ALPHA KİNG'S MATE

English Translation Everyone around me has found a life partner, while I'm living lost in my loneliness, just two eyes in a single house. My mother and father lost their lives on a mission they went on as scouts two years ago. I feel their absence in my heart every moment, and I miss them so much. Until my family died, we were a family with a normal income level; however, after their untimely death, I learned that they had left behind a large amount of debt. To pay off my family's debts, I first sold the house, then the car, and also the jewelry that belonged to my mother. But these sales weren't enough to cover the debt my family left me. That's why, after selling the house, I moved into this small two-room apartment. The place is small, but since I live alone, it's enough for me. To pay off the remaining debt, I work day and night. As a result of my work, I barely manage to support myself with the money left over from the debts. Sometimes I work daily jobs, sometimes I work different temporary gigs. Every day, I struggle to pay off my debts as soon as possible so I can breathe easy. While coping with life's difficulties, I feel my family's absence even more deeply. I want to feel their love and support by my side at every moment. I try to stay standing with the memories of my mother and father. In this process, I am determined to stay strong and fight all the hardships life brings. Even though loneliness is hard, I live with the hope of getting rid of the debts my family left me and holding onto life again. --- On my only day off, I decided to clean my small house from top to bottom. I got up early in the morning, vacuumed all the rooms, dusted, and mopped the floors. These tasks took me hours, but in the end, my house was spotless. I was exhausted, but I had a strange sense of peace inside. I made myself a nice cup of tea and sat down on the couch. While sipping my tea, I picked up my phone and scrolled through social media. Just then, my phone rang. It was my closest friend, Gül. "Heyyy Eylül, what are you doing? Lazing around at home again?" she said cheerfully. I laughed and said, "What would you have me do, Gül? I'm tired, I chose the easiest thing to do. I'm lazing on my couch, as you put it." "Good then, you've lazed enough. We girls are getting together. Get ready, you're coming too," she said. I hesitated for a moment. I hadn't seen my friends in a long time. Meeting them might do me good. Plus, even for a short while, I could get out of this depression I'm in and clear my head. "Where will we meet, where will we go? Is there a specific plan?" I asked. "We're going out. We thought we'd get away from the crowd a bit, go into the city, do some shopping, have coffee, something like that. Then at night, we'll go to a bar. It's our right to have some fun too, isn't it?" she said. After Gül said these things, I remembered that I didn't have a single extra penny to spend. I was barely getting by, and on top of that, I had no money to spend outside. Biting my lip, I said, "Heyy Gül, what if I don't come? I've been cleaning all day, I'm dead tired." "Come on, Eylül, don't be a spoilsport! Please, don't refuse me, come," she insisted. "Some other time, Gül. Next time, I hope I can come with you," I said, trying to hide the bitterness inside me. "Alright then, my dear Eylül. I won't push you any further. Talk to you later, love you, you little grump," she said and hung up. I felt sad that I couldn't go with them. With disappointment, I threw my phone onto the couch and started sobbing. "Why, mom, why, dad? Why? Why did you make so much debt? Like I also wanted to go out and have fun like my friends," I rebelled. Sighing, I wiped away my tears. I sat down and thought deeply for a while. I felt my mom and dad's absence every moment. Their not being in my life got harder every day. But rebelling wasn't changing the past. I had to find a way to cope with this situation. I got up from the couch, went to the bathroom, and washed my hands and face. When I lifted my head and looked at my reflection in the mirror, there was no trace of my old self. There were bags under my eyes, and my face had sunken from stress and worry. Even though I was only 21, I felt like I was 50. In front of the mirror, I tied up my hair and decided to go outside to get some fresh air. When I went out, a cool summer evening breeze hit my face. I took a deep breath and started walking. As I wandered around my neighborhood, childhood memories came to mind. The picnics we had with my mom and dad, the joyful moments we spent together flashed before my eyes. My heart felt a little lighter. During my walk, I passed by a small park. I watched the children playing there for a while. They were so happy, life was so simple for them. I wished I could live a problem-free, carefree life like when I was a child. But now, I had a life full of responsibilities and debts. I sat on a bench and watched my surroundings for a while. I tried to enjoy the moment. I reminded myself to be strong, to overcome these difficulties. No matter how hard life gets, I shouldn't give up fighting. When I returned home, I felt a bit more relaxed. Even though I was alone, there were still beautiful things in this world. By keeping my mom and dad's memories alive, without forgetting the values and love they left me, I would continue living. And one day, I would get rid of these debts and rebuild my life. That night, as I lay in bed, I felt a faint glimmer of hope inside me. Maybe everything would get better one day. Maybe I, too, could go out freely and have fun like my friends. But until that day, I would continue to struggle. Because no matter how hard life is, giving up is not an option. --- I woke up to my phone's alarm at 6 in the morning. As usual, I dragged my body out of bed with difficulty and headed to the bathroom. After brushing my teeth and finishing up in the bathroom, I headed to the kitchen to have breakfast. Just then, my eyes caught the clock on the wall, and it was already 6:30. I didn't have time for breakfast, so I thought I'd grab a few bites at work. I hurried to my closet. I put on a white t-shirt and jeans. Walking towards the door, I quickly put on my white sneakers and left the house. I didn't want to spend money to go to work, so I had to walk for at least 30 minutes. Fortunately, one of the benefits of being a werewolf was that I didn't get tired easily. As I walked along the road, I started thinking about the tasks I had to do at work. Today would be a busy day; there were meetings, projects, and a lot of work to do. The walk helped clear my head. When I arrived at work, it was exactly 7:00. I entered the office with an energy that comes from starting the day early. As I sat down at my desk and turned on my computer, I had a quick breakfast from the snacks I took out of my bag. Despite this busy pace, walking to work early in the morning always did me good. --- I worked as an accountant in a small business. Waking up early every morning to go to work and dealing with numbers all day could be very tiring. But I had to be careful and meticulous in my job because even the smallest mistake could lead to big problems. When my shift ended, after organizing all the documents at work and turning off my computer, I set off to go home. When I got home, I quickly changed my clothes and had a few bites to eat. In the evenings, I worked as a bartender at the busiest bar in town. Working at the bar was a completely different world from accounting. There, I listened to people's different stories and prepared drinks for them. This job offered me a kind of socializing opportunity. Although the intense work pace tired me physically, it helped me relax mentally. Being constantly busy prevented me from overthinking and falling into depression. Working as a bartender after accounting allowed me to break out of my daily routine and gain a different perspective. I used my different skills in both jobs. Accounting required attention and attention to detail, while bartending helped me improve my social skills. Although it was hard to balance the two jobs, this intense pace gave me life energy. Sometimes I felt tired going to work in the morning, but at the end of the day, I experienced the satisfaction of successfully performing my duties both at work and at the bar.