The Wolfless Alpha

Chapter 3

Travis's POV

Disgrace.

Worthless.

Shame.

Embarrassment.

The words continued to echo in my head as I made my way to forest behind the pack house.

I was running as fast as I could in my human form.

My insides are burning because of pain and anger while a chaos is running in my head.

'you are nothing but a disgrace to my family and pack. I hate you'

'you should have died in her place'

'I wish I could kill you'

His words are stabbing my heart like a knife causing me immense pain. But the thing which is breaking me and making me insane is his last words which he said with so much venom, it made me feel suffocated.

'you killed her'

My tiring feet halted in my tracks as I fell down on the ground while a scream erupted from my mouth,

“why?”

“Just why do I have to suffer like this?”

I asked the question while looking at the dark sky hoping to receive an answer this time but like every other time only silence was my answer.

I don’t understand why moon goddess is playing with me like this.

What wrong have I done that she is punishing me in this way.

Was not giving me a wolf not enough?

I have been suffering since last two years. Getting insulted and beaten up by others has become my life.

Each day new bruise will adorn my skin and a new wound will be placed in my heart but was it not enough for moon goddess to feel satisfied that she took the only person whom I loved and cared about.

Samantha.

She was like a mother to me. She practically raised me since I was a kid. My mother died right after I was born and Samantha was the one who took care of me and gave me the love even my father and step mother never gave me.

And now she is gone.

Moon goddess snatched her from me.

She died this afternoon while saving me from my step mother.

The scene is still playing in my mind like a movie….

Flashback…

I was sitting in my room while staring out of the window when door of my room burst open and Amanda, my step mother and Luna of the pack walked inside.

She was fuming and I instantly understood why she is here.

“How dare you raise your hand on my son” she yelled while throwing daggers in my direction.

“he was insulting my mother” I said looking directly in her eyes. She and Aiden, her son clearly know how much I hate whenever anyone talks bad about my mother. But still he called her w***e and other names.

I lost my mind and punched him hard. Whenever Aiden or any of his friends hit me, I don’t fight back.

Because I know it will end up hurting me more. Being the future Alpha of the pack, he has authority and he uses it to make my life a living hell.

So I just let them hit me because I know after hitting me for some time they will leave.

But today I not only punched him but I made sure to break his bones as well. And right when he was about to shift, Ben came and stopped him saying he needed to talk about something important with him. Though I was punished for raising my hand on Future Alpha, I don’t regret it.

Just because I don’t fight back doesn’t mean I am weak and they will do whatever they want.

A stinging pain on my face caused me to clench my jaw tightly. My hands curled in tight fist. I controlled myself from hitting her back.

No, it is not because she is a woman and I shouldn’t hit her.

Hell if I get a chance I won’t even hesitate before killing her. But she is the Luna of the pack. I am sure she must have already told Alpha Zander about me hitting his son and the punishment which must me awaiting me will be something very painful.

I don’t want to add any more punishment by hitting Amanda.

“how dare you. He is your Alpha” she said through gritted teeth.

“It doesn’t matter who is it. No one and I repeat no one can insult my mother”. I said not caring about the consequences of my words.

“your mother? She deserves whatever Aiden said. She was nothing but a w***e who stole my man” she said looking into my eyes. I saw her eyes changing colours. Her wolf wants to take control.

I can feel the anger radiating from her body. She is raged and her murderous gaze is telling me that she wants to kill someone, and that someone is me.

But even the dark look in her eyes is not enough to scare me and I said the words which I am sure burned her insides,

“You sure you are not talking about yourself. Because last time I checked my mother is Alpha Zander's fated mate and you were the w***e who was willing to spread her legs for a married man” I said.

“Die, you bastard” she shouted.

In the next moment she raised her hand. I didn’t notice until now that she is holding a knife in her hand and was about to stab me with it right on the place where my heart is.

Before I could understand what is happening Samantha came out of nowhere and stood in front of me and took the stab which was meant for me.

“sam….” A whisper escaped from my mouth as Sam's body fell on me while she groaned in pain.

Only now I realized it was a silver knife.

Fear gripped my heart as I sat on the floor with Samantha in my arm, bleeding.

Tears were rolling down from her eyes as I stared at her with fearful eyes.

“sam…” I whispered and a lone tear rolled down from my eyes.

It is not time to cry.

I got up from the floor while carrying her in my arms bridal style.

I need to take her to hospital.

“Travis…” she called my name. Her weak voice is laced with pain and agony. I have heard that a silver knife can kill a wolf.

“Stay with me please” I muttered trying to control my tears. My heart is beating loudly in my ribcage as panic has covered my mind.

“Run…”

“ Don’t speak Sam, you will be okay” even though I said these words to her it felt like I am trying to assure myself.

Even after fighting so much my tears broke free and began streaming down from my eyes.

“Run… away Travis” these are the last words she uttered before she closed her eyes.

My feet halted as I looked down at her face. My knees buckled and I fell down on the floor.

“Don’t… please, don’t leave me” I cried out as a sob escaped from my lips.

My heart clenched painfully and breathing became difficult for me. Samantha was the only person I could say that I considered as my family and now she died because of me.

I couldn’t bear the pain spreading in my each vain and gripping my heart tightly. Black dots appeared in front of me and darkness consumed me.

Flashback ends.

…

When I woke up I was in the pack hospital. My best friend Aron was there with me.

“Sam.. where is she?” I asked him with so much fear and hoping that it was just a nightmare.

But my last hope broke when tears streamed down from his eyes and he whispered, 'she is gone'.

I was devastated.

But when I heard my father’s voice saying while entering the hospital room, “only because of you”, something broke in me.

He said so many things to me but among all the hurtful things he said, the words

'you killed Samantha just like you killed your mother. They both died because they loved you', hit me hard.

I was at the verge of breaking down completely when he uttered,

“You killed her”.

And that was it. I came out of hospital and began running.

My heart is shattering into pieces and this pain is becoming hard for me to bear.

No matter how much I want to believe that Alpha Zander is lying. He is saying everything just to hurt me but I can’t. Because I know whatever he said is true.

My mother died right after she gave birth to me and Samantha died while saving me.

I am the reason for their death and the guilt is eating me from inside.

I clutched my chest because of the unbearable pain.

I was drowning in the pool of guilt when a voice said from beside me, “it is not your fault”.

I looked at Aron through my blurry vision and shook my head, “it is my fault” I said.

“It is not but still if you blame yourself you should ask Sam for forgiveness and pay her back for her sacrifice” he said calmly. I wiped my face and looked at him with a frown not understanding his words.

“How should I pay her back?” I asked him.

“You should fulfill her last wish so that she can rest in peace” he said to me patting my shoulder gently.

Her last wish. I can do that.

I got up from the ground and made my way to the pack house but stopped when Aron stood in front of me.

“where are you going?” he asked raising a brow.

“To kill that b***h who is responsible for everything” I said walking past him.

Luna or not, I don’t care anymore. All I know is that I have to kill her.

“And then what, spend your entire life in the dungeon getting tortured?” He asked.

I sensed anger in his tone.

“Then what do you want me to do huh? Let that b***h live happily when she just killed Sam huh?” I asked back. Anger is crawling in each part of my body thinking about that b***h.

Every fiber in me wants to kill her right now. I once again began walking in the direction of pack house.

“Do you think Sam will be happy to see you getting tortured everyday. Do you think she took that stab for you so that you live each day in pain ?” he asked.

I know Sam would never want that for me. She loved me like her own son.

“Then what do you want me to do” I asked feeling exhausted and helpless. “The pain in here is increasing with each passing second. And it is making me crazy” I added while pointing towards my chest.

“I told you to fulfill her last wish not to go and ruin your life by killing Amanda. I am sure she wants you to do it and will be happy” he replied. He looks as exhausted as me.

He loved Samantha just like me. She was one nice woman with a heart of gold. Anyone who was having a hard time, she would pull them in her warm embrace.

She loved everyone, especially me.

She even died for me and the least I can do is to fulfill her last wish so that she can rest in peace without any worry.

“I will do it, tell me what is her last wish?” I asked hoping he knows what is it. Because I have no idea about it.

But one thing I am sure whatever it is I will fulfill it. I was not sure what he will say but I never imagined that he will utter something like this,

“You should leave the pack Trav, and never ever come back” he said.

I stared at him with wide eyes then a weak voice ranged in my ears, squeezing my heart once again causing tears to fill in my eyes.

Even in her last moments, she was thinking about me. Maybe that is why she whispered the words before dying,

‘Run Away Travis'.