to Mia.

Mia: You even dare to lie and blame my innocent Jace.

Justin: Innocent and him?

That question make Mia glare at him more, seriously of all the question he could have ask,he comes up with that one. This dude has serious problem I tell you.

Jace: Is it done?

When I said that he clip something to the bandaid to made it stay put, he have created a perfect looking bandage cast. Its effect though, I have my doubts.

Justin: Now, its done.

Jace: Okay then, let's go home. Come on Mia.

With that we drive home where Mia fall asleep halfway, the painkiller she took must have made her sleepy. Any medicine made her sleepy anyway, she explain it to me once why it was like that when she took some medicine but I never understand or remember all the term she used anyway.

Justin: Poor Mia Pia, must have been tired.

Jace: And whose fault is that?

Justin: Damn it, why did I even start speaking?

After we reach home, I put her on bed and decides to sleep here today along with Justin cause its preety late and I don't wanna wake up Chris to warn him of Mia's arm, in case she wakes up in pain.

I have a room here actually cause I sleep here preety often but today I decide it was best to sleep in the couch kept on her room. In case she woke up uncomfortable or in pain.

After I put her to bed, I got to my room and change and was about to go to Mia's room when I meet Justin in the hallway.

Jace: I really didn't want to ask but why?

Justin: What do you mean?

Jace: Mia and her medical records.

Justin(smiling): Huh! You finally reach me. Then all you need to know is you have your reason and I have mine.

Those reasons will end up as a reason that destroys her and I really really fear that but I can't seem to take a step back. How selfish.

Jace: I guess good things really do attract bad things huh?

Justin(angry) : You are in no position to judge.

Jace(calm yet angered) : Iam not judging you, Iam judging us. Us the pathetic losers. Goodnight mate.

With that I go to Mia's room but

I guess it will be another one of those restless night.