Twin Curse: Blood Moon Day ( Book 2 )

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"What is it?" Sarah wrinkled her forehead and looked straight at me.

I held her hand in mine, the same as I remembered. Soft velvety skin, a small cross adorned her wrist. Scar no longer hides under a spell. Perhaps now is not the time, but I cannot wait any longer. It is time for her to know about the oath I swore to her mother. I'm not sure if I will say everything now, but I can't keep quiet any longer. Seeing with my own eyes how she hurts herself every time she casts a search spell is killing me from the inside.

"Perhaps we can have a chat in the car?" I looked at Sarah's face, which at the moment looked a little confused.

"Explain right now." Sara's tone of voice became full of anger, anxiety.

"It's an oath he made to your mother." Words left Bree's lips that she shouldn't have spoken.

I stared murderously at Bree, who was standing next to me. I saw the fear on her face at the sight of me. She knows exactly how much I hate when she speaks for me. For her, just because I saved a life doesn't mean I can't be the one who takes it away. Especially she can't hold her tongue. I released Sarah's hand, and with my other hand, I opened the car door, allowing her to sit in the car's front seat. I saw Chloe patting nearby like a little lost dog, not knowing what to do.

"Are you staying here or coming with us?" I looked at Chloe as I opened the driver's door.

"I need to be home. I hope you're not up to some terrible mischief?" Chloe raised her eyebrows, looking straight into my eyes.

"Don't suspect people who are on the same side of the barricades. I took my place on the driver's side, closing the car door behind me. I'll see you later, crow." I say, looking into Chloe throw open window.

With a few simple movements, I started the car, slowly pulling out of the yard. I could feel Sarah's gaze burning into me. I know perfectly well that she wants to know everything right now. But I don't want to have an accident before answering all her questions. Bree also stayed at my house, and I promised her that I would be back soon with Sarah's locket. Of course, that was a lie; I'm not that close to Sarah, not yet. She wouldn't give me her mother's locket for anything. That's why I have to tell her the whole truth. I can no longer hide the thoughts in my head that keep me awake at night.

"I remember you." Sarah's unexpected words left my lips.

I felt a few wrinkles appear on my forehead. I don't understand what Sara means by remembering me. I hope she is going to elaborate on these words that mean nothing to me. I stepped on the accelerator and moved in the direction of the police station.

"How you remember me?" I glanced at Sara, who was looking at me from a comfortable position.

"I remember when I was running along the path towards my house, and then I fell. I was just a little girl, and I remember you helping me." I saw the smile in Sarah's eyes.

I felt myself freeze for a second. My memory took me back to the little memories that I had to erase from Sarah's memory. Eira told me to do that. Every time I encounter Sara when it's not my time. I must remove myself from her memory. She cannot remember that I exist. Eira wanted her daughter to live the simplest possible teenage life until her eighteenth birthday. She tried to give her daughter as human a life as possible because she knew that a significant burden would fall on her shoulders after her eighteenth birthday. Despite her mother's wishes, everything had started much earlier, all the little spells, the magic, the disasters. That is why I had to appear earlier in her life. But how can she have this memory of me? I'm sure I've entirely erased myself from her memory. Even her mother has checked it.

" You shouldn't remember that. What else do you remember?" I wrinkled my forehead a little as I glanced at Sarah.

"Why shouldn't I remember it?" Sarah wrinkled her forehead as she crossed her arms over her chest.

I glanced at Sara out of the corner of my eye before replying. Her dark brown hair suited her fair face beautifully. Two deep, sparkling green eyes looked at me expectantly. Her lips were tightly pressed together in anger, in frustration. I felt myself smile involuntarily at her childish behavior. Although her eyes looked a little tired, I always found her sweet and beautiful. No matter with or without make-up. Whether in a fancy dress or wearing her usual clothes. As soon as her green eyes looked at me, my heart seemed to skip a beat. I have been madly in love with her since the first day I saw her. I will never be able to get her pretty face out of my memory. She is the reason why I am alive, why I breathe, why I try to live. I want to see the smile on her face again that suits her so damn well. I know that only Dillan can bring it back, even if sometimes... Sometimes I see a small light in her eyes looking at me. My heart melts for a moment when she looks at me with that look. I love those moments when her tinkling laughter spreads around and makes me smile. It is like a melody for the ears that never gets old.

"Your mother made me erase that from your memory." Without thinking long, I answered her question.

In a few seconds, I saw that small lines appeared on her forehead, showing her dissatisfaction and deep thoughts. There was a silence in the car that was not uncomfortable. I am sure she needs some time to understand why all this is happening. Slowly, I drove the car in the direction of the police station. I glanced at the dashboard, which showed ten o'clock in the morning. We still have half an hour before Finn shows up at the station.

"My mother made you erase you from my memory? But why?" Sarah put her hand on her chin, looking in my direction.

I'd like to know the answer to that question of hers. Eira never told me the real reason. All she told me was that it was not the time for me to be in Sara's life, not yet. Maybe it's a good thing that Sara didn't remember me growing up. There would probably be a huge hurricane in her head as to why I am in her memory, and now I am not around. But it doesn't matter now. For some unknown reason, she has managed to regain some of her memories of me. But this does not change her feelings towards me. She still does not trust me.

"I would like to know the answer too." The corner of my lips turned up as the memory flashed through my mind.

"Bree mentioned that it's an oath?" Sarah's fingers ran over the scar on her left wrist.

"Yes, I swore to Eira that I would always be the person to protect you." I slowly parked the car on the curb.

"Why did you do that? Why did you swear?" Sarah watched my every move with her soulful, confused eyes.

I switched off the car engine. I opened the car door to get out of the vehicle. In one swift movement, I found myself at Sarah's passenger door. I clicked the handle, then extended my hand to help Sarah out of the car. Even though it's still a long way to go, I don't want to spend time in the car. It's time for a walk somewhere. To get some fresh air, to let go of sad thoughts.

"Where are we going?" Sarah slammed the car door and turned to me.

"We still have time. I think I can tell you my story while we walk through the city streets." I winked as I walked down a grey city street.

"Where did you first meet?" Sarah yawned to my left, her hands deep in the pockets of her jeans.

"It was long time ago. You were just a little girl then. She was attending the Moon Masquerade event that was held at the castle. Yes, the same one where you met Dillan. I asked her to dance, and afterward, we exchanged a heart-to-heart talk about life." A small smile played on my lips at the memory of that evening.

"So, what was the reason you swore to protect me?" Sarah returned to the question I didn't want to answer.

That year was the blackest of my life. Ever since I killed my brother, nothing good had happened in my life. I have traveled through whole towns, villages, houses, and streets, killing innocent people. I could not stop the thirst in my throat, which seemed to burn stronger every day. I used my incredible ability to convince people. Free food, drinks. In the streets, I sowed fear, pain, and deprivation. I tried to escape from myself, from the monster I had become. I couldn't. Every face, every pleases for mercy, every scream, every tear. Every memory imprinted deep in my mind, keeping me awake at night. I do not want to reveal this dark side of myself to anyone. The pain in my chest that I carry with me is unbearable. Every day I remember the faces, the names, the places, and the people who died at my hand. I am a monster, killing to survive. I have never tried to control that thirst in my throat, it is pointless. It would only go away for a moment when the victim's body was completely empty when there was not a drop of blood left in it. After that fateful night when Eira persuaded me to swear that I would always protect Sara, something changed in my mind. Of course, my killer instinct hasn't gone anywhere, but when I look at Sara. I realize how fragile human life is. I never feel that burning hunger in my throat when I look at her. It seems that I can control myself, change, and become a better person at that moment. But it is only for a short time because she is not mine. Sarah's heart belongs to Dillan, which is why I will never stop being a monster. She will never belong to me. When it's over, when the spell is broken, I'll just leave. I'll run far away from her as I can, across the ocean, the mountain, the river, and the lagoon.

"I guess I wanted something new in my life at that time." I shrugged my shoulders, trying to evade Sarah's question.

"Doesn't this oath have any side effects?" Sarah threw a confused look in my direction.

"It doesn't. It's just an oath." I smiled.

We walked in silence for a few minutes. I don't know if she believed my words, but I can't tell her that I might die. I can't betray that my heart is in her hands. It wouldn't sound like wanting something new, more like signing my death warrant. I fixed my eyes on my left hand, which had a small cross on it, just like Sarah's.

"That oath is probably the reason why your ring and my pendant can be joined." Sarah looked at the pose in front of her eyes.

"Possibly, but that doesn't explain why my ring changes colors. When I'm close to you, my ring regains its true red color. Not all of it, but a little." I said out loud.

" Do you have one of these too?" Sarah's eyes slowly traveled back to her wrists.

"Yes, it's like a reminder." I held out my left hand to Sarah, showing her the scar.

"It didn't heal?" Sara's gentle fingers traced the cross on my wrist.

"Not even my vampiric curse could heal this oath scar." I confirmed Sarah's words.

"I think you're still hiding something, Cassian." A small smile appeared on Sarah's face for a moment, which disappeared in an instant.

" Now you know everything. That oath was the last thing I kept from you." I smiled broadly.

I know precisely how Sarah doesn't like my little flirting tricks, but I can't help it. She's a hell of a mate attraction. If only I weren't so careful, I'd kiss her right now. But her feelings are hurt now that Dillan is missing. Her heart is broken for her dad, and she has evil thoughts about her sister. Now is not the time to show her warm feelings. She needs a friend, a shoulder, a counselor right now. The lover's place is already taken. We will have to wait. No matter how long it takes, I will wait for her. I will wait until her heart beats only for me, even though it may take a while. A year, two, ten, fifteen, maybe fifty. It doesn't matter to me how long I managed to live just thinking about her. What matters is that I have her by my side now. I can smell that sweet scent of hers, look into those green eyes that attract me so much, see that little smile in her eyes. That is enough for me for now.

"Isn't it time for us to go back?" Sarah froze in place, pulling her phone out of her pocket.

"If you afraid we're going to be late so we can go back." I turned on my heel, gesturing in the opposite direction.

"I don't want to be late for my meeting with Finn. I don't think he would be happy." Sarah dialed someone's number on her phone.

We walked slowly back towards the police station. My thoughts returned for a moment to last night. I remember how she slept sweetly, leaning against the car window. I didn't want to wake her up, so I took care of her until I got to my bedroom. I know how uncomfortable it is to sleep with my clothes on, so I had to take them off. Not ultimately, of course, although I would have liked to. I want to cover her whole body with little kisses, to bury my face in her soft hair, to forget everything for a moment. A strange feeling made little shivers run down my spine. This feeling never fools me. Its danger lurking just around the corner, I felt my body immediately tense up.

"Hello, Finn? Yes, I'll be five minutes." Sarah was on the phone looking at the pose in front of her.

Before I could blink, I felt instantly pinned against the wall. Two golden eyes stared straight at me, and bright white teeth reached for my neck. What the f**k is this werewolf doing in the city?