Hate And Desire

Chapter 5- Perfume

Naghahanda na si Georgie ng brunch  nang lumabas siya sa silid niya. Smelt good! She's hungry already. Georgie is really such a great cook. Jordy told her that it was one of the reason why he's inlove with her sister. Bigla siyang natigilan sa paghakbang nang maalala si Jordan. Gosh! pa'no na niya haharapin ang lalake?

"Good morning pretty..." Nakangiting bati ni Georgie habang inaayos ang mesa. Jordan is not in the kitchen so she relax herself.

"Morning ate! What's for breakfast-lunch?" She would choose to call her ate or Georgie depending on her current mode and right now she felt guilty that why she called her "ate"

"Your favorite and Jordy's favorite, will you help me prepare our food, pretty?" She asked sweetly.

"Sure! Wow ang sarap ng amoy ng adobo ate, pwede na bang ihain to?" Tanong niya habang inaamoy-amoy ang adobo na nakasalang pa sa stove.

"Yeah, patayin mo na iyong apoy at ilipat mo na yan sa bowl." Georgie is now putting plates and utensils on the kitchen table. Another dish is Jordan's favorite na sinigang na ulo ng salmon at half cooked steamed veggies.

"I'm so hungry na ate, can't wait to eat!" Aniya at pinatay na ang stove.

"Jordy is hungry too, will you call him please?" Utos nito.

"Huh?" Muntikan na niyang mabitiwan ang bowl na kasalukuyan niyang nilalagyan ng adobo. Pero alangan naman tumanggi siya sa utos nito? E di wow! Baka magtaka pa si Georgie! 

Tinapos niya na lang ang ginagawa niya at tinungo ang silid ni Jordan. 

Huminga muna siya ng malalim bago kinatok ang pintuan sa silid ni Jordan.

"Jordy, the food is ready." She called outside the door. 

No answer.

Binuksan na lang niya ang pinto at napasinghap pa siya nang makita ito sa harap niya. Akala niya kasi nasa higaan pa ito. "T-The food is ready..." Ulit lang niya.

"Hello sweetheart, did you like what you see last night?" The question was sarcastic. 

"I-I didn't know you're allowed to make mature scenes in here." Sabi niya na kunway naiinis para maitago ang pagkapahiya.

"But you enjoyed watching the show sweetheart." His threatening tone continuous.

She rolled her eyes. "C'mon! Georgie is waiting." Tumalikod na siya bago pa mamula sa harapan nito.

"Now she turns her back because she's feeling guilty." He mocked. "Don't do it again Sherry, I meant it." He said seriously

Gosh! He called her by her nickname! Tanging ang mommy niya at si Jordan lang ang tumatawag sa kanya sa ganoong pangalan. And when Jordan called her by her nickname, it means he's really serious. Because his tone switched to different sound, it became authoritative. Now she's truly in trouble!

Jordan nodded approvingly at Georgie's cooking habang kumakain na sila sa kitchen, then he winked at her with such fondness in his eyes. Celestine tried to focused on her meal. Gutom siya at hindi niya dapat pinapansin ang nagging pain na nararamdaman sa ngayon dahil sa sweetness ni Jordan sa kapatid niya.  

"This taste so good honey, I'm going fat once were married."

"We'll, you should always work out honey, panigurado kasi na laging masarap ang ihahain ko sa'yo but you need to maintain your hot figure..."

"Opps! watch your words honey, we have a minor here..." Parinig nito. 

Georgie just laugh. "She's sixteen, I'm sure my little sis is not that innocent, considering the young generation today."

Sinulyapan siya ni Jordan. "Oh yeah, teenagers nowadays are not innocent in everything, which is truly threatening. Imagine that, some even enjoy watching mature scenes, live mature scenes to be exact."

"We have to accept it honey, the modern technology is really affecting the younger generation today. You see, they can browse anything in the web..."

Georgina commented. Not even aware na kanina pa siya pinariringgan ng nobyo nito. 

Hindi niya natiis na sumabad sa usapan.

"Well, teenagers today is a lot more competitive because we are aggressive when it comes to modern technology, we are more advanced, more aware and certainly not naive." Kung makaparinig ito akala mo sinadya niya talaga manuod sa ginawa nito kay Georgie. At hindi nga ba? Urgh!

"Really sweetheart? Does the advance technology gives you the freedom to watch what you're not supposed to watch?"

Oh my gosh! She hates him a lot at the moment.

"What do you mean Jordy? Did you caught her watching porn?"

Oh no Jordy! Please don't tell Geogie, it will eat me alive!

"I just caught her watching us last night honey." He turned serious. "You should talk to your sister, so she would know where are her boundaries."

Iniatras niya ang pinggan, totally losing her appetite. Jordan is making it a very big deal at hiyang hiya na siya. Gusto na niyang lamunin siya ng lupa! This is so awkward with her sister. She noticed Georgie blushed too!

"How dare you talk to me about boundaries Jordan? Eh ikaw nga itong mahilig makialam sa buhay ko when we are not even related by blood! You just happened to be Georgie's boyfriend!"

"Celestine! I can't believe you talk to Jordan like that!" Nagtaas ng tono si Georgie . "Throughout your childhood, Jordy have been like a brother to you! Just simply apologize will you?!"

Jordan put his hand above Georgie's hand to calm her.

"It's alright honey, she is right, we' re not related by blood and I have no right na pakialaman siya sa mga ginagawa niya." Jordan looked at her again. "From now on, hindi na kita pakikialaman, I'll stop acting like an overprotective brother to you. You can do what you want. It's up to your parents and Georgie to handle you."

Oh no! She could sense the pain in his eyes. Just like the pain she saw when Martina was gone. Pero ayaw na niyang ituring siya nitong kapatid. It's killing her. It's hurting her. Now she understands why, because she's falling for him, no matter how she tried to deny it, she's falling for Jordan...and this feeling is not right at all! Because Jordan is now her sister's fiancee, how could she betray her own sister?

"I'm sorry..."

Tumayo siya at nagpunta sa sariling silid. Tinungo ang kama at nahiga doon. She hugged the big pillow and let her tears go. Accepting the truth about his feelings for Jordan only worsens her pain because the truth remains the same...he could never be hers. Why must she fall inlove with him? Heaven knows she tried to ignore this feeling, but it's getting harder everyday. Hindi naman niya maipaliwanag dito kung bakit kailangan niyang dumistansya nitong mga nakaraang araw, that's why she tried to hate him sa pakikialam nito sa buhay niya, but why it didn't help her? Nakatulugan na lang niya ang pag-iyak dahil na rin sa puyat niya kagabi.

Madilim na nang magising siya at tahimik lang ang paligid. Siguro ay lumabas ang dalawa. Mabigat parin ang damdamin niya sa naalalang pagtatalo nila ni Jordan. Rohan texted and invited her to swim. She got ready to fix herself, nagsuot siya ng long and black tube dress,  naghilamos at nagtoothbrush, naglagay din siya ng pabango na bigay ni Georgie. Naalala niyang nasa silid ni Georgie nakalagay ang kanyang bag at nanduon ang iba pa niyang swimsuit. Connecting door lang naman ang mga silid nila kaya pumasok na siya sa silid nito. Madilim at tahimik ang silid at di niya malaman kung nasaan ang switch. Alam niya naman kung saan nakalagay ang bag, nasa tabi ito ng tokador. Lumuhod siya para kapain ang bag, binuksan niya ang zipper at inilabas doon ang swimsuit. Natigilan siya nang may maaninag na tao sa loob. She immediately stood up at nabitiwan ang hawak na swimsuit. She started to walk backward nervously. Of course, it was Jordan dahil bulto ng lalakeng katawan ang naaninag niya sa madilim na silid. Panic suddenly strike her! What was he doing inside Georgie's room? Silly! They were love birds right?!

"You're back so soon honey? May nakalimutan ka ba?" He asked huskily habang papalapit sa kanya, mistaken her for Georgie. Huminto ito sa mismong harap niya at  suminghot  nang may maamoy nito ang kaniyang pabango.

"Hmm...It's been a long time you didn't wear that perfume honey...you knew it turns me on..." He said sensually. Gosh! Paboritong pabango nito ang hiningi niya kay Georgie before?

"Jordy I'm not---"

"Shhh..."

Jordan lowered his head and kissed her on the lips! At dahil shock siya, hindi siya makagalaw. How could she ever react to the warm, hot and expert lips that's kissing her so passionately? Dumadagundong sa kaba ang puso niya.

She instantly encircled her arms around his nape for support when he pushed her towards the wall. Tumama ang likod niya sa pader while Jordan kissed her even deeper and wilder.

"Open your mouth..." He commanded. She opened her mouth and allowed his tongue to invade her.

"No..." 

Jordan raised her chin. "Don't go out just yet...let's make love..." He grounded his hips against her and she gasped upon feeling his very huge arousal. "Feel that hmm?"

She felt his huge hardness, pressing against her painfully even with their clothes on. He was pressing his maleness and she could almost feel him inside her dahil manipis lang ang suot niyang damit at naka-boxer shorts lang din ito. Gosh! she never thought this would really happen...that he would kiss her and she would feel him like this!

She kiss him back passionately.Napaungol ito. He begun touching her breast. "Let's make love..."Ulit nitong sabi na ngayo'y bumubulong sa teynga niya.

Oh no! This has to stop bago pa sila mahuli ni Georgie.

"Jordy wait--" She's hoping na nagaya niya ang boses ng kapatid. "I need to go out..." Mabilis siyang kumawala dito at halos takbuhin niya ang pintuan palabas. Hindi niya ginamit ang connecting door sa takot na malaman ni Jordan na siya ang hinahalikan nito at hindi si Georgina. Tumakbo din siya palabas ng cottage. She just had her first kiss! With Jordan!

Jordan switched the light on. Malapit ng mapundi ang ilaw sa silid ni Georgie. Naamoy niya parin sa ere ang naiwang pabango nito. Damn! His arousal was unbelievable! But he felt that something was wrong. The moment he kissed her, something was different the way she responded to his kisses. She returned a hesitant yet a passionate kiss. He never felt this kind of arousal towards Georgie before. Something hit his mind...

Shit! It couldn't be!

Hindi nagtagal at bumalik din si Georgie at pumasok sa silid. He smiled at her to ease the tension he was feeling at the moment. But his mind was somewhere else...someone else... his heart racing in panic for the truth that might surprise him. Why am I feeling this nervous?

"Nabili mo na ba ang kulang sa ingredients mo?" He asked. Wondering why he had asked that if she was here just a while back.

"Yeah, I'm making another delicious food for you tonight..." Sagot nito. Lalong lumakas ang hinala niya, so lumabas nga si Georgina at ngayon lamang ito bumalik.

Lumapit ito at ikinawit ang mga braso sa kanya. Naamoy niya ang pabango nito. Napakunot noo siya. His nervousness became more intense now.

"Did you change your perfume?"

"Ha? ano ka ba? I've been using this all the time." Tapos suminghot din ito nang may maamoy sa ere. "Did Celestine talk to you already?"

"Huh?"

"We'll, she's wearing my old perfume and it seems like she was here."

Jordan was completely stunned. He swallowed hard when realization sync into his every system. Damn! It was Celestine?!

"S-she was here?"

"I'm pretty sure she was here, who else would be? I gave that perfume to her kasi gustung-gusto niya e."

"You mean hindi ka bumalik kanina?" Kinakabahan niyang tanong kahit na iyon na nga ang naisip niya.

But Georgie didn't noticed his shock reaction. Bumitiw lang ito sa kanya bago  nagtuloy sa pintuan para lumabas. "Nope, I think kumuha siya ng gamit niya." 

Itinuro nito ang bag ni Celestine malapit sa tokador. Hindi nakasara ang bag nito at nakalabas pa ang swimsuit. Jordan groaned in frustration. It must be the reason why she was running after he kissed her! Fck! He did not just kissed her...he grounded his-- s**t! fck!

"Anyway honey, I have to prepare our dinner, wanna help me?" Georgie cut his thoughts. Pero parang wala siyang narinig. How could he be so stupid! Nasapo niya ang noo. This is not happening...

"Jordy, Are you okay? What's bothering you honey?" Nag-aalalang tanong ni Georgina sa kanya.

"Go ahead and prepare the food honey, I'll follow you in the kitchen."

"Alright!" Lalabas na sana ito ng kwarto nang may biglang maalala. "We should let the caretaker know na sira ang ilaw sa kwarto ko honey..."

"Okay." He answered absentmindedly. Still thinking of what just happened.

ROHAN introduced her to his barkadas. Matagal na niyang kilala ang mga barkada nito dahil nag-aaral naman sila sa parehong school. She was introduced formally by now. She met Cedric the silent type guy, Luke the talker type and Jenny. Jenny was the only girl and she seemed nice and boyish. Nakatuwaan nilang maglaro ng patentero sa tabi ng dagat. Celestine was happy with the guys, they were all laughing like little kids. At dahil madilim na, gumawa sila ng bonfire.

"I'm glad your brother  is not following us." Sabi ni Rohan pagkatapos nilang maglaro, ang tatlo ay tinuloy ang laro sa swimming.

"We fought this morning, he decided na hindi na daw niya ako pakikialaman." Balewalang kwento niya.

"Ibig sabihin wala ng makikialam sa panliligaw ko sa'yo?"

"Oi! Magpaalam ka muna sa parents ko no! akala mo ganun ganon lang iyon?" Natatawa niyang sagot na nagpangiwi dito.

"Grabe! Uso pa ba iyon? Paa-paalam na iyan?"

"Sa family ko, hindi iyan nawawala sa uso. Conservative sila."

"E sila lang pala ang conservative e, don't tell me pati ikaw?"

"Partly yes, they raised me...and I respect the value that they taught me ..."

"Hmm...I like that...I really like you Celestine..." Rohan turned serious.

"I-I like you too Rohan..." She lied. For it was the only way to forget about Jordan. The only way not to betray her own sister...is to focus her attention to someone else. She remembered the kiss they shared just a while ago...she will always treasure that kiss...in her young stupid heart.

Rohan held her hand. Smiling at her happily. "What does it mean? Tayo na ba?"

She smiled at him then gently pulled her hand away.

"Let me think about it Ro...are you willing to wait until I'm ready?"

"Yeah...Of course!" But he was not able to hide his disappointment.

Her cellphone vibrated and there were two text messages from Georgie, una ay nagtatanong kung kumain na siya, nagluto daw ito ng masarap na ulam, then in the second message, she was asking for a favor. Napakunot siya sa pabor na hinihingi nito but then she replied "Okay."

Jordan just couldn't sleep. He was completely bothered of what happened between him and Celestine. F*ck! He angrily got up from bed to get out of his room. Georgie might be sleeping already. Marahan niyang binuksan ang silid nito. Funny, but they've been together for six years but they both wanted space when it comes to bedtime that's why they choose to rent a three bedroom cottage.

Lumakad siya papunta sa higaan nito. She could hardly see her because the room was dark which he wondered why. Georgie never slept in the dark. The reason why they couldn't sleep together on the same bed overnight because Georgie hated darkness while he like darkness when it's time to sleep. He smiled. Their differences can be negotiated once they get married. But right now he wanted her...

Lumubog ang kama nang maupo siya rito. He watched her sleeping peacefully. He touched her face. What a perfect sight of an angel in the dark..

"Georgie..." It was almost a whisper. Gumalaw ito at pakiwari niya'y nagising kaagad.

"Jordy?"

He smiled and traced her lips with his thumb finger. He bent his head to claim her mouth. Fck! This familiar addictive lips is so hard to let go. He felt her stiffened.

"Honey..." He said as he bit her lower lip. She moaned with pleasure. What wondered him is that she remained hesitant. She's always been so responsive in their love makings.

Iniangat niya ito sa pagkakahiga. His left hand on her back and the other hand held her hair habang lumalalim ang halik niya dito. His whole body was in heat and it badly needed release.

He slid his hand under her shirt and touched her breast. She's not wearing bra. She moaned again when he played with her n*****s. Dumako ang bibig niya sa teynga nito. "Touch me honey..." Bulong niya habang hinihila ang kamay nito at dinala sa pagkalalake niya. Damn! His huge member is really aching since that---

No! He needed to focus on Georgie. Bumaba ang ulo niya sa leeg nito and gave her small bites. Narinig niya ang mahihinang hikbi nito at tila natakot na tinanggal ang kamay sa pagkalalake niya...but she gently caress his back as if urging him to never stop.

He continued kissing her neck nang matigilan siya sa pamilyar na amoy. Georgina's old perfume. Fck! No!  It is now Celestine's perfume! No way...again?! This can't be happening all day!

Daig pa niya ang nabuhusan ng mainit na tubig. Halos tumalon siya pababa ng kama at agad binuksan ang lamp shade sa side table. 

"Celestine?!" Bulalas niya nang makita si Celestine sa kama ni Georgie. "What the hell are doing in Georgina's room?!" He almost shouted. The girl's mouth swollen from his kisses...her neck all red from his bites and her hair was disheveled. He groaned in frustration at deeply closed his eyes in disbelief. He felt like a bastard!

"A-ate texted me to switch rooms w-with her." She answered nervously...avoiding his eyes.

"Ridiculous! Why didn't you even tell me? Why didn't you fight me when I touch you?!" Muli niyang singhal dito. This has happened for the second time only few hours away since the first time he mistook her as Georgie ! And he can't prevent his member to hold its every nerve from a violent erection! 

"I-I thought you were Rohan..." Agad nitong sagot. Pulang pula ang mukha.

"What?!" That frustrates him even more.

"You heard me Jordan."

"You expect that fucker to come here inside Georgina's room?! What the hell were you thinking?!"

"I-I told him that I exchange room with ate--"

"Damn!" Napatalikod siya sa sobrang inis at para narin maitago niya sa batang babae ang galit na galit niyang pagkalalake.

Agad siyang lumabas sa silid. Lumabas siya ng cottage at dumiretso sa dagat. He  swam to his hearts content para pahupain ang damdamin niya. Anger, arousal, and jealousy? Fck! To whom would he be jealous?

I thought you were Rohan 

Tila bumalik sa isipan niya ang sagot ni Celestine kanina. She thought he was Rohan that's why she allowed him to kiss her? but then she was calling his name! Unbelievable!

That bastard only want one thing from Celestine. Damn! Every piece of him was in violent denial! He couldn't be feeling this kind of arousal, he just thought she was Georgina back there! But she should not invite anyone in her room just like that! She was very young, only sixteen years old for Pete's sake! What would have happened kung hindi siya ang pumasok sa silid nito at kung si Rohan nga ang pumasok?

You were too protective with Sherry but you weren't able to protect her from you...

His own conscience mocked him.

Celestine was giggling like stupid kitten inside the room. Imagining how frustrated Jordan was just a while ago. It wasn't true na inakala niyang si Rohan ito, palusot niya lang iyon dahil sa nakikitang galit ni Jordan. She never thought this would happen again. Thanks to Georgie's old perfume! Ano bang malay niya na papasukin nito ang kwarto ni Georgie? Inakala niyang nasabihan na ito ni Georgie na nagpalit sila ng kwarto dahil sira ang ilaw sa silid nito at ang lampshade lang ang gumagana. Georgie never slept in the dark at lagi nitong gustong bukas ang ilaw pag natutulog samantalang hindi naman siya makatulog pag may ilaw. Pabagsak niyang inihiga ang sarili sa kama. Smiling dreamily at the ceiling. Bukas na niya puproblemahin ang tungkol sa kanila ni Jordan...she closed her eyes with a happy smile...

Jordan just kiss her for the second time around...in the very same night...